This is a collection of one-shots of my favourite Chicago PD ships… LINSTEAD! It is loosely based on the song You and Me by James TW. I recently came across it, and I've been listening to it on repeat.

I hope you enjoy!

Thank you.

Disclaimer: Don't own anything. Anything familiar belongs to Dick Wolf + James TW

I didn't mean to hurt you
So, why'd I let you walk out the door?

Erin angrily swung her apartment door opened, fuming silently as Jay followed.

"Er, will you please stop. STOP!" Jay shouted as he ducked, a fork missing his head by an inch. "What the hell? Babe. Baby, please let me explain. You've got this all wrong. Please."

Erin spun around, her hazel eyes fierce. If looks could kill, Jay Halstead would drop dead in her apartment right now.

"I'm sorry. All wrong? Me? Can you please tell me what exactly happened then?" Erin rolled her eyes, "Oh please, enlighten me. I'd love to hear this."

"Look, Abby, I met her for a drink. You know that. She said she had papers to sign. I was just chatting to her like old times and her lips were-" Jay suddenly got cut off, eyes widened with shock. His cheek was stinging and turning red from where Erin had slapped him.

Erin looked up at him, tears starting to pool in her eyes. "I thought you were different Jay Halstead. You promised me you were going to be different."

Erin brushed past him in an attempt to make it out the door. Jay grabbed her arm to spin her around and face him.

"Erin, if you would listen to me. The moment I realised I knew what was happening, I pushed her away. You just didn't see that bit."

"I saw plenty alright. Jay, I was standing outside that bar for 20 minutes before I walked in. I saw what she had done. She kissed you," Erin's face scrunched in disgust, "as I walked in the door. You waited at least 10 seconds before you pulled away."

Jay was speechless, mouth opened and closed like a fish.

Erin continued, "I know. I know, because I counted Jay." She couldn't stop the steady stream of tears that made her way down her cheeks.

Jay's chest started to constrict and he found it difficult to breathe. He knew he should have been on guard the whole time. He knew Abby would do something, and he was right. Tears started to swim in his eyes, obstructing his vision and making Erin look blurry. He's legs started to shake and his breathing got erratic. He was so close to having to having a panic attack. He could feel Erin starting to slip away from him.

"You promised me Jay. You know my past. You know how my heart first got broken, so you know my deal with relationships. You were the first person I opened up to, because I thought you were different. I believed you were different. Everything, all the whispered promises, the late nights in bed together, the unspoken words. I meant it all. Are you saying you didn't?"

Erin shook her head and blinked rapidly, attempting to clear her tears. "I don't know who you are anymore. I can't, I can't deal with this right now."

Jay didn't know what to say. He was stunned as he watched the reason for his living, back out of the apartment, and out of his life.

If I didn't have you
I wouldn't have nothing at all

Jay stood rooted to the spot of the apartment that him and Erin shared. He didn't move. Couldn't move. There was a big part of him that wanted to chase after her. Apologise. Beg for forgiveness. Hold her. Kiss her. Everything.

Erin leant against her apartment building, the strong biting winds almost freezing the tears streaming down her face. Her brunette locks flapped behind her, ensuring that her scarf-less neck was exposed to the cold. She shuddered and wrapped her coat around her. She knew she should go back. It was after all, rather unreasonable the way she was acting. However, she couldn't believe what Jay had done. No way he was that surprised he couldn't pull away? Even after say 1, 2, 3, 4 seconds?

Doesn't take that long for someone to realise they're being kissed. Erin bitterly thought to herself. She waited a little longer, hoping Jay would come after her. She knew him though. She knew that he knew she would want her space. Hugging herself a little closer, Erin started walking.

It would've been at least half an hour before the wheels in Jay's head began to turn, in order to figure out a way to apologise. He had been rooted to the same spot. He knew his girlfriend like the back of his hand. He figured Erin would be long gone by now, needing peace and quiet. Making up his mind, Jay grabbed his coat, pulled on a beanie, threw some extra things into a bag and ran to his truck.

Jay had been driving for the last 45minutes, wracking his brain as to where Erin might be. He tried all their spots, all her favourite eateries/diners, Molly's. Anything he could think. He turned at the next set of lights, intending on facing his biggest fears and asking Hank Voight. Thankfully, his brain seemed to be working in overdrive, and an epiphany hit him. Chucking an illegal U-turn, he turned on the lights and sped towards the bridge.

Erin silently stood at the edge of the water, no longer crying but her dried tears caked her face. She could hear Jay's truck pull up behind her, and his footsteps crunching on the gravel. He swore silent and she chuckled, no matter the amount of training Jay may have, Chicago climate ain't going to help him.

The two of them stood in perfect silence, and Jay broke it first, "Er, Erin I'm – I'm so sorry." Erin turned to stare at her boyfriend. Wait could she call him her boyfriend now?

"Erin please, please I'm so sorry. Honestly, she surprised me, out of nowhere, I was trying to be nice and talking to her beforehand, but I should have been on my guard. I should have realised earlier, but I swear the moment I did, I pulled away and ran after you. I know it doesn't excuse anything I did. But please, please you have to understand Er. I lo-" Jay began to choke up, and his eyes started to swim with tears. "I love you so much baby. You are my world, my light, my everything. I know that my world will go dark without you in it."

Erin turned to him, tears began to flood her face again. She stepped closer to him, and could feel his warm breath covering her cheek. Her whole body shivered. Jay immediately shrugged out of his coat and draped it over body. Erin smiled and inhaled, his unique scent sending shivers down her spine. "Jay, I'm sorry for being unreasonable. I was doing a lot of thinking out here, I know you weren't technically at fault. I mean, part of me still blames you, because you're right, you should've been on guard, and should've realised first. In fact, you shouldn't have gone with her in the first case. But what's done is done. I think it will take me awhile before I forgive you completely." Jay open his mouth to interject but was silenced with a look, "But. But I still love you. I'm so completely in love with you, the last 2 hours was me crying my aching heart out but wanting to run into your arms and never letting go."

Jay smiled through his tears, and wiped it quickly on his sleeve. He wrapped his arms around his girlfriend, scent enveloping her. "Erin, I wouldn't have anything, if I didn't have you."

Erin chuckled against his chest, "Stop being so cheesy Halstead."

"I can be as cheesy as I want if you want to see what I brought Lindsay," Jay held up the bag and she could smell it through the plastic.

Erin stepped out of his embrace and made a grab for the bag. "Halstead, I can still take you down."

"No doubt about it babe, but patience is a virtue." Jay opened the bag and rummaged through it, bringing out a scarf and beanie as well as a blanket. He dressed her accordingly and took her hand to lead her back to the trunk. Popping the back open, he hopped first and helped her on. There was a picnic blanket and alcohol at the bag. Erin's eyes shined with amazement. They settled in and she snuggled closer. Jay placed a kiss on her forehead, and proceeded to feed his girlfriend.

I'm DONE! Whew, I didn't really know where I was taking this for awhile, and I didn't want to leave you guys on a cliffhanger, so I combined my two stories together.

It's not finished yet. If you have any prompts or ideas, let me know and I'll see if I can fit it in. Thankyou.

Please R&R!

Genie