Poor Yasuo, this must have been difficult.
Yi had so little to give in this moment but at least he could offer some attention and a good hug. It wasn't much but he really meant it. Hearing such sad story had been painful and yet he could just stay aware about how worse Yasuo got it all this time. All this because of circumstances before his birth. Life wasn't fair sometimes.
It will be alright. He would make sure of it. The smallest comfort was to know that Yasuo had managed to get out of this situation, even if it hurt him and his family at the occasion. Such difficult story couldn't be dealt without pain. From now, more than before, Yi would look after him. Alright, he had been doing that for months since the latter arrived here but now he would try to help on this issue. It wasn't over, just a transition. No idea if it would even be solved one day, also because a terrible childhood couldn't be erazed and because it was Yasuo's issue, feelings and reasons.
All he could do at the moment was to hold him closer and offer someone to trust and talk to. The latter seemed rather shaken, clinging to him. All good, it's alright. With gentle gestures Yi tried to soothe what he could. It demanded such courage just to talk about these topics and he would remember this. Not a lot of persons that he could consider that close to him, it still warmed his heart to see that Yasuo thought the same thing. Otherwise he wouldn't be here, he wouldn't have seeked his help. Yi tightened a little the embrace, hoping it was clear he wouldn't judge, just give time and space.
Silently he still thought about all he just heard. It wasn't something light, far from it. No doubt it would take some time for him to register every piece of information and all it meant about what he knew of his friends and their family. It felt like he was given an invaluable piece of the puzzle, probably the key to everything. The very reason of Yasuo's troubles, present and past. It was worth everything and now Yi could hope to fully understand what was at stake. However this required some time to think and right now he prefered to help the latter as much as he could, which meant rubbing his back with a few comforting words.
A shame Lily had left earlier, she would have given such perfect distraction. Nothing better than a cute fluffy cat to pet when feeling down. Sadly she seemed to have urgent business elsewhere and couldn't be reached for now. Too bad. Yi would still see later if she was encline to help, it would still change Yasuo's mood for the best. Till then he would do with what he had.
Not long after the latter spoke, even though it remained quite low because he didn't move from their embrace : « Sorry. »
« For what ? Everything is alright, no need to apologize. » Maybe it was said a bit lightly in tone but honestly Yi believed it, everything was fine, unless Yasuo felt otherwise.
Aside he could really guess that it wasn't fun to tell everything, even to someone close. This was a difficult effort and Yasuo still made it, aware that it would hurt. So it made Yi proud to both being good enough to be trusted and also proud for the latter's effort. This was the right path to recovery.
« No, I-I mean I'm sorry for…this. I know I'm not a child anymore, I shouldn't need this. » Beyond the lingering emotions from the previous talk, there was also a bit of shame here.
It made Yi a little curious and and confused, because truly there was no reason to think like this. Obviously Yasuo was overthinking this. It also reminded him strongly of these years in highschool when the latter always seeked a sort of contact with his close friends – literally or not. They had already talked about it briefly before and since then, there had been no request or attempt for contact, Yi realized. Obviously Yasuo still seeked this, despite what he said and did.
« This is fine too. I don't mind plus I remember you need some contact from time to time. » As he spoke there was a little tensing in the embrace from Yasuo, then an attempt at moving away. « Hey, no. You can stay. »
« Alright, alright. » It came out so flustered and the latter next move translated that well, returning to the full embrace and keeping his face hidden against Yi.
He hasn't come in terms with that. Yi was still a little puzzled by all this, the sort of fear to take contact when it was given but at the same time obviously needing it. Something happened. He wasn't exactly sure but such stark difference between their years in highschool and now, it almost stung to consider.
Also now that he had sensitive information about Yasuo's past, it left him wondering. All this could be linked, a full loop. At least to explain this urge for contact back in the days. Not that he thought that people couldn't be simply clingy but in the case at hand and knowing Yasuo had quite a difficult childhood, there was a possibility. Maybe. Yi wanted to ask but it seemed a bit too much for this day. The latter had given enough, no need to bother him further with personal questions. Even more if it was something that he didn't realize.
In any case Yi was determined to take care of that too. Maybe another time they would have another talk, there was nothing urgent at the moment. Then he would ask if there were reasons for this. Nothing wrong with being a bit touch-starved sometimes though. I should ask more. Every time they came to this, hugging to calm him down, it was clear Yasuo wanted this and yet was scared to ask outside of these sensitive moments. Quiet decision, from now he would ofer from time to time, if there was an occasion to. No need to force Yasuo or make it awkward, he would still chose well the moment.
Yes, that should help too. It made him smile a little, hoping for the best.
