THE SHIFT
-CHAPTER 3 –
Curse my body
She walked slowly. One step after the other.
Her monstrous hands sweated and she rubbed them on her jeans as she advanced. She didn't know what was the worse.
If there one person able to bust her, it was him. She needed to concentrate so that her walk would be perfectly manly. Don't roll the hips. Walk casually. Again. One step after another. Don't be too stiff. Again. Relax.
Her feet stopped at the chair. Her eyes rose and she looked into brown ones. The director repeated to sit on him and Kyoko threw to Ren a tight smile.
Be casual and relaxed Kyoko repeated in her head.
"I hope I'm not too heavy."
"Me too." He told her. "I don't know how much more my legs could handle."
"So, I'm not the first to have been dropped in your lap?"
A screaming sound began to hurl inside Kyoko's mind as she was talking to him.
He grinned at that and looked more open to her. A tiny bit.
"Far from it." He said.
He was looking at her in the eye and he hadn't blinked, hadn't gasped, hadn't said anything. He was just being friendly to the stranger he thought she was.
"I feel bad for you," she said closing the remaining distance as she heard the director grumble. "Leads have it hard."
He pinched his lips, refraining a smile she was sure.
He didn't recognize her.
She shut off the light twist of pain. Of course, he hadn't, she was a fucking man!
"By the way, I don't want to be rude and I don't know you but I didn't imagine you taking that sort of audition," she added in an afterthought. She had to pretend she didn't know him for the sake of this audition before she lost all will to fight. Still…
She knew he was very straight. The world was a lot more open to gays nowadays than before but for a straight guy, one would always be a little bit uncomfortable being cuddly with another man even if he were an actor so it must have necessitated more than a little effort. She didn't get it. There was even the option to not participate in the second part.
"I wanted to test and push my limits. "Ren said after a few seconds of reflection, with a little shrug.
"With your permission?" she questioned as neutral as possible as she stood an inch away from his knees, not sitting.
"You're the first one to ask." He arched a brow in amusement but also a little more respect. "Go ahead."
She sat with her legs to one side, as carefully as she could, wary to hurt him with her new weight before looking back at him in question.
"Okay?"
He nodded.
"Relax," He added, somehow feeling her tension but she didn't know how. She wasn't sure how to proceed going from here. Would the director give them instructions to start or was it total improvisation based on what they wanted?
She turned to Ren after a few seconds.
"Is it total impro?"
He shook his head.
"The director will come to give instructions soon, that will depend on what he can feel concerning our chemistry and how far we are comfortable." He explained.
And as he had told her, the director came to them not long after that.
"So you two, I observed a bit and though Ky is tense, you do not seem incompatible, which is already that. The last one was just a no-no" The director didn't say why but seeing his expression, it hadn't been a pleasant experience.
"So we are going to proceed as such," began the director, "I don't care if you interpret shifters or just gays but the gist of it is simple, you are lovers and you will act as such" stated the director. "You will have three parts for it. First part, Ren-kun is the seducer. Second part must be you and third one must show casual life together. Everything is allowed but sex on stage"
Kyoko looked at him, shocked while Ren was looking everywhere but at them and fidgeting under her butt.
She peaked at him from the corner of the eye but quickly turned her attention back to the director who explained.
"Yeah, I know, it should be common sense but sometimes partners take part in the same audition and since the time government decided procreate was more important than decency, things had become reckless. We actually had accidents on that part because of some jealous lover or something"
Kyoko couldn't believe her ears. That a person could do such a… To start to have intimacy on stage, in front of everyone…
"And don't get me started on shifters in heat he grumbled, some people shouldn't be allowed to work at those times, especially animals shifters."
"Have pity for … poor eyes," he mumbled on the side, " …-only a boring human director, … can't deal with all this shit."
He looked back at them a second then, the excitement returned all of sudden.
"Anyway, enough of that. As said, it must be sexual at least a little bit so you have all the freedom you want both of you, beside the rules just told before, I'll give you 10 min' to think and talk about off-limits and such." He finished, waving at them before going back to his seat.
Kyoko turned over to Ren, really embarrassed at the situation. Seriously, how was she going to go through this? She was far from impermeable to him. Okay, so yeah, she could tap into those feelings for the second part. But she didn't have any idea how her body would react in this close-in setting with the object of her forbidden desire. She was glad he didn't know at the moment because he would have surely teased her if he had. And she wouldn't have been able to find an excuse for whatever would/might happen, even if she did not know exactly what. But on the other hand, he needed to know.
It hurt he didn't recognize her too, even knowing why it was the case.
"Hmm…" she began and looked at him. She froze. He was glaring daggers at her.
Scared by the sudden animosity he was showing her, she pushed as far away as she could, nearly falling off his lap. If one arm hadn't caught her in time, she would have.
"What the hell did you do?" He spat.
The rumble of her new voice trembled as she stammered an answer.
"I-I don't get what you mean…"
"Don't play dumb" he growled out tightening his grip on her arm.
A sickly smile crossed his face and Kyoko shuddered.
"So it's like that … okay, Ky." He said so sweet it made her want to vomit and he closed his other arm on her.
"We are ready." He shouted to the director.
"Wha – ? No wait Kyoko protested, "We didn't even talk about off-limits and –
"Why bother? You are clearly already trespassing them." He coldly stated and Kyoko looked at him completely confused.
She was still trying to process things and find where she had messed up. She couldn't pinpoint how she had angered him. But then the director gave his okay.
The audition had begun.
