Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…

A bit later, Yasuo wasn't still over it. The afternoon wasn't over yet, it was time for a bit of cleaning in the flat. So here he was, overthinking about the previous talk while he took care of the laundry. What a time.

The 'worst' was that it wasn't tragic or anything, just he couldn't get over the talk in general, all that had been said and given. In itself it was more than he would have hoped for, a weight less to bear. To know it was Yi who helped him was quite soothing and yet it was the same reason why he overthought, Yi knew. So far Yasuo didn't know if it was a good idea to let the latter know about this, because of his own feelings. Obviously his friend would help or at least hear what he had to say. Like a close friend. Maybe Yasuo feared this might make him rely to much on Yi, already financially then now emotionally. I don't know….

This was supposed to be just a crush, sharing such personal information risked to make him fall further for Yi. Stop. At least he knew himself enough not to take the wrong message. Was he ?

All this was stupid, he knew it. Why think that much over nothing ? Yi wouldn't even find this worth the fuss, surely he would say he wanted to help and happened to be right there. He even said that a few times, especially about the hugs.

Fuck.

Indeed the hugs. As if it wasn't enough to lay everything bare to see from his past, Yasuo had also surrended to the urge to come closer. Again, Yi's offer. So there wasn't much to blame anyone and he still managed to feel bad about this because the latter wasn't aware of what it meant for him. These feelings made it difficult, always on the way. So difficult to seem casual about it, although it was impossible when he had been crying against Yi's shoulder. Maybe for the best, he was too focused on his pain to shy away from the hug. This would have been terrible if he did.

Nonetheless, Yasuo still thought about it as he put laundry for a cycle. His conscience wouldn't let him at peace, not when he had been that close to Yi. Like the few time it happened, it made him still lightly happy, even though it felt like he took advantage. Which was wrong but he couldn't help feeling this way. Yi had no issue providing the smallest comfort and yet he couldn't accept it, no matter what.

Long sigh. Can't do anything. Innerly he wished for more but Yasuo knew this wasn't so friendly friendly. Asking was still a big no-no. But he heard it again, the « no, you can stay ». The way Yi had kept him from going away. Oh no doubt he wouldn't have forced Yasuo into that but to feel the pull to be kept in place, it warmed his sad heart. The smallest details were the best.

Cherish that, it might not happen again. Except if he broke down again and talked more with Yi. No way to know yet. Yasuo was rather sure it wouldn't stay there, the latter would still offer to listen to more. In all honesty, he couldn't tell if he was going to refuse. No matter the pain of the process, the tears and slight shame, it still helped. There was no one else he could tell this kind of things without getting into troubles or being judged. If he kept everything to himself, Yi would notice and give another occasion to let this burden down. So this was the best solution.

I don't know.

Quiet steps in the flat, he found Yi busy cleaning his bedroom. The door was still left wide open, a small glimpse of a place Yasuo didn't know, by politeness.

« Oh, Yasuo. I'll make some noise soon, gonna vacuum the flat. Can you find Lily ? »

It took him out of these dear thoughts, looking at Yi when he reached the door and asked him. Oh. Okay.

« Aight ! Want me to distract her ? » Easy to seem casual now, they were back to everyday's life.

« No, she'll freak out anyway. Just try to move her to another room when I have to move too. »

Fair warning, like always. Yasuo complied and went looking for the beast. She was on her cat tree at the moment, oblivious to the incoming apocalypse. Quickly Yasuo closed the door of the living room and stayed to pet Lily a little.

« Gonna be fine. No reason to be scared, not at all. » Indeed she seemed more than calm, although this was going to change soon.

Indeed a few minutes later Yi started to vacuum his bedroom and the sudden noise startled Lily. It was a bit funny to see but Yasuo tried to distract her all the same, taking her in his arms so when it was time to clean the living room Yi would have no troubles with a distressed cat.

« Bothering, right ? That's payback for when you wake me up too early. » Playing around, just a little. Yasuo had no hard feelings, nothing would ever stop a cat from meowing.

So went the end of afternoon, in that merry time to clean the flat on a day off. At least it distracted him enough from the serious topics.

Once sleep time arrived, Yasuo was back in that flustered state. Nothing too sharp, just he needed time to realize and come in terms with that.

Earlier in the evening, after Lily's weekly treat, everything seemed to go well. They hadn't talked again about Yasuo's issues. Of course, Yi was always so polite and didn't try to bring up a topic when he thought it was useless.

No, what actually took Yasuo by surprise came later, once the dishes were done. Since it was his turn to cook this evening, Yi took charge of the dishes afterward.

By habit Yasuo stayed in the kitchen in this time, even when technically he had nothing to do anymore. Probably one of the best times of the day. They could chat like always and anything that included Yi was good anyway.

Even right now, in bed and having all the time he need to think, Yasuo couldn't find how it came to this. Really, he couldn't find a logic path. After the dishes were done, their paths separated shortly since they had their routines for sleep time. Yi would go to bed rather early, since he had classes early next day.

All that Yasuo could say was that after brushing his teeth and seeing the latter in the corridor on his way to his bedroom, Yi stopped in his tracks. Along that usual goodnight he also opened his arms to him, something that had to be an invitation for a hug.

It was so slow and gentle, surely the mood before sleep on a sunday evening. A clear invitation and nothing forced. At first Yasuo was a little unsure, if he was correctly understanding that. A mere gesture from Yi asking closer made him react and he followed, thoughts gone. Sometimes reflexes were what one truly wanted.

It didn't last long, merely the time to be hugged indeed and feel Yi patting his shoulder gently. Then a whispered goodnight.