The alarm rang and Yi woke up instantly. New day. Monday ! Usually he wasn't so glad to get up early like this, especially monday because it followed weekend aka the best moment of the week. However now he had a reason to be happy to get up, Yasuo.
They both started at 8, the worst horary but at least they would get to see each other before classes. That was all that mattered and it pushed him to get up quickly with new motivation.
Early morning was hell but soon enough he would hear from the latter. He knew Yasuo would wake up a bit later than him, even when their classes started at the same time. Simply because he could. Usually the latter was so tired in the morning because of his poor choice of sleep schedule. The years didn't teach him, he would always go to bed rather late and seem a bit dead during the first hours of class.
So he had some time before he would get an answer from Yasuo. Too happy to find him again, Yi still texted him, sitting in bed before definitely going down the stairs to have breakfast.
[Hello hello ! I hope you slept well, dear.]
Yi blushed lightly for that, he had no idea how much love he could give in pet names. The same struggle. As long as neither minded, he would stick to that and discreetly show his affection.
With a light heart, he made his way in this silent house. Soon his parents would get up, after the faint noise in the kitchen of someone up.
During his breakfast Yi paid attention to any message received but as expected, the latter wasn't replying. He's still sleeping. It was alright, Yasuo had still some time to rest.
After washing his bowl and greeting his mother, Yi returned upstair to get ready. Next step was the shower.
Again, he had no notification after he was done, in fresh clothes. It would make almost half an hour since himself got up but yes, usually he got up early enough to have some free time.
A text arrived a few minutes later and Yi surged a bit to read it.
[not much]
[tired]
Oh no. Both knew most of times Yasuo held the whole blame, he could have gone to bed earlier if he really wanted to sleep. But morning wasn't nice and Yi wouldn't make a remark about it.
[Courage. I know you can do it.]
[yeah]
Nothing more. Yi waited a bit for next message but it seemed that this morning Yasuo wasn't really talkative. Maybe he got a bad night and struggled to fall asleep. Or he's in a bad mood.
It wasn't so fair to him, he had done nothing but it was fine. They would still meet before class and hopefully they would find a quiet corner to hug.
It maybe touched a bit his own mood but he wasn't going to turn cold on this. If Yasuo wasn't feeling well or maybe angry or exhausted, he wouldn't bother him much. Just stay near and silent.
Yi had the idea of texting Yone, to see if there was indeed a matter with his brother but thinking again, it was a bit too much. Surely nothing bad. He had already seen Yasuo some morning, it wasn't peaceful.
A sigh escaped him as he got his laptop and settled in bed for his small free time.
No other message came when he got ready to leave then when he walked to highschool. This started to worry him genuinely, for the contrast with every night and day since they got together was clear. While they would take several minutes just to settle on a proper goodbye, now it was heavy silence. In any case, Yi would respect him no matter what. Maybe he didn't want to talk some mornings, far too low on sleep.
I hope he's alright.
Like always Yi was mong the first students waiting for highschool to open its gate. He would then wait in the building for his friend and Yasuo. They never arrived just before class time, since Yone prefered to have good minutes to relax a little and not be in a hurry.
Then they were there. He saw first Yone entering the main hall, rather happy expression despite the hateful time of the day. Was there even a day when he wasn't cheerful ? Yi liked that, it was good to have someone obviously positive around.
Yasuo was just behind, in a whole other mood. The opposite of his brother. Exhaustion was so clear, even in his stance as he followed Yone at first then stopped once he spotted Yi.
That exchange of gazes was a bit peculiar. Something is wrong. He didn't know what but it wasn't simply Yasuo being awake far too early for his habits. While Yone waved at him gently then went to greet other friend, the latter went to him quietly.
What a change. He remembered the few times between classes when Yasuo would practically run and catch him in his arms, far too happy to see him. Right now, it was different. He looked…off.
Almost on habit they went to a more quiet place, not far of the lockers. There would be less people there, he hoped. It was odd, Yasuo far too quiet by his side. He didn't even reach for him like he would on most days.
Then there was no escape, just the obvious need to talk. They couldn't stand there doing nothing, it was far too obvious there was a matter. Not just exhaustion.