And a very angry Ren jumped on her before she had any time to react. Still furious and catching her waist with both hands he managed to lifted her and for the life of her she couldn't figure out how he had been able to do so with just the grip of his hands. She was still far heavier than before but the damn man didn't even grunt.
He made her tense body straddled his legs and sending her a vicious smile, he glided his left hand on a very inappropriate place and squeezed.
She squeaked and a jolt went through.
She had actually squeaked!
Damn it!
She glared at Ren.
Since when butts were this sensitive?!
"What the hell are you doing?!" She whispered angrily, difficultly resisting the urge to rub her abused and weirdly oversensitive right cheek's backside. She has never been this sensitive there but she didn't spend her time touching her butt neither, maybe she just didn't know. Is it because it's him? Most likely. Fuck. What a pain this attraction to him could be….
As if she didn't have enough problems being in love with him already.
"Stop what you are doing and I will be nicer," he said in all seriousness.
"I'm not doing anything!" She lowly growled at him. She wanted to punch him. Like, badly.
This made her freak out.
Since when am I violent? What the hell is this?!
"Wrong answer." He whispered back and she could feel how angry he was just by looking into his eyes.
He moved forward and another hand grabbed her left cheek to squeeze it too. Another shudder ran her back and she groaned before showing teeth to him in hope he wouldn't take notice of her true reaction.
"Would you please stop abusing my butt's cheeks?" She grumbled, trying to stay calm. Something was wrong. Beside the fact she was highly, not insensible, to his touches, of course. He was acting like he was fighting back, as if she had done something.
He clenched his jaw.
"When you will stop this disgusting disrespect!" He muttered with fury as an answer.
To hell with that!
She grabbed the collar of his white shirt and grunted at him with a new anger growing as the director cheered saying it was not really soft but still quite intense and that it was good.
"I did nothing, fucking idiot!"
He inched to the side of her head and white-hot anger came out from his words as he said:
"I don't believe you." Then he bit her ear hardly.
She jumped so high in his lap she nearly knocked his head and would have dropped this time too if tense arms hadn't caught her once more.
What the hell! I don't get this body at all…
Why is it reacting like that?!
She was rubbing vigorously her ear shooting daggers at a somewhat surprised Ren, still displeased, but an arched eyebrow in sign of perplexity was now present as she noticed something weird.
She pushed and pushed and pushed against her own mind because she could not look down, no, absolutely not. He couldn't know. Feeling hot was one thing, she knew she was attracted to him as a girl, but this? It would be impossible to hide. So, she ignored it, trying to not move, to not do anything and to find the quickest way to run.
"You're quite responsive," he noted and she mumbled on the side it was against her own free will.
He seemed to catch that to her despair, and he tilted his head to the side. Kyoko could see curiosity creep in as seconds ticked by.
Oh-oh.
"Hmm," he said, "you did nothing you say…?"
"The only one who did something is you!" She growled at him and she could hear how much raspier her voice was. It was so weird.
"I'm not sure… I don't believe you yet but, it would need to be verified." He conceded and she saw him think it over with deep concentration before he started to smirk and looked her up and down. "Your body sure is … honest," he whispered.
It took her a second but the moment she got it she turned beet red. Damn him for being so attentive. He chuckled at her reaction.
"It's your fault." She grumbled," touching me here and there…"
"It was kind of the point of the audition "he told her," But I do have one question left so if you'll excuse me, I will use the opportunity to find out." He added with a grin and her stomach took a leap.
Bad. Very bad.
"It's really not necessary, I'm going to – "
He closed the distance between their bodies and grabbed her bottom lip biting it lightly and pulling it with his teeth before giving her a short hard kiss.
She jumped off his lap and dropped on the ground falling hard on her bottom, huffing puffs of air with what she was feeling. He had just kissed her. She knew it was kinda for the audition's sake. But still, now, she really wanted him to know it was her. For bad and good reasons.
"Ouch." She said, a bit hurt by the fall.
She pushed aside the bad reasons.
He wouldn't have done this if he had known and she wouldn't have to be in this tricky situation then. Hell, he would have acted a lot differently if he had known Ky was in fact her.
Ren looked at her, a weird twinkle in the eye.
"It's really interesting." He noted as he proposed her a hand she refused, "I just discovered something I didn't know on myself thanks to you."
"I see." She flatly said.
She started to take some steps away. She needed to collect herself.
"What are you doing?" Ren asked. "What about the remaining parts of the audition?"
"Screw the audition, I'm leaving!" she said.
She passed by the director as she was leaving the stage.
"I give up," she told him and he nodded though he seemed a bit defeated. She shrugged it, he would find someone better.
"Was Ren-kun too hard on you?" he asked. Shaking her head, she told him she just wasn't fit for the job and quit the stage.
She needed some time. She knew she would have to tell Ren but doing so with that sort of job with him was just too much for her. Once thing was to be attracted to him and to know nothing would ever be, but if she had to act a lover, she should have control of her body or she was screwed. And the least you could say was she was as far from controlling it as she could be. She didn't even know how worked a man's body. She had been stupid to imagine she could do this without knowing anything. In fact, she was pretty sure, no matter the person she would have still failed it.
It was especially bad for her because in front of her had been Ren, and her body seemed to have a mind of its own. Her reactions were overly exaggerated. But even faced with someone else, she wouldn't have known how to act and what her reactions could be. Least of all induce seduction in an act.
She only knew three things right now.
1. She needed to tell Ren as quickly as possible because she didn't have a chance to survive another day without that. She just hoped he wouldn't be too angry or shocked when he would learn it was her he had the audition with.
2. Men's bodies were much more sensitive than she thought, and it sucked.
3. She was going to hate today and the next ones as long as she would be a man.