Bed…
His whole body screamed to get more rest as Yasuo made his way in this not yet so familiar flat. Within seconds he was back to his cozy couch and fell there, ready to sleep.
A small thought for Yi, since he was part of the reason he got up. A touch of sadness. At his waking he would probably be gone for some time. Yasuo sighed, curling into the blanket with dear hope that everything would go well for both of them.
However, life didn't always go as asked. Despite his great exhaustion, he failed to fall asleep, kept near the edge. By Lily.
What…. ?
A bit annoying, given how close he was to rest but the persistent noise was too bothering. She was meowing without interruption, somewhere in the flat. There was also the noise of the shower running so Yasuo guessed this was her habit every time someone closed the bathroom. Fuck this.
The magical solution of rolling over didn't work, sadly. No matter how he settled on the couch or kept his eyes closed, nothing worked. Just this cat asking for attention or whatever and making sure everyone knew it.
Not too long after, a miracle happened and she went quiet. Glad, Yasuo was so ready to get some sleep. Noises nearby, from the corridor. Sometimes he could catch bits of conversation, whenever Yi adressed some soft words to the cat. Right now, he must have finished his shower and gone on his routine.
The last thing Yasuo remembered, dim room and light from the corridor. Then he truly fell asleep.
Back to reality, thanks to another noise. Half awake Yasuo grumbled lowly and turned to see where this came from. It was in the living room without a doubt but he had trouble finding its source.
In fact, it was just Lily. Again. Even knowing how bothersome she had been before, Yasuo couldn't help but feeling a small rush of affection when his gaze fell on that fluffy cat. Busy 'killing' a toy like the famous hunter she was supposed to be. So this was the reason of so much noise. Okay.
« Hey. » Small greeting, to catch her attention.
It somehow worked. Lily glared at him shortly before coming back to bite this poor toy. At least it seemed able to resist such violence.
« Is that a threat ? Wanna try to kill me too ? » He really doubted that but taunting was fun, given Lily's 'enthusiasm' since he arrived here.
Even though he wanted to try and pet her, Yasuo wasn't sure this was a good idea. Right now she looked in a serious mood, as if she took as mission to gut that toy. Not planning on losing a hand, thanks.
So for some time he watched her quietly from his spot slightly above the floor. Nothing to think about. Then he looked for his phone, to check the time.
Indeed it was quite late in the morning, the sun was high in the sky. Also, a few messages waited for him, not so gentle reminder of these latest days. No… Yasuo put his phone away as to avoid these thoughts but it didn't work. Soon he would have to face the issue, and quickly.
Deep sigh, like every time this topic struck back. It was far from unexpected, he hadn't given a sign of life yet so they wouldn't stop worrying. Yasuo felt bad again, it stung too much. But compared to the first day it was slightly better.
Trying to escape any thoughts about his family, he redirected his attention on Lily. At least she had no problem of the sort. How lucky.
« Why were you screaming this morning ? You wanted to play ? »
After noticing another toy not far, Yasuo decided to get out of bed and try to play a little. See if she really refused any business with a stranger or not.
That one was a small mice, making noise when shaken. He tossed it in Lily's direction to see if she would react.
No. But she did turn to look at it with a wide gaze. Hmm. Not really convincing.
« That's not your favorite one ? »
Instead he tried to grab the first toy she spent time nibbling. This time she kept her attention on it even as it was taken away. When Yasuo threw it in another direction, she rushed after it and returned to play. Ooooh.
Experiments were fun but now he was hungry. Lily looked like she was plenty happy with that stuffed toy so no problem on this side.
Breakfast ! Or lunch, since it was a bit late for that.
Had he merely passed the door than Lily followed closely, all attention on her toy lost. Curious Yasuo let her do, glad to have some company as he went to the kitchen. Maybe this was the reason she came too. Yi told him she would always try to have her favorite food although it was reserved only for sundays. So as heartbreaking as it could get, he was not to surrender to her cuteness and resist.
« Nah. Yi said no so I won't neither. Yeah, life is unfair. »
Yes it was but sometimes it got sweeter thanks to small details. Like this note left on the kitchen table. It was nice to even, despite the piercing pain at the memory of a similar note he left at home. Put back in the closet, to be dealt with later.
Noisy cat turning around him, Yasuo read the small note. There wasn't even anything important to say, just Yi wishing him a good day and hoping Lily wasn't too bothering. Ah, yes. He indicated the time around when he would get back home, in case he forgot.
An urge came up, to text Yi a small thank you or else. But in the end it was completely useless, nothing to say. Yasuo stopped himself and got his attention back on finding something to eat.
The latter said he could take whatever he wanted in the fridge, as long as he let him know if he finished something. But he still found himself hesitant, like a thief. No idea what he better not eat, in case Yi was looking forward to keep it for himself. His home, after all. Arg.
In the end Yasuo cooked some eggs since there was a whole box available. At the same time he realized that Lily had left some time ago, new silence around him. Not a tragedy, she was stuck with him for all day.
After this short but filling meal, he did the dishes and cleaned as he could so there was no problem for Yi later. Then it was time.
Already it weighed on his mind, at the limit of crushing him but Yasuo had to. Not really eager, he returned to the couch and sat there, phone in hand.
To catch up with everything wasn't fun at all, it hurt a lot as he read message after message. Most of them were from his mother, the others from Yone.
As soon sadness came up to make him regret doing this. Not the whole thing of leaving and else, this had a good reason. But rather to keep track of any attempt at reaching for him.
Their mother was really worried, she called so many times and when it was clear he wouldn't reply, she texted him. Incredibly painful. Of course she said it wasn't correct to fight as they did but she was quick to come to the point. Another reminder that he said almost everything, all he had to bear since his childhood.
Several times he had to put his phone away, at least to take a deep breath and prevent any risk of tears. It was so quick to overwhelm him, especially when the mood was sad. Good thing he did this while Yi was away.
There were apologies, many questions about things that happened but most of all the need to know where he was.
How nice of him, to leave with merely a note and nothing more. No indication on where he was going, what he was going to do. She was his mother, she couldn't go on her day at peace knowing one of her kids was god knows where, alone.
It hurt also to see that she never saw how deep the issue was. She knew he was the one seeking problems, that there was a potential reason for this beyond their understanding but not once she could have imagined he had to endure this. Lurking anger, for being 'forgotten' even partially. Not her fault. It was his, after all. She wouldn't be there if he didn't exist.
A few tears escaped so he stopped reading her messages. He had enough for the day.
Yet he had to do something, at least to feel a little better. In a last effort he sent a few messages to Yone. No way to directly talk to their mother, it would make him break again. Time was still needed.
Restless, Yasuo typed quickly.
[yon?]
[i'm sry]
[can't call, really but dw]
[i'm fine, i found somewhere to sleep]
Deep sigh, to fight the violent emotions plaguing him. Breathe…
[i'm at yi's place]
[u know, city where he left to study]
[gonna be fine, no need to worry for me]
[sry for u2, never wanted to hurt]
There, it was done. He hoped this would be enough for them not to worry too much. It was the most important, no ? He had somewhere to sleep. Yone knew Yi, he would understand this was safe.
Now he put his phone away for the day. Strong fear that his brother would try to call him despite the request. Or just text him. In any case, Yasuo had given enough for the day and refused to hurt himself by waiting for a reply. It would happen in due time.
Heart a little lighter after that nonetheless, he lied down on the couch. Shit…