« Hey. What's wrong ? » On reflex he gently pulled Yasuo close, until he could eventually put his arm around his waist. The latter let him do yet not a single word, gaze down without real focus.
Yi wanted to kiss him but he didn't dare to. Worry creeped up again, guiding his gestures and he couldn't help it. Given the silence met, he tried to make Yasuo look up, just to meet his gaze.
« I can see there's a matter. Please, tell me. Something happened ? »
It didn't make a lot of sense because he saw Yone going like always. Unless he was good at hiding his problems, there wasn't an issue at home. Or maybe something too private ?
What scared Yi was the lack of reciprocity. He held Yasuo but there was none of this need for affection displayed before.
Did I do something wrong ? It was time to question himself.
Before he could overthink, Yasuo broke that silence.
« No, it's…nothing. It's just… » Then he went quiet, probably looking for his words. During that time he couldn't even look back at him, averting it. Now it plainly looked like sadness or too deep emotion for an early morning at highschool. « Us. How do you see it going ? »
Ah ?
It was too sudden, Yi didn't know how to take this. It was far too clear that Yasuo struggled over something and now he mentioned their relationship. Fear lurked at the corner, twisting.
« What do you mean ? » A bit lost, unsure about what he was supposed to say.
Yasuo looked so bothered over this, critical emotion that couldn't be soothed easily.
« Us as boyfriends. Did you…did you want this to last or just stop when you'll leave to study ? Or after graduation ? »
Oh. That kind of issue. It hurt to see Yasuo like this, looking elsewhere even as he held him. As if he wanted to be elsewhere.
Everything made sense now. Yi just needed to check.
« Do you want to ? That's the matter ? You want to stay with me but fear I might…leave you behind ? » It was so painful to say, to even voice this. Because Yi wanted to be his boyfriend and stay by his side as long as they could. Hands craddling Yasuo's face, it made his heart ache to see such fear for the future.
« I…want to be with you. But if you don't wanna… »
Tension was unbearable, Yi finally snapped out of this and kissed him. Maybe a bit too suddnely but he wanted so much to soothe his fears while giving his affection. He might have left a small noise into the kiss when Yasuo returned it with the soft despair of clinging to love. At last he held Yi mutually, with a strenght only matched by their feelings for each other.
Yasuo still parted and gave a helpless look. Begging for a voiced answer.
« I want to. When I confessed back, it was in hope we'd be together. Forever. » Maybe a bit sentimental but it was needed right now.
To be taken into another kiss as quick. Yasuo was so clingy in his moves now, the opposite of this start of morning. Some good news.
Yi relished this attention as much as every other time. However he couldn't dodge the implications of all this. He's scared. Obviously Yasuo's behavior had sort of switched on after being confirmed they seeked the same thing. This whole morning could have been the consequence of this fear. A bit distant, not very talkative. It made sense and it hurt Yi a little to realize this probably ate the latter up all night.
It was stupid but maybe all this could have been prevented if he had made it clear before. The kiss was good enough to make him follow, moving along. At taste of relief. I should have seen that coming.
When they parted Yasuo a lot more like usually, without counting the obvious time he hadn't slept. Return of this constant love in his gaze each time he looked at Yi. His whole world.
« I'm sorry. I didn't know this would be misunderstood. I don't know how we will do but I want to continue this relationship even if I have to go study elsewhere. »
« No, no, it's not your fault ! Just, I guess I overthought a bit. I…want that too, to be your boyfriend for as long as you want me. Forever. » That last word ended up a bit muffled because Yasuo at last surrended to his new habit, burrying his face in his coat to be as close as possible.
What a soft feeling, after such rollercoaster. Yi wouldn't let go of his worry that easily but everything showed this matter was solved. It was crystal clear, they were together.
Forever. It gave a light red tint to his cheeks while he hugged tightly Yasuo. Then the alarm for classes rang, making both groan quietly for the interruption.
« Fuck this. » Again very muffled thanks to his position in Yi's coat but it was still understandable.
« Yes, fuck this indeed. »
A light chuckle came from Yasuo after such comment.
« Language. »
Back to himself.