All this felt like a far dream. Soft blur around his thoughts and moves, as sleep abandoned Yasuo. Mmmh. It was nice for now, unable to think properly. All that mattered was to curl into the blanket as he could without falling off the couch and hopefully go back to sleep.
After some time, he realized he couldn't anymore. No obvious reason, maybe he got his rest already. Without looking around he could tell the sun was up, lighting nicely the living room in the way of a beautiful day.
Sighing, Yasuo rolled over to lie on his back, enjoying this peace while he could.
Oh shit.
Yes, he wasn't at home. Could have forgot that, thanks to the sweet embrace of sleep. Eyes blinking open, he could just confirm he was somewhere else. Yi's place. With that information came back emotions, suffocating.
Morning couldn't eraze everything he felt during the night. It still shook him just to remember. No… Many messages, pleading for an answer, for explanations, for anything. Sudden spike of pain, Yasuo decided to completely ignore that topic and focus on anything else.
Really a big effort but he somehow succeeded. Instead, his thoughts stayed stuck on the direct environment. Yi. Gaze wandering in the room, registering any detail that he hadn't noticed yet. So this was where his friend lived. It wasn't magical, merely someone's home and this gentle atmosphere of a lively place clung to its walls. Calming, as strange as it could sound. What someone called home really said a lot about this person. Comfy, the minimum of disorder to keep it familiar.
No doubt he wasn't falling asleep again. Yasuo stated this innerly as the time of waking, while he reached for his phone. Oh, not yet noon. A bit of a relief, he knew his sleep rhythm to be quite delayed compared to other people so this risked to bother Yi. No mention at all of the several messages waiting for him, he was resolute not to think about this.
He paid attention to any noise in the flat, to see if the latter was awake already. Chances he was, he remembered from highschool himself suffered greatly of the ungodly hour of first classes while Yi took it quite well.
Yet not a single noise. Maybe he went outside ? I don't know.
Yasuo knew nothing of the latter's habits. Probably awake at that time, going on his routine or else. So he had to move soon. Obviously Yi would do his best not to bother his sleep by avoiding the living room and staying overly quiet. Even in his own flat.
Oh !
While he was gathering his strenghts to get up, he spotted Lily. Right there, in the room, comfortably settled on her cat tree, she looked down on him.
« Well, hello cutie ! » Small joy translated in his tone, for the presence of the cat even though she stared at him like he was an intruder. Partially true.
This would help a lot to get up, now that he had motivation. Though he wasn't sure it was a good idea to rush and try to pet her. In any case, he got out of 'bed' and walked in happy steps to the cat tree.
His mind was so focused on not scaring the poor Lily and still getting as close as possible that he didn't hear the new presence in the room.
« And hello to you, Yasuo. I see that you got some appreciated visit. »
Gazing back, indeed Yi was there, standing at the door of the living room before joining him.
Oh…
Thoughts gone for a few seconds, stuck on the sight of the latter. Indeed in a rather private setting. Yi wasn't as disheveled as him, surely he got up earlier and did some cleaning up but there was still this specific mood of finding him in his peaceful home. Clothing a bit loose, hair down without care.
The time Yi made it to the cat tree, Yasuo had to suppress any voiced reaction. Good lord…
« Hi. » Just to get that out was difficult, trying not to seem moved at all.
So now he returned his attention on Lily, to prevent being caught eyeing the latter. Stop stop stop.
Meanwhile, Yi reached gently for the cat, petting her despite her high position above them. She took it well, purring under the touch.
Yasuo felt his heart melt a little, also hoping she would let him.
« Awwww, she's adorable. » Maybe he said it already too many times but it was true. Such tiny furry ball, staying there for the attention given.
« Yes she is. Hear that, my lady ? Beautiful. » It was obvious how much he loved Lily, such affection.
After a good minute spent watching this simple yet entertaining show, Yi took his hand away.
« Tell me, do you want some coffee ? I think it's too late for breakfast but I'll make us lunch instead. »
By mere mention of food, Yasuo felt hungry. « Damn yes, that would be nice. Let's go ! »
With renewed energy he followed Yi to the kitchen, as long as his thoughts got a new focus. Now it was time for this same cheerful mood, getting a bit noisy while they prepared food.
It was easy and it was a good distraction. Very glad to have a warm cup of coffee handed not long after, along a small smile. That one detail meant nothing, Yasuo took a sip to mask the fluster but he just managed to almost burn himself. Ouch.
« So, did you sleep well ? Lily didn't bother you ? »
This was only polite to ask, Yi's tone giving that same kindness he used to before. But nonetheless it reminded Yasuo of the night, the breakdown he feared so much. It happened in private, at least.
Shit shit shit…
« Erm, it was fine, don't worry. And she's too cute to be a bother, really. » Flashing the brightest grin he could, to hide the nightly pain. Yi would worry for nothing if he learned about it.
« I'm glad to hear that. » Yet everything in the tone and the latter's expression showed it wasn't so much. Soft pain, worry, however that emotion could be called.
It had Yasuo meeting his gaze and he regretted it as quick. Yi knew. Or maybe he guessed everything wasn't alright. No… He could guess a lot from his reactions, stance, probably this gave him out.
Gaze averted at once, burning shame at the back of his mind. Whether Yi heard or guessed, it changed nothing.
Don't mention it, please. Prayed all he could. It would hurt intensely if the topic came back. Yasuo stayed there, very tense all of sudden with no escape.
But Yi said nothing. He merely sighed after seconds went, that same lingering sadness then he paid attention to what he was doing.
It didn't take long before a whole new topic was found and a sort of happy chatting resumed.
Innerly, Yasuo was so glad, even as it squeezed his heart to remember.