I woke up to the room bathed in moonlight, lying comfortably on a four-poster bed underneath a heavy green comforter. Draco was sat on the end of the bed with his hair down from its ponytail staring at the window looking ethereal as the moonlight turned his blonde hair silver as it fell across his neck
"How much did you see?" I croaked my voice hoarse from the screaming I'd done earlier. Draco stiffened but did not turn.
"I came in when you accioed your wand. I didn't say anything because I didn't want to be caught in your cross-fire." Draco said quietly. His voice was rough and sent a tingle down my spine that I ignored.
"I wouldn't have hurt you," I breathed as I sat up in the bed and moved closer to Draco, reaching out to brush my fingers through his hair, scratching his scalp where he had it shaved only on one side now.
"Wouldn't you… I saw the mask on the dummy Granger," Draco growled as he moved out of my reach and stepped away from the bed, his shoulders tense in anger. I sat in defeat for a few seconds as I watched him before I climbed out of bed and padded over to my robes. From them I withdrew my last two cigarettes and I carried the ashtray to the window. Pushing the window wide I leant on the sill and lit one of the cigarettes. As I inhaled I couldn't help my eyes fluttering shut as the nicotine hit my system.
"Come here Draco," I called. Draco didn't move and I turned to face him where he watched me with sadness, remorse, anger and something else I couldn't identify, playing across his face. "Don't make me smoke my last cigarette alone," I said quietly. Draco's eyebrows pushed up his forehead at that and then he sighed and followed me to the windowsill where he leant his body against mine and lit his own cigarette with a casualness that I'd always envied.
For a few minutes we smoked in silence just staring out over the lake and enjoying each other's company. Then I exhaled heavily and turned to Draco.
"You should know… I don't see you as a Death Eater and I also don't see you as an ex-Death eater. I see you as a man who was raised in a racist environment with an abusive father who's trying to change his whole way of thinking. I see you as a man who was a bully because his father demanded it who's been making amends all year. I see you as the man who had a terrible set of choices to make, made the ones he could live with and is now punishing himself for those choices. Do you think that given the choice I wouldn't have killed for my parents? I know now that given the chance I'd have killed the man who killed them before he got the chance. His only saving grace now is that he's already dead. Doesn't that make you better than me?" Draco's eyes cut to mine, protest in every line of his face.
"I still let Death eaters into Hogwarts. I didn't kill the old man, but I still caused the deaths of other people, so no, you're better than me."
"Replace didn't with couldn't or wouldn't when you refer to that night please." I said quickly, when Draco looked at me with confusion I sighed and inhaled my cigarette once more, savouring the feel. "Harry told us you couldn't kill Dumbledore, that you wouldn't, that you were lowering your wand. So don't say you didn't kill the old man, say you couldn't or wouldn't. I forgave you a long time ago for everything Draco, you showed me that you're changed, that you're different. You showed me your authentic self… I'm sorry that you're only just now seeing my authentic self," I breathed, remorse colouring my tone as I realised I could well lose Draco over this. Draco scoffed and me and I raised an eyebrow as I looked at him.
"That was not your authentic self. It's a side of you, but even Saint Potter has darkness in him now, it's a side effect of war. That was you letting your darkness beat you sure, but it's not who you are and you know it. If it was you'd have turned your wand on me for witnessing it. You wouldn't have burst into tears and dropped your wand when you realised how far you'd gone. You wouldn't be feeling remorse," Draco murmured as he exhaled the final bit of his cigarette and squashed it in the ashtray. At his words I had nothing to say as I put out my own cigarette and vanished the butt ends and cleared the air of smoke.
"Do you want to know how I see you Granger?" Draco asked after a few minutes and I blinked as the full force of his confidence came back and a sexy smirk appeared on his face.
"How do you see me then?" I asked as I closed the window and moved towards where I'd dumped my bag. I didn't realise Draco was stalking me across the room and I gasped when he suddenly spun me around and caged me in against the wall, his hands either side of my head.
