Awful.

A few days had passed and nothing had really changed. It was always the same pain, always the same cry lasting in their link without a pause. So to say it left Yi more than worried, this was the worst they ever felt since they had found each other.

He's hurt…

Obviously. Usually he could feel rather well any emotions that Yasuo experienced but this was on another level. His pain was so tangible, incredibly deep. It felt like there would be no end to that.

From time to time it fluctuated yet not once it got low enough to be forgotten. It could be like an open wound with barely nothing to help it close and scar. Yi was scared. A few times it increased again, to the point when it made him cry again. These weren't his tears, these were Yasuo's and it hurt his heart all the same. Constant sobbing at the back of his mind.

Would that even end ?

It had to be serious, his soulmate wouldn't go like this for nothing. Already before that tragic moment, Yasuo was rather emotional, between anger and solitude, sadness and annoyance. Now it was pain and it flooded continuously their link. It had overwhelmed both of them the first day, without any solution to soothe the harm done.

Surely his situation was the best between the two but Yi thought the worst for him was to stay in ignorance. There was nothing he could do, nothing he could say. A silent spectator to his soulmate's pain.

It was quite tempting to just walk back and try to find Yasuo. Indeed this reflex had first happened when fear hit and then pain, unconcious move toward the latter. Yi felt the need sometimes, as if the link was trying to have them back together for it wasn't able to bear so much distance and pain. However he couldn't follow that. I must continue. He had long broken the rules and fled to the fights, now it was time to go back home and endure the punishment. Yet it still hurt because Yi knew there was nothing good waiting for him there, even the perspective of seeing his own family gave a sour taste because he was aware they would try to keep them apart after his return.

So to say, it was difficult to put more distance between them. Even more because he registered that he was the only one adding distance, Yasuo didn't seem to be moving. Maybe just a little but it was clear he wasn't travelling like he did before. It only fueled Yi's imagination and hypothesis about what happened.

Consciously or not it reminded him of the time when he first got down the mountains to fight Noxus. Destroyed villages, corpses in the streets and houses, fire burning what it could. A pure scene of horror. Yi wondered if the latter had tumbled on something similar. He didn't know exactly how his soulmate would react to such a thing, this was still a massacre and every day they had given death in equal amount than Noxus, minus the cruelty. Yet it wasn't the same thing to run into a dead village splattered with blood and to take down as many nameless enemies as they could during the war.

Maybe it was something else but Yi was rather sure it was something linked to the war and Noxus. To inflict such pain it couldn't be something vain. So this explained his hypothesis about finding out whatever way about another bloodshed. No one was truly prepared to see this.

Or possibly it was personal. No way to know. As far as Yi could tell, the latter wasn't in his usual area, too far from his homeland. It couldn't be linked to his family. So what was it ? He came accross someone ? He learned a terrible thing ?

What happened ?

No answers came, only the wind ondulating in the grass as he made his way along the mountains. He started to recognize it indeed, all he had to do was follow around until he found the sea again. It would still take some time though, Yi wasn't fooled. Otherwise it wasn't too difficult, he was used to walk on difficult paths snaking down the mountains side. So this was fairly easy.

What wasn't so easy was the pain he carried. A constant reminder that his love was hurting and that each step separated them further. It wouldn't go away and now he had that heavy pain weighing on his soul and bond.

Maybe it was for the best, maybe with their link he was sharing Yasuo's pain to make it easier for him. However it was just his imagination. All Yi could do was hope his soulmate was safe and healthy. The most important was to not give up, not after their separation. They each went with the goal to meet when they can and until that moment, none of them could surrender. Do it for me. Even if it's hard. It was without a doubt. If he felt like walking with a hole through his chest then no wonder what Yasuo must have been feeling. A few days and it felt all the same, without a break. Psychological pain indeed, because otherwise Yi wouldn't have registered that.

Walking in circle, this led nowhere. The only solution was time and patience but knowing his soulmate was suffering to such level didn't make it easier. For now they would have to do with that and carry on.

Please, Yasuo. Take care.