Letters

Chapter IV

Bella's POV

I'm mad, really bad, but don't tell my mom and dad.

Pucker up, kiss my butt cause I'm bloody fuckin' nuts

Hear the bass, skinny waist now lets copy Poker Face like

whoa, whoa oh oh oh whoa whoa.

I'm mad really bad but don't tell my mom and dad.

Pucker up, kiss a nun, 'cause it pays to be a slut...

I turned up the volume on my Ipod as I ran down Main street to block out the sounds of the annoying boys honking their car horns at me and their cat calls. I don't know why I keep running my usual route. Especially because I know that the same thing happens every time I do. I know that what I'm wearing doesn't really help anything either but, I'm not going to sacrifice my comfort for anybody. I am wearing skin tight athletic short shorts and a sports bra. I've also heard that my hair gets the guys in a real spin. Who knew low sitting pig tails that rest just behind my ears would do that? I think part of me likes the attention. It just sucks that it's attention from people I don't want attention from.

I kept running until I reached the driveway of my small house. It's not the smallest house I've ever seen but it is not large by any means. It's a simple three bedroom house with one bathroom and a small front porch. (Obviously it has a kitchen and a living room.) As I was just about to walk past the mail box, I decided to check it. It had been about three days since I sent the last letter to Edward Cullen and I was already getting antsy to hear from him again.

I opened the lid and pulled out the stack of mail, and then jogged quickly into the house. Pulling off my earphones, I didn't realize that Renee was standing against the kitchen counter with the phone up to her ear.

"...She's been Charlie. She hasn't gotten in any trouble here in Forks. I'm very proud of her." She said with a warm smile on her face. She must have noticed that I walked in because she winked at me. I smiled back just as warmly. It's times like this that make me regret talking to her like she means nothing to me. I know that she does so much for me and I know that I take her for granted sometimes, but I'm trying to be better.

I lifted myself onto the counter beside her. She wrapped a thin arm around my shoulder while I looked through the mail and she listened to my father.

"I'm serious Charlie she's been absolutely wonderful around here. Don't get me wrong, we have our moments but what mother and daughter doesn't?....She just came in from a run, would you like to talk to her?"

I perked up a little when I heard this. I had one more piece of mail to look at but it could wait if my dad actually wanted to talk to me.

"...Oh, okay then. I guess we'll talk to you some other time...okay....I will. Bye." She hung up. She must have noticed that my eyes started to get glassy because she wrapped her arms around me while I cried silently into her shoulder. I may not talk to my dad much anymore but that doesn't mean that I don't want to, but it hurts to know that he doesn't.

"It's okay honey, he's just busy at the moment. I know he'll talk to you soon. Hey, why don't you call Vive and ask her if she wants to come over and spend the night so you have some girl time together? That sound good?" I have to say, it does but...

"Thanks mom but it's a school night and I have some homework and other things that I want to tonight. But thanks for asking. I'm just gonna go up to my room for a while." I said, while removing myself from her embrace and wiping the left over tears on my face.

I started walking up the stairs when she said, "Don't you want your letter?"

Crap! I forgot all about that last piece of mail!

"Yes please!" I said while walking toward her again, grabbing the letter and quickly turning and running up the stairs to my bedroom. After I closed my door, I leaped onto the bed and ripped open the envelope and unfolded the letter.

Dear Bella,

Wow, you're friends sound like they're a lot of fun to be around. But, I have to say that the Jake kid seems kind of weird with the picture thing. No offense. -why do people think that's so weird? I also want to say sorry about you and your father. What happened? (if you don't mind me asking.) I have to to say that I was extremely surprised to find out that you like working out in your spare time. Not many teenagers like doing that. By the way what is "Punk-rock aerobics"? -does he think he's being sneaky throwing in those extra questions? Anyway, I'll answer your questions now.

First, it's not fun being in the army. Your constantly worrying that something will go wrong and your taking direction all the time. -Yeah, I wouldn't deal well with that. Also it can be awkward trying to get to know the other people if you don't know anyone. Luckily (I guess) I have my brother-in-law Jasper. He's married to my sister Alice.

Second, my family...their good. I don't really talk to them much. It seems that I've been detaching myself from them. Especially lately. They call all the time but, I can't really find it in me to want to talk to them. Of course I miss them but, I just can't talk to them.

Third, I don't wear panties because it's girl underwear and I am a man. Also, what guys do you know that wear panties? That kind of weirded me out. :) -I can't believe Army man made a smiley face.

Fourth, "My Friends" by Red Hot Chili Peppers.

Fifth, well, I'm 6'3'', I have green eyes and I've been told that I have "bronze" colored hair. I guess I'm pretty muscular because of all the working out. I don't know, I feel weird describing myself. I'll just send you a picture of me next time around.

Sixth, I have no idea what my favorite movie of all time is. But, the movie that I can watch over and over again without ever getting tired of it is the original Sandlot.

Now that I've answered your questions, it's time to ask some questions of my own.

You mentioned a lot of things that you like to do in your spare time. Can you tell me a little more about them?

I know that you said that you listen to just about everything but, what do you think your favorite type of music is?

What do you look like? (it's only fair that I ask.)

What's your favorite book?

What have you been up to lately?

Well, that's about it.

I'll talk to you soon,

Edward.

I have to admit. I squealed a little on the inside. I reached over into my school bag and pulled out a binder, paper, and a pen and began to write.

You all are so amazing. I can't even comprehend it. All the support that I got from everyone was amazing and I'm feeling a lot better. To be honest, I have been for a while. I was actually going to update last week but then life happened and got in the way. But again, I want to say thank you so much for all the love and support I felt from you all. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

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OH! AND THE SONG THAT BELLA WAS LISTENING TO WHILE SHE WAS RUNNING WAS A PARODY OF THE KE$HA SONG TIK TOK. THE SONG IS by The Midnight Beast. Find it on YouTube. It's hilarious!