"I see you as a wicked smart witch, I see you as a strong woman, I see you as a loyal friend, I see you as someone who stands up for what you believe in. You're powerful, you're strong, you have a wicked sense of humour, you're sexy as hell and I've had a crush on you for as long as I can remember," Draco's eyes never left mine as he inched closer and I swallowed convulsively.
"Draco… Is now the right ti-," My words were swallowed as Draco's mouth slanted across mine, as his left forearm came down on the wall next to my head as his right hand snaked around my back and pulled me flush against his body. Draco's fingers found the hem of my shirt and I felt his warm hand come to rest on my lower back as my fingers knotted in his hair as I gasped into his mouth. Draco broke away with a grin and began to glide the fingers of his left hand along my collar.
"I think you're warm, you wear your heart on your sleeve, you've got a Slytherin streak a mile wide and yeah a bit of darkness too but…" Vulnerability showed in Draco's eyes for a split second and then a genuine smile crossed his features as I pushed his hair back behind his ear. "I love you Granger. For everything that you are," Draco whispered. My eyes widened for a fraction of a second and then I pulled Draco's mouth back to mine by pulling on the tie that was still loosely tied around his neck. Draco was only too happy to oblige and as his tongue flicked against my bottom lip I allowed him access with a quiet moan.
Draco seemed to have let go of everything that normally held him back and he kissed me ferociously. His large hands kept me pressed back against the wall as his mouth claimed every inch of mine and my thoughts stuttered to a halt. The longer we kissed the longer I felt myself drowning in him. Drowning in the apple and smoke flavour of him in my mouth and the cinnamon and smoke smell he carried, drowning in his silver eyes that appeared molten in the moonlight, drowning in the feel of him as he pressed me into the wall, drowning in the way his voice sounded hoarse as he breathed my name against my lips. I was fucked, but I no longer cared. Draco's mouth hunted down my neck and I couldn't stop the strangled mewl that came out of my throat as he bit into the sensitive point between my neck and my shoulder.
"Please," I begged, unaware of the word I had been about to say but not regretting it for a second.
"Is this what you want Love?" Draco smirked into my skin before he continued his assault of my neck. Draco kicked my feet apart and pressed his thigh against the juncture at the top of my thighs. Unable to help myself I ground down against his thigh a hoarse groan tearing its way out of me. Suddenly Draco held my hips still and my eyes fluttered open to glare at him. Draco wore a smirk on his face, but his arousal was evident in how his iris was just a silver ring. "I said… Is this what you want?" Draco asked again and then he pulled me closer to him, grinding his thigh into me. The sensation overwhelming and I let my head fall back against the wall with a thud.
"Fuck yes…" I panted, answering his question. Draco chuckled lightly before I felt his hand come up and close around my throat gently before his eyes widened sheepishly and he let go quickly.
"Do you trust me?" Draco breathed into my ear a second later as he unzipped my skirt and let it fall to the ground before replacing his thigh between my legs.
"Yes," I answered, my eyes holding his seriously. Draco smiled a devilish grin and slipped his fingers down under the green lace thong I wore caressing my folds as I bit my lip in anticipation.
"Put your hands over your head Love," Draco breathed as his thumb tracked over my clit causing me to jerk in place. I followed his instruction without hesitation and wasn't surprised when Draco stuck my hands in place with magic. Draco took a step back and raised his fingers to his lips. Keeping eye contact with me, he slowly sucked his fingers clean and I almost moaned at the sight, but I waited patiently for his next move.
Slowly Draco turned his long fingers to his shirt and began to undo the buttons methodically. Inch by inch, his pale torso came into view and when he shrugged his shirt off his shoulders he stood in front of me only in his black dress trousers and his arm bracelet that he wore to cover the remains of the dark mark. With a sexy smirk Draco pushed his hair out of his eyes and stepped back in towards me his hands coming up to undo my shirt.
