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Read: Don't hate me!! I knooow it's been forever and like a week…I have a good reason though. The word that sends chills down any teenager's spine…School! Dun dun dun! Hah, okay I'm really sorry. The little update on my page will get deeper into details so yeah! Enjoy this chapter.

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I was silent the rest of the day. There was a lot on my plate, I didn't think I could take it in all at once. I needed a while to think.

My phone rang and I didn't have to look at the caller I.D. to know who it was. Inuyasha was always true to his word.

"Hello?"

"Can I come in?"

"Eh?"

"I'm outside your window…"

"Ah. Let me open it." I hung up my phone and walked over to window. I drew back the curtains and was met with beautiful amber irises. I unhooked the latch and stepped back.

Inuyasha slid the window open and jumped into my room. Miroku was currently downstairs in the kitchen helping my mother dearest with dinner. Isn't he sweet? I hope you guys can comprehend sarcasm.

I sat at my desk and pointed him to my bed. Not in a suggestive manner, mind you. He nodded and sat down.

"So, what did you want to talk about, Inuyasha?" I asked. I knew exactly what he wanted to talk about, though.

"You like me, right?"

"A lot." It's not like I could hide it now. Might as well be honest.

"I'm still with Kikyou." He said.

"I know." Why was he discussing obvious things?

"I'm really confused now." He had that same expression as yesterday…The one I couldn't quite decipher.

"How so?"

"You love Kouga." His words rang in my ear, because until I had heard them aloud I wasn't sure.

"…Yes."

"I see." The unknown expression turned into a complete blank one. "So you'll be getting back with him then?

Something in his tone really pissed me off. "I really don't think that's any of your business. You're here to talk about us. Not Kouga and I."

"Really? So the fact that I've been her for you through all this shit means nothing to you? I mean nothing to you?!"

"Oh shut the fuck up, Inuyasha! Your drama isn't wanted. So what if I do get back with Kouga?!"

"What about us?"

"What about us! There is no us! You're with Kikyou, remember?" Her name left my lips in disdain. I started pacing.

"Yeah, I remember…"

"Then?"

"Then what?"

"Why are you getting so, so jealous." I stopped in front of him, my stance was tense waiting for his answer.

He stood and took a step closer to me, his eyes bore into mine. "I think I might be falling in love with you." I faltered. His tone was so serious. It made me shiver. He started leaning forward, but I stepped back.

What the hell? I wasn't having it.

"It doesn't matter if you think you might be falling in love with me, Inuyasha. You have someone. Someone you obviously don't want to let go of." I opened the bedroom door. "I refuse to be your 'girl on the side'. I think you should leave now."

He went without a word.

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I was awoken the next morning by Miroku's freakishly loud snoring. I smirked evilly. I grabbed a pillow and hit him with it hard. He didn't stir. I snorted. That was so Miroku.

I was in for a long day. I knew Kouga was coming to pick me up later and I still wasn't mentally prepared for the conversation I knew we'd be having.

I decided to get ready. After I got out of the shower I threw on some jeans and a t-shirt and headed down stairs. My stomach was grumbling and I needed food.

My mother was sitting at the table drinking coffee. I ignored her like every day. I poured myself a cup of coffee and grabbed some cereal. I went into the living room. I'd rather not sit at the table. My mother and I have conversations that lead to fighting. We both go out of our way to avoid that.

I pondered on my situation as I munched on my cereal's crunchy goodness. I really did love Kouga. He was the first guy I ever loved and we went through a lot together. I just wasn't sure if I could be with him again.

Even if what I saw wasn't true, the feeling of it hurt, badly. I wasn't sure if I would be able to go through that kind of pain. Even though he said he would never hurt me, could I trust in that?

My head was pounding, I had no clue what I was going to do. Inuyasha's voice was in my mind, I think I might be falling in love with you..

Where the hell had that come from? Who the fuck does he think he is, telling me that?

I had to completely ignore the way my heart would stop every time I thought of it.

He thinks. I know I'm falling in love with him. Stupid prick. He's everything I've ever wanted and probably the only thing I ever will want. I know that. I've known for a while…

Then why was I having so much trouble deciding between the two? I loved Kouga but that was the past. I had moved on…At least I thought I had. When I reunited with him yesterday I fell in love all over again.

I was torn between the love I craved and the love I missed.

