Chapter 10
The next day, the sky remained a dark red, flesh pink of a color. It was the exact color of sadness, and pain, that had just recovered from an act of violence. It was the exact color of forlorn that had been present anywhere. Kuki felt a bit lazy today, yes. Although she missed working at the school. She missed her kids, and comforting them in the best way possible on bad days. Kuki was a therapeutic individual who made life better for her kids. She loved her kids. Ivanov and Nalana were already off to school, and Wally was off at work. That left just her. Kuki wanted to do mobile therapy, where she visited her students' homes, and worked with them there. Although, no one had called her. Even Karla, Kyle's mom hadn't said anything about an appointment to work with Kyle during the day.
Kuki sat back, feeling a measure of boredom over tired feeling. She also felt as if she wanted to end the tightness she felt. The tight, contracting feeling she felt with each squeeze, and pull of her stomach, and uterus. "mmm". Kuki sighed, sitting back, watching her ankles become even fatter. In the midst of the silence, before she was about to nod off, Kuki heard her cell phone ring. Picking it up, she heard a young girl's sniffles on the other line. It was one of her students. Kuki felt a sense of relief, and pride that one of her students wanted to talk to her. "Hi sweetie". Kuki said, gently. "How are you?". "Are you feeling ok?".
"No". Sailor said, quietly, sniffling as if she'd been crying. "what's wrong, sweetie?". Kuki said, kindly. "Is there something bothering you?". "kind of". Sailor said, sniffling. "I just, I need to talk to you about something, and I can't do it in front of Cree". "Of course, baby". Kuki said in an airy, comforting tone. "I'll be here all day if you would like to come by". Her voice, porcelain, light, soft, and feminine, seemed to comfort Sailor who had begun to cry on the other line. Kuki held a light, feminine, yet motherly air over the phone. "Would you like that?". Kuki asked. "yes". Sailor said, sniffling, trying to keep the sadness from overtaking her. "Would you like me to come get you, or…perhaps Cree can bring you over". "Whatever you like". Kuki said. "Can you come get me?". Sailor asked. "I would be happy to". Kuki said in a motherly tone. After driving up, to Cree's, and picking her up, Kuki looked into Sailor's beautiful, round, yet sad eyes, knowing there was some trouble. Sailor held her bear close, feeling the feelings of anger, hatred, and violence come to. Sailor felt as if she was in the middle of a violent, bad, fight internally, and wanted to scream. Each feeling of anger, came with a feeling of deep sadness, as if she wanted to end her own life. Tears streamed down her cheeks, as she cried, softly.
"It's a really messed up looking day outside, isn't it?". Kuki said, chuckling a bit. Sailor felt tears come down her eyes, as she looked up, sniffling. "Shhh, it's ok". Kuki comforted. "I know it's hard sometimes, feeling these feelings, but when we stay positive, be ready, and willing to love, and forgive, feelings can come easier to us". "I know". Sailor said, crying. "shhh, it's ok". "It's ok". Kuki comforted, doing circles on Sailor's back. Sailor sniffled, trying not to cry. "I love you". Kuki said, gently, brushing Sailor's cheek. "I love you too". Sailor said. "I am so impressed you said, "I love you too". Kuki said, kindly. "I am so proud of you for saying that". "That shows you're improving, and you're beginning to embrace family, and friends". "I know". Sailor said. "Sweetie". Kuki said, gently. "You make me so proud each, and every day I am with you". "You are doing so well, It's amazing". "You're getting there". "You just need to stay positive". "I know". Sailor said. "I'm trying". "You're doing great". Kuki said. "so, how are you feeling?". "Is everything ok?". "no". Sailor said. "I feel, like I want to hurt someone". "Namely, like I want to beat them, or give them a bruise, and try to harm".
"I feel angry, I feel like I want to hurt someone". "I want to bite, I want to kick, I want to punch". "I want to hurt someone really bad, and then I want to get punished for it". "I want to get kicked out of my house for lying, and being violent". "I feel angry, I want to hurt myself, and I want to end my life". Sailor said, as tears streamed down. "I'm doing my best". "I just feel so alone". "I hate my grief counselor". Sailor said. "I hate Edd, he's the one I want to hurt". "I know, sweetie". Kuki said, kindly as Sailor cried. "I think the reason you feel angry is because of the trauma you've been through". Kuki said, gently. "Sometimes, when bad things happen, and we experience loss, we feel angered, and vengeful in a way". "You've been through a traumatic experience with losing your family, and being in a dangerous situation". "I know". Sailor said through her cry. "I've done my best". "I've tried being positive, I'm doing everything I can". "But now, it's only getting worse". "I know, baby". Kuki said. "Have you tried talking with Edd about how you feel?". "Kind of". Sailor said. "I know you don't mean any harm toward Edd". "Sometimes, with our friends, we disagree on some things and we feel a bit at odds with them". Kuki said, gently. "It's ok to disagree with our friends". "sometimes my students and I won't see eye to eye on some things". "even Robbie?". Sailor asked. Kuki felt the tightness in her stomach get even worse. "Sometimes". Kuki said, gently. "He doesn't agree with me on getting off of the swing, or taking a nap". "It's ok, though". "Sometimes I have to guide him along, and hope he'll make the right decision".
"That's all a part of being a parent". Kuki smiled. "I'll be proud to see my kids thinking independently, and having their own opinions". "I'll know I've taught them well". "oh, well, I…I…I'm going to make decisions for myself". Sailor said. "You will, and, if you and Edd disagree on some things, that's ok". Kuki said. "You're still his good friend". "I know". Sailor said. "I'm trying to stay positive". "You're doing well". Kuki said, smiling. "This will pass, and you'll feel better". "Trust me". "ok". Sailor said, holding her teddy bear close. Kuki tickled Sailor's chin. "Do you want some Chipotle's, or Panera?". Kuki asked. "Can I have Chipotle's?". Sailor asked. "of course". Kuki said, stroking Sailor's head. They went in, got Chipotle, and went home, went downstairs to the hot tub to eat it.
The sky remained a dark red, as they sat in the hot tub, (the jets weren't on) talking. Sailor ate her chicken, black beans, rice, and hot salsa bowl. "mmm, I'm so tight". Kuki said, stretching her legs out. "This is always the worst part, but, it'll go on". she smiled, putting her feet up on the other padded part of the hot tub. "mm, are you ok, baby?". Kuki asked, stroking Sailor's cheek. "kind of". Sailor said. "I just…I'm trying". "I'm doing my best". "You're doing really well". Kuki said, gently. "You're managing your feelings very well". "I know it's hard going through it". "You've been so patient, and willing to open yourself up to love". "yeah, I guess". Sailor said. "I know it's hard". Kuki said softly, in a sort of whisper. "because your family isn't present". "yes". Sailor said. "you feel as if nothing, and no one can replace your family". Kuki said. "You know, Cree and Maurice would never replace your family". "Family is something that stays true to you from the beginning". "I guess". Sailor said.
"Family is a group of people who are able to come together during hard times, and help each other through those times". Kuki said. "Do you believe Cree and Maurice are your family?". "not really". Sailor said. "kind of". "I need my sister, my mom, and my dad". "I need my cousins, and my grandparents". "They're all gone now". "mmm, do you believe they're still with you?". Kuki asked. "kind of". Sailor said. "I know they're there, and…I pray to them every night before I go to bed". "I still see my mom, and my dad". "my grandmother". "my sister". A tear came down Sailor's cheek. "I still see my family, at night". "mmm, that's wonderful". Kuki said, gently. "you've always been really involved with the church". "That is very nice". "yeah, I guess". Sailor said. She sat, eating her Chipotle. Kuki stroked Sailor's cheek. "If you ever need anything, just know we're always here for you". Kuki said. "You've been so independent, and so good through this entire process, but, we see how you've gone through it". "we're here for you, through it all". "We love you, sweetie". "I know". Sailor said.
Kuki reached her hand out, squeezing Sailor's hand. Sailor sat, feeling the stress and pain become alleviated. She knew now that maybe everyone wasn't her family, truly, although they were there for her in a number of ways. They were her friends, who were there for her much like her family. "Thank you". Sailor said, as Kuki brushed her face. "Of course, sweetheart". Kuki said. "I'm here with you". "I know". Sailor said. Kuki smiled, as Sailor finished her Chipotle's. Kuki was lucky to have Sailor as a student, and as a friend. Now, more than ever, Sailor needed her, and there was no way Kuki was going to leave her behind. She was not only a student, she was a family member. Family members needed taken care of. "Sweetheart". Kuki said, gently. Sailor looked up at her. "yes?". She asked. "Are you enjoying Chipotle?". "would you like something to drink, or eat?". Kuki asked. "No, I'm ok". Sailor said, eating the last bit of her bowl. "Only if you're completely sure". Kuki said. "Thank you". Sailor said, quietly. Kuki stroked Sailor's face, as she sat, enjoying the warmth of the hot tub on a cloudy day.
Kuki knew she and Sailor were good friends. There was something nice to know about Sailor that made her such a good student. She didn't fight, or fuss with the other students. She had good behavior, was respectful to students, and teachers. Sailor was a good girl. Kuki felt the tightness in her stomach get tighter, tighter, tighter, tighter. Kuki felt as if she had something within her she wanted to poop out. Fortunately, it was nothing.
Later on, after Sailor went home, it was just her and Wally in the hot tub. "mmm, it's so peaceful out here". Kuki said. "It sure is". Wally said, as of now, there was not another soul around. They could just have the hot tub completely to themselves. "You've probably heard this a lot coming from me, but, I love you, more than anything else, and I'm so lucky to spend the rest of my life with you". Wally said. "I do, as well". Kuki said. "I'm glad we have our family, that to call ours forever". "Me as well". Wally said. They leaned in for a kiss, as Kuki's stomach got tighter, tighter, and tighter until a small "pop" was heard. "mmm, aaaaaaaaa!". Kuki said, feeling as if the pain was coming below the stomach, and through the uterus. "What's that about?". Wally asked. "Nothing". Kuki said. "Let's just keep at what we're doing". "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!". Kuki shrieked again. "what is wrong?". Wally asked, concerned now. "I may be in labor". Kuki said. "oh, for the love of…get out!". "Get out!". "We have to go to the hospital!". Wally exclaimed. Kuki got out, as Wally picked her up, wrapped her in a towel, and rushed her inside.
"What's going on?". Ira asked. "Kuki's in labor!". "We have to get to the hospital!". Wally exclaimed. "Grab Ivanov and Nalana!". Ira picked up Ivanov, carrying him out to the car, as Nalana followed close behind. "Here, let's go, Nalana!". "This way!". Ira said, putting the kids in the car. They all piled in, as the car slid, coasted out of the driveway, and down the street to the hospital. Luckily, they caught every single green light as they coasted downward. "Should I call Mr. and Mrs. Sanban and tell them to meet us at the hospital?". Ira asked. "You should". Wally said, speeding along to the hospital. Ivanov sat, noising, as the car sped it's way to the hospital. They were in serious crunch mode, as they sped there.
Later on, as Ira, Mr. and Mrs. Sanban, Nalana and Ivanov sat in the hospital room, the doctor came out with good news. "The baby is doing just fine". He said. "Beni Sanban is a healthy baby boy, and of course, mom and dad are doing just fine". "That's amazing". Ira said. "I am so happy that we have a perfect family".