"Do you like what you see?" I breathed in response to his groan as the green lace bra came into view. Draco bit his lip as his eyes flickered over my body and then he was on me, his fingers pulling my knickers to one side and entering me in one swift movement as his mouth descended on my neck. "Fuck!" I gasped.
"You're fucking delectable," Draco growled as he pumped his fingers into me at a pace he knew would have me cumming in minutes but I couldn't think, I could only feel and the feel of his fingers was amazing.
"Draco… fuck… please… I need," I panted.
"What do you need Granger?" Draco growled in my ear as he dropped his mouth to my breasts, his other hand removing them from the cups of my bra as I moaned loudly.
"Fuck…" I gasped.
"I thought you were more eloquent than this Granger," Draco said in an almost sing-song voice as he curled his fingers against my g-spot. Pleasure washed over me in waves but it wasn't enough.
"OH, fuck me," I groaned and Draco chuckled as he sucked one of my nipples into his mouth as he pressed his thumb to my clit.
"Believe me, I want to," Draco said hoarsely into my ear over the sound of my moans. Opening my eyes I was greeted by the sight of Draco sucking one of my breasts while the muscles of his arm tensed as he worked me over, the sight was almost enough to make me cum on the spot but Draco was deliberately not doing enough to push me over the edge and it was slowly driving me crazy.
"Please… I need. Fuck I need to cum," I panted and Draco's eyes shot up to mine. In the next second he had his body pressed flush against mine as he changed the angle of his hand so he rubbed my clit as he pumped his fingers into me and I almost screamed his name.
"That's it Love... Look at me," Draco growled and my eyes snapped open to meet his. A curious expression crossed his face before Draco clamped his hand down over my mouth and nose, cutting off my air. But instead of panicking I just watched him, the thrill of not being able to breathe shooting straight to my core. "Cum. Now," Draco growled, curling his fingers as he pressed into my clit and at his words I fell apart, fell off a cliff, all the cliché things they do in the romance novels. I couldn't close my eyes, couldn't even look away from him as I screamed against his hand before I felt myself fall limp with Draco catching me as he removed my hands from where they were bound.
With a tenderness I'd come to expect from him nowadays, Draco picked me up and walked me over to the bed where he deposited me gently.
"I'm not done with you yet witch," Draco breathed as he climbed over me, making a space for himself between my legs.
"Good," I breathed before I bit my lip tentatively. Draco's hand shot out and caught my chin when he noticed before he lent in and took my lip between his own teeth.
"I believe the last time I saw you bite your lip like that, I told you I'd have to have my way with you," Draco said quietly as one of his hands reached behind my back and unsnapped my bra.
"Maybe that's what I want you to do," I said with a cheeky smile. Draco's eyes met mine seriously and I could see the unspoken question in his eyes.
"I need you to say it," Draco said, his voice rough as he removed my knickers. Rolling my eyes I lent forwards and began to undo Draco's belt, sliding it out slowly as I held eye contact with him.
"I need…" I whispered, chucking his belt to the floor as I started to undo his trousers. "You to…" I continued as I pushed his trousers off his hips and reached into his boxers. "Fuck me," I finished as I grasped his hard penis in my hand. Draco's reaction was instantaneous and he pushed me back on the bed roughly, his mouth falling on mine as he kissed me hard enough to bruise.
"Are you sure," Draco groaned into my neck as my hand continued to pump him slowly.
"I need to feel you," I breathed back. Draco drew back from me and then stood to remove the rest of his clothes. In a flash he was back on the bed kneeling in front of me but I held up my hand to give him pause. With gentle fingers I reached out and took his left arm. Draco's eyes were slightly scared but I smiled at him as I carefully began undoing the leather cord that held his forearm bracelet in place. "I want all of you Draco Malfoy. The good, the bad, the ugly, you don't need to hide from me," I whispered as the bracelet fell away. Draco tried to cover his arm but I stopped him. "I love you… all of you," I said softly and Draco's face split into a wide beam before his playfulness took over and I tried to shift away from him with a smirk on my face.
