Disclaimer: Inuyasha! How I long to own you. I would make you my personal slave. Tehe. We would do naughty…*cough* Sorry. Excuse my fantasies.

A/N: Let's save it til the end of the chapter. ^_^

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"You love me, don't you?"

My heart was beating a million times a second and I thought I would faint. Speak idiot! Tell him something! "I-I…Yes." I looked everywhere but at him.

He lifted up my head by my chin so I could look at him. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I-I was scared. Plus, I mean it doesn't even matter because your with Kikyou and you wouldn't l-like me anyway.."

"Is that what you think? That I wouldn't like you?" He laughed. I wanted to die. "Kagome, you're either blind or just stupid."

I saw red. "Excuse me?"

"I've liked you for a long time now. I can't believe you couldn't see it."

"Oh." I didn't know what to think. I couldn't even remember my fucking name.

"But we can't be together. You know that right?" My heart broke and I fought back tears. I knew it was too good to be true.

"Yeah."

"I mean don't get me wrong. I would go out with you in a heartbeat but...Kikyou." I still wasn't looking at him, but I could feel his eyes boring into me.

"I understand."

"What're you thinking? I need to know."

"I-I don't even know."

"Hey guys!" Oh my god. I could have kissed Miroku. Thank you Miroku. I love you my dear cousin. I think a hug is in order here.

"Roku!" I literally jumped on him and squeezed the life out of him. "I freaking love you! You couldn't have come at a better time." I whispered in his ear.

"Hey, Miroku." Inuyasha sounded a bit annoyed.

"You ready to go, Kaggers?" I was sill clinging on to him.

"Yes! Let's go. I'm exhausted. Bye, Yasha!" I waved to him still not looking at his face.

"I'll call you later, Kagome. We need to finish this discussion." Fuck me sideways.

"K-kay." I let Miroku lead me out of the carnival and towards the car.

"What was that all about?" Miroku asked.

"I told him I loved him and he sad he liked me." I said but it was monotone.

"Congrats! So when's the wedding?" I gave Miroku one of my shut the fuck up before I castrate you glares and his eyes widened. "What?"

"He said we couldn't be together. He loves Kikyou. Not me." I felt a tear fall down my cheek and I finally let everything go.

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After I broke down in the parking lot I had to stop Miroku from going back to give Inuyasha 'a piece of his mind.' Which meant give Inuyasha my foot up his ass. I really wanted Miroku to go but I wouldn't allow him to cause a scene.

When we got to my house I went straight to my room, walked over to the bed and buried my self in my Spiderman covers.

Miroku followed quietly after me. "Dude, don't even sweat it. There are…uh…plenty of other fishes in the sea?"

"Miroku."

"Yeah?"

"Shut the fuck up."

"Kay."

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I woke up extremely early the next day. Four thirty. It was like an unhuman hour. Everyone in the house was asleep and I quietly made my way to the kitchen. Coffee time. Sweet, sweet merciful.

Someone was sitting at the table and I jumped in surprise.

"Shit. Chill Kags." It was Souta.

"What the hell are you doing up so early?" I went to get the coffee pot and started preparing my sweet escape.

"I don't know." He shrugged. "You look like shit by the way."

I looked in the mirror by the kitchen door and he was right. My eyes were bloodshot and puffy from insane crying. I snorted. "Thanks."

"No probs." He was drawing. I sat down next to him and peaked over his shoulder.

"Nice." He was drawing a girl. I think it was his girlfriend.

"Thanks. So why are you all distraught?"

"Inuyasha."

"Ah. You really should give up on him, Kags. He puts you through too much." He stopped drawing to turn towards me.

"Ugh, I know but…"

"You love him."

"Yup." I sighed and got up to pour me some coffee. "You want some?"

"Nah, I'll pass. I'm going back up to my room to listen to some music."

"Can I join you? Everyone's going to be out for awhile."

"Sure. Why not." He started towards his room and I followed.

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When we got to Souta's room he went to sit at his desk and I hopped on his bed. I looked around. I hadn't really been in his room since he was ten. He was fourteen now. There was various posters of different bands all over his walls and ceiling. Some of the bands I liked, some were just kid stuff.

He replaced his Spongebob sheets with plain black ones and his comforter was red and black. His dresser was covered in stickers saying crude stuff. I giggled. Crude language makes me happy.

The only things on his desk were a laptop, his iHome, and pencils and stuff for drawing. He was playing Metallica. It was some of their old stuff from the 80's. I bobbed my head along to the music.

While I was laying there I realized I really didn't know anything about Souta's life. I was so wrapped up in my shit that I didn't even bother to pay attention to Souta, and yet he paid enough attention to me to even know who Inuyasha was. Gah, I'm a selfish bitch.

"Souta?"

"Yeah."

"How's…uh…life?"

He turned towards me and gave me a weird look. Hah, he was in a spin-y chair. I love those they can go all fast and whatnot and oh yeah Souta, sorry.

"It's okay?"

"That's good…"

"Yup."

"Anything new…?"

"Okay, what's with you?" He raised an eyebrow at me.

"Gosh, A sister can't ask her little bro how his life is going?"

"A sister can. You can't." Ouch.

"Look Souta, I know I'm not the best sister and I feel like shit because I know that I'm so wrapped up in me I don't give a fuck about anyone else."

"You just barley realized that?" He let out a humorless chuckle. "Congratulations, you want a cookie?"

"I'm being serious. Cut the sarcastic crap." I snapped a little more harshly than intended. "I'm trying to apologize."

"Kags, you don't have to. I know, okay?" He got up from his twirly chair and sat next to me. "Don't worry about it. I'm dealing."

I felt fucking horrible. Souta and Rin were going through shit just like me and I didn't even glance at them. I never asked Souta or Rin how they felt about Dad. I never even called Rin to ask how she was.

I broke down. "Souta, I'm so sorry! I'm such a selfish person! I never even ask how your coping with everything. Please forgive me."

He hugged me and patted my head. "Shh. Kagome, I said it was okay. I forgive you." His words didn't make me feel better.

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There you go. This was a really quick update for me and it feels great! Anyway, I felt like I needed some Souta in my story and I made him older than he really is. I would appreciate reviews!