What a mess.

I looked at the clock. 1:09. Had I really been sitting here thinking for that long?

I went upstairs searching for my cousin and found him sprawled across my bed staring up at the ceiling. I went to lay down and laid my head on his stomach. "Roku?"

"Hm?" He was detached.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked. It was more out of concern than curiosity.

"Nothing." He mumbled.

"Don't lie to me. I was sitting in the living room all morning and you didn't go in once to bug me." I teased. "What's eating you?"

"You just looked really deep in thought. I didn't want to interrupt you." I couldn't see his face but I knew he was frowning.

I sighed heavily. I wasn't going to get anything out of him. I decided to let it go and bug him about it later while he was trying to sleep. The thought made me smirk.

My phone went off and I lazily rolled of my bed onto the floor and crawled over to my desk to get it.

"Hello?"

"It's me. I'm out side your house…" Kouga.

"Why didn't you just knock, silly?"

"I wasn't sure if I'd be welcomed in."

"Nonsense!" I stood up and turned. Miroku was sitting up and glaring at my phone. 'Behave.' He just rolled his eyes and fell back into my mountain of pillows. "I'll open the door for you."

"Kay."

I hung up and hurried downstairs. There was no sign of my mother anywhere and music was coming from Souta's room. He wouldn't bother me. Miroku might be a problem, though.

I opened my front door and smiled. Kouga smiled back sheepishly. I moved aside to let him in.

"Hey, Kouga." I closed the door behind him and wrapped my arms around his torso. He returned the embrace.

"Hey." He breathed. We stayed in that position for more than a minute. I couldn't seem to let go.

I finally released him but grabbed his hand. "Come on, let's sit down." I led him into the living room and sat on the couch. "First, I want you to know that I'm still indecisive." I squeezed his hand.

"What do you mean?"

I sighed. "I love you, Kouga." He beamed.

"I love you too, Kagome." I already knew that. "You don't seem happy…"

"Don't get me wrong, Kouga. When I learned that everything was just a misunderstanding, I couldn't have felt happier but…"

"But?"

"I hadn't really been expecting this. To tell you the truth I hadn't thought about you in a while." The look on his face made me wish I had worded that differently. "I mean, I had moved on. I was over it."

"I could have only expected that much." He muttered miserably.

"Although, when I saw you yesterday it was like…everything being brought back. All my suppressed feelings resurfaced and I realized I'd never gotten over you at all."

He looked at me in surprise. "So where does that put us? You know I love you, Kagome and I would do anything to have you back."

"Yes, I know that but you have to understand, I'm put in a really awkward position right know, especially since you and Inuyasha are best friends."

"I figured he would be involved in this." He sighed. He looked hesitant and I knew what he was about to ask me. "Do you…love him?"

"Yes." His face fell.

"I'd never thought the day would come where I had to compete with my best friend for the girl I loved." He said more to himself then me.

"There will be no competing. You and Inuyasha are best friends. I don't want to be the cause of that bond being severed."

"You really love him, though?" He asked again.

I nodded.

"Then there will be competing. There is nothing anyone can do to prevent that." He squeezed my hand. "How does Inuyasha feel about you…? I mean he does have a girlfriend."

"Who happens to be my cousin." I sighed.

"Really?" He shook his head. "This is way more complicated then I thought."

"Inuyasha says he thinks he's falling in love with me." I resisted the urge to huff. Thinks.

Kouga snorted. "He thinks? Kagome, I know I love you." I suddenly remembered my thoughts from this morning and chuckled.

"I love you too."

"Then why are we not together?" He asked in a pleading tone.

Because I love Inuyasha. "It's not that simple, Kouga. Give me some time to figure things out, alright?"

He nodded, a pained expression on his face. I leaned in and touched his lips with mine. We stayed there for a few seconds before I pulled back. It was like a jolt. Something that had been in me that died long ago was reawakened.

"Can I stay for a while?" He asked tentatively. "I've really missed you."

"Of course." I smiled.

He leaned back and opened his arms. I nestled against his chest and we sat there comfortable in each other's presence.

I still didn't know what I was going to do but at that moment my thought's were wavering in Kouga's favor.

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Hm I have a feeling most of you aren't going to enjoy this chapter… Ah, well I love me some Kouga! And this chapter is exceptionally longer than my others…^-^

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