Draco was faster and he chased me up the bed, pinning my wrists to the mattress either side of my head as he let his body rest on mine.
"Tell me to stop at any time Hermione. I don't want to hurt you," Draco breathed as he released one of my hands and dropped it between us.
"You won't, don't worry," I whispered, my breath catching as Draco rubbed his penis along my slit, coating himself in my juices but also pressing against my clit causing me to jerk as I was still sensitive. Draco dropped kisses onto my neck and I couldn't help but moan as he bit me as he began to push inside me.
The feeling was unlike anything I'd ever felt before as Draco stretched me oh so slowly. Then he stopped, his arms wrapping around me as my own went round his shoulders.
"Relax Love," Draco whispered as I tucked one of my legs high around his waist.
"Draco please… I'm not made of-," Draco pushed into me suddenly, ripping a pained cry from my throat as he tore past a barrier and sheathed himself fully inside me.
"Shush baby, I'm sorry, I've got you… Salazar you feel so good, I'll make you feel so good. Just wait a second baby, I'll make it feel good," Draco breathed a steady stream of words into my ear as I adjusted to him until I no longer felt pain and instead felt very full and needed him to move.
"Draco… I need…" Draco withdrew slowly and then pushed back inside me and I swear my eyes rolled into my head a bit as he stretched me deliciously, the length of him making it so easy for him to reach the spots that before now only his fingers could reach.
"This… Is this what you need?" Draco moaned into my ear and I nodded as my nails dug into his shoulders as he slowly began to speed up. "Are you o-,"
"Don't ask me stupid questions," I gasped and Draco chuckled as he bottomed out inside me again and this time there wasn't the slightest bit of pain, just a need for him to move. "Please... please…" I begged as he tortured me with his pace. Draco smirked down at me as he lifted himself onto one arm and brushed my hair from my face.
"Ready Granger?" Draco asked as he stilled and I glared up at him.
"Malfoy, so help me God if you don't… Oh FUCK!" My sentence cut off with a cry as he leant back onto his knees with an amused grin on his face and thrust all the way into me in one fast jerk. Draco paused, holding my hips as he looked at me with concern in his eyes, but behind that there was a hell of a lot of lust.
"Did I hurt you?" Truth be told it did hurt a bit, but it felt oh so good I needed more.
"And what if I said I liked it," I moaned as Draco moved into me with shallow strokes, seeming unable to keep still. Draco's eyes flickered up to mine at my words then he grinned a smile worthy of the devil himself.
"And would you like it if I used your body the way I want to? Would you like it if I just fucked you into the mattress until I had you screaming? You seem to like it rough Granger and fuck if that's not what I want. To. Do." Draco punctuated the end of his sentence with three hard thrusts and I couldn't help but cry out as I tried to cover my mouth with shaking fingers. "Don't cover your mouth… Let me hear you scream," Draco growled as he moved my hands back to where he'd placed them next to my head. "Don't move those hands," Draco ordered and his voice sent a delectable little shiver straight to my centre which made Draco's eyes darken slightly as his hands fell back to my hips. Then he had me screaming.
His thrusts into me became continuously hard and fast and I kept losing my breath as his fingers bruised my hips, my breasts, my wrists as he held me and as he came up against my cervix I cried out again.
"I'm gonna cum Draco," I panted, as I fought to keep my hands still. I wanted to knot my fingers in his hair, I wanted to touch him, hold him to me, but I knew he would stop if I moved my hands. At my words Draco changed his pace switching back to short shallow strokes and I cried out in frustration.
"Do you want to cum Granger?" Draco breathed, leaning over me and brushing his thumb across my mouth. With a smirk I licked his thumb and Draco's mouth fell open slightly as he watched me. When I sucked his thumb into my mouth I felt his cock twitch inside me and moaned around his thumb. Draco seemed to come back to himself and he removed his hand. "I asked you a question Love."
"Yes… I want to cum," I responded quietly.
