I Own Nothing

AN:

CN: This Chapter is dedicated to Jennifer

Title: Five Mothers

Jennifer had hated him the first time they met Brian knew. She had wanted him as far out of Justin's life as possible after the bashing. She'd blamed him for what happened to her son. She'd spent Mother's day sitting beside Justin's hospital bed hoping he'd wake up. He'd made his self listen to her before she'd gone home that night wanting him to give her the gift of him opening his eyes. It was still months before the ice between them had melted when he'd taken Justin back to the loft once he had woken up.

He had always let Justin sign his name to the card that Justin gave her for the first few years. After he married Justin though he'd started doing more than just the card. The first year he had her as a mother in-law they took a vacation together. Justin, Jennifer, Molly, Gus, and his self when Jennifer decided. He'd told her to pick where she wanted to go and he'd make it happen. Jennifer had wanted to wait til school was out so Molly and Gus could go with them. They had gone to Florida to Disney World. She'd never been there even though Justin had gone with Daphne before. They had spent a week there because she'd wanted to have fun.

It had been so much fun that week like he'd never thought it could be. They had gone on almost every ride too. The weekend of Mother's Day he had given her a spa day which was from Justin and him both. Jennifer had been surprised not expecting the day and the trip to come when he'd given it to her. He had taken her out to dinner too with Justin and Molly the Saturday night before.

He had given her a card which had contained the first ever 'Love Brian' in it. Justin hadn't put his name on it this time. He'd even picked out the card his self at the store. It was the first time he'd wanted to do something without feeling he had to like the other two mothers he'd had. He had been happy to have Jennifer as his mother in-law. She had told him before he'd even married Justin she would be happy to have him as a son. She had already considered him a part of their family knowing that he'd loved Justin for years.

This year however for Mother's Day he had gotten a special card made up for Jennifer. It was his way of surprising her with an added bonus that was coming soon of becoming a grandmother. He'd included the sonogram picture inside the card of the twins that Daphne was carrying for Justin and him. They hadn't told anyone for the first three months and Mother's Day had been the start of the second trimester so they had told Jennifer in the card. He'd gotten teased by Justin and Daphne saying it was corny. He hadn't cared though because he'd finally found a mom that loved him for him.

Even though Justin had teased him, his husband had understood what he felt. Jennifer might have taken time to warm up to him, but she had become the only mom he really ever had. If something happened that didn't go right in Justin's life he wasn't fingered as the reason. Jennifer hadn't even blamed him when Justin had left him for those few weeks back during the Ian mess. She had favored him over the fiddler and he'd found out from Daphne that Jennifer had even said it to Justin.

He'd never been the one picked over someone that could be better. It wasn't because he had the money and means to support them either. It wasn't because of anything except the honest part of being loved. When Jennifer had opened the card she'd been so shocked since she'd known that he hadn't thought of more kids. It had been one of the things that had almost broke Justin and him up before the bombing for good. She had hugged him so tight thanking him for making her a Grammie.

Knowing that Jennifer loved him inspite of all the things in his past made things better. It was the first time that he felt unconditional love outside of Justin and Gus. He thought it wasn't even possible. He'd hated that word for so long because it was what people told him he was supposed to have; even for his parents that had abused him. Besides that one slap over being blamed before Jennifer saw how much he really loved Justin she'd never touched him besides love.

He'd understood where she'd come from that time thinking Justin might die. He'd never held it against her either. She was also the first woman he'd ever said I love you to that was a mother figure to him besides those first few years as a child. He'd never even said the words to Debbie all those years when she'd said it. He called her mother Taylor all the time and she'd been so happy about him taking their name. She was the one that convinced them that it wasn't insane to get married when they almost called it off. He had her to thank for the years of his life that had been the best. She was the reason he had the man he loved and he'd be forever grateful to her for that.

~TBC~