Hmm.

Yi didn't know what to think about this day. It had started in such a rush and now everything was quiet. This was the scary part. Yasuo was too quiet and he didn't know what to do to help him.

Peculiar day indeed because he had woken up rather late compared to any Sunday morning and there was a good reason for this. Right now he felt the consequences as he tried to fall asleep for Monday. It wouldn't go so easily. Another sigh escaped him, breaking silence in his bedroom.

It was more than fifteen minutes since he went to bed and usually it was more than enough to fall asleep. Tonight it didn't seem so.

Shit.

He knew he had it coming, getting up too late would cause this, too awake for the time. For now he was doing fine but Yi knew next morning was going to kick him without mercy. He shouldn't have waited for Yasuo's return, now he paid the price. However it wasn't too high for his peace of mind, he was still glad the latter came home safely afterward. But yes next time it would be really nice to know in advance if he could go to bed or if Yasuo was coming back 'early'.

Yasuo… He was really worried about his friend, in a different way than that previous night. It wasn't about safety but rather his mood. Yi could just notice the change since lunch, after their conversation. It was dumb but he really felt like he said something wrong. Beyond that and what he potentially caused, he was worried what might make Yasuo react this way.

Their talk wasn't so fresh in his memories but he didn't think he had said anything offensive or mean. He would never dare. So it left the risk of saying something wrong while he didn't know about it.

After that the latter had completely gone quiet till the end of lunch and after, starting to do the dishes before Yi asked to let him. It wasn't his turn, both knew it so why do it on reflex anyway ? Several things showed it wasn't going so well. Yasuo wasn't doing too bad but the effort to remain casual was so obvious, it almost hurt.

Yi didn't like that, to cause harm without knowing it. There had to be something wrong in what he said or did, nothing else could explain such change of behavior.

Unable to find the issue, Yi had prefered to stay in his room for some time. He still have a free afternoon to spend as he wished and going peacefully on his habits was what he wanted. However, he wasn't truly at piece. The reason for this choice was that Yasuo didn't have 'his' own place in his flat, no bedroom to have some privacy. He didn't feel like staying in the living room, knowing very well the latter would be here and too quiet.

So this was how the afternoon had passed and later, the evening in a similar way. It wasn't too horrible, just that hollow feeling when the flat was too quiet. Yi didn't like that neither, it reminded him of his childhood house and that was a bit cold.

Right now it was fine, Lily was lying next to him over the blanket, maybe sleeping maybe not. Gently Yi petted her and she stretched before yawning. Then the purr was on, soft noise to lulle him to sleep. It wasn't so efficient but it still helped to hear some noise.

« Sleep well, peanut. » Fondness was present in his tone, thinking immediately about that name Yasuo used for her sometimes. It was cute and approved by Yi. Idly he petted her more, eyes stuck on the dark ceiling.

Again this led him to think about his guest. Curious, he looked at his door, just enough open to let a cat go if needed. There was still some light in the living room, from what he could see. It was a bit reassuring to know someone was still up, a bit like a kid yes but it still gave him some comfort since Yasuo had arrived here.

It was more than normal for the latter to be awake. Yi was the one getting up early and Yasuo didn't have such rough horary. They worked on different sleep cycles, that was all.

Go to sleep, tomorrow will be hell. He knew that too well but sleep didn't come for now, to his increasing frustration.

So he did his best, kept his eyes closed and lied on his side while taking care not to bother Lily. As quick his thoughts returned to Yasuo, the issue wouldn't leave him at peace. Really… It was important, he knew it but why did it have to bother him like this ?

Several times through the day he had passed in the corridor and seen Yasuo. He hadn't moved a lot, not matter the time he was always on his laptop, sitting on 'his' couch. Always deep in thoughts it would seem, another reason not to push and bother him. Yi never lingered long in moments like these, it gave a faint reminder of tumbling on Yasuo's privacy and he tried to forget since them. But still, it hurt a little not to hear much from his friend, too closed on himself for now.

Dinner had been a bit better. First because Lily got her treat of the week, her favorite wet food and it made her so happy, it stuck with them just by seeing her. By the end of their meal Yasuo wasn't fully back to his usual talkative self but he did speak sometimes, attention on the cat.

That was good, Yi was glad to see it got slightly better. This was far too unnatural on Yasuo to be silent for so long, almost retreated from anything. It reminded him too much of the first days after he had welcomed him home, too quiet compared to his loud self on most days. It could be that. But Yi was rather sure they didn't come accross the topic of his mother and brother, it probably was a whole new issue.

Wish I could ask. He really wanted to help, genuinely. His friend was hurting in silence and he could do nothing about it except have a sad gaze to him when he was sure Yasuo wasn't looking.

What a difficult position. He couldn't really go to the latter and ask, this was only going to end bad or just lead to another quiet day like this one.

Anyway, this wasn't helping. It only made him overthink and lose more sleep. Instead, Yi changed side and returned to pet Lily slowly, just to relish the soft feeling of fur under his hand. If only I could sleep as much. To be a cat would be really nice.

This rather sweet train of thoughts last a little, as long as he could distract his mind from the tension during the day. It would get better, he hoped.

Sleep still caught him, only a bit later than usual. Yi welcomed it gladly when it came.

He wasn't wrong, the following days weren't exactly dead of noise in the flat but there was still a sort of doubt floating around. It faded away little by little, until Yasuo was really back to business being loud and cheerful when he was home. That was nice, all that Yi asked. He never liked seeing his friend beaten down by whatever bad thoughts he had.

Almost as if nothing happened. It was still a bit strange to see these 'low' episodes in Yasuo's life and then he would act as normal as usual. Always this hollow feeling to know he never saw the latter's pain before and it could still be happening right now. So Yi looked after him sometimes, quiet glances and small attention to make his day easier. Nothing to be noticed but it would help.

During the week Yasuo went out another time after telling him. This time they knew, if he was to stay outside he would text Yi, even if at that hour he was likely to be asleep. He would see the message when waking up and then no reason to worry.

Indeed, he hadn't heard Yasuo come back this night but it was for a good reason, he was really tired and slept like the dead. This explained why he didn't hear him but in fact, Yi found him snorring on 'his' couch like so many morning before so no problem. Instead it was a certain relief to see him home.

At peace, he could go on his day. Everything was getting better.