"Then beg for it," Draco said with a smirk as he began pounding into me again, shoving me up the bed with the force of his thrusts as I fought to keep my hands still. Once again I felt the edges of my orgasm and I almost cried in frustration as he paused again. Three times he brought me within a hairsbreadth of my orgasm and then held my body still, unable to move, unable to get completion and Draco only smiled angelically at me.
"Please Draco… Oh God please, I can't do this anymore," I gasped as Draco pulled out of me completely just as I was about to cum.
"Look at yourself Granger… What did you do?" Draco questioned, looking up. As I looked up towards the ceiling of the four poster bed a mirror appeared there and I watched the mirror with fascination as Draco lined himself up with me. "What did you do Granger?" Draco repeated as he sheathed himself inside me and pulled all the way back out again. My hands clamped over my mouth and then I realised.
"My hands. Ugh, please Draco I need to cum," I moaned, unable to think straight as my eyes stayed transfixed on the image of Draco repeatedly burying himself inside me.
"Do you like watching me fuck you?" Draco smirked, ignoring my plea as his eyes flickered between my face and the mirror image above us.
"Oh gods… what are you doing to me?" I whispered, closing my eyes for a second only to watch as Draco dragged himself out of me slowly.
"Fucking you, ruining you for anyone else, maybe I'll make love to you too," Draco groaned as he continued to fuck me slowly. "Or maybe you're ruining me… I don't think I'll ever get enough of this tight pussy Granger," Draco continued, his words sent another jolt to my centre and Draco gasped, his eyes fluttering shut as he continued his torturous assault on my body.
"I need to cum Draco. I need it," I whispered.
"Then beg for it… Beg me to make you cum Love, let me hear you beg, then I promise I'll fuck you so hard you won't be able to sit in class for a week," Draco's promise made me bite the inside of my cheek to stop from crying out as he paired it with a single hard thrust. I tried to hold out, to say nothing, but when he thrust into me again I cried out.
"Fuck me Draco. Please make me cum, fuck me, fuck me, fuck me," I chanted and Draco's face split into that dangerous grin of his as he pulled out of me and turned me onto all fours. With a gentle hand at the top of my back he pushed me down till my face rested on the mattress then without any warning, he slammed back into me. The force of it had my toes curling as I screamed into the mattress, but he wasn't done as he grabbed my hips and fucked me recklessly hard.
"How's that?" Draco asked through gritted teeth but I could only moan and writhe as he used my body as he wished. "I said how's that?" Draco reiterated and this time he smacked my arse too, causing me to jerk slightly.
"Fuck… You're so fucking good," I finally managed to choke out. I heard Draco chuckle behind me over the sound of slapping flesh and the wet sound of his thrusts. Then he paused and wrapped a hand around my neck, using it to pull me up so my back was almost flush with his chest. With him buried deep inside me, this movement pulled a whimper of need from my throat, constricted as it was and I felt Draco lock my hands behind my back with his other hand.
Using the hold he had on me as leverage Draco began to thrust again.
"I'm gonna make you cum now baby okay," Draco whispered into my ear. "I'm gonna make you scream my name to the heavens as you cum on my dick, then I'm gonna paint your insides with my cum, how does that sound?" Draco growled, his teeth grazing my ear as his hand around my throat flexed gently. With my head resting on his shoulder I was looking directly up and god if it wasn't the most erotic sight I'd ever seen. Draco's shoulders glistened with sweat and his hair was in complete disarray, my curls were wild and frizzy and my cheeks were red, the veins on Draco's arm stood out as his muscles tensed and every time he thrust into me my eyes fluttered closed. Then Draco pitched me forwards, holding my body up by my forearms. "How. Does. That. Sound?" Each word was punctuated by a thrust that dragged a cry from my throat before he pulled me back to him.
"Godric Draco, I want it. I wanna cum. I need to cum, please, please, please, please," My words became a chant again and Draco grazed the side of my neck with his teeth.
"Remember how hard you came earlier?" Draco asked, his hand flexing around my neck so I knew what he meant and I nodded.
"Please," I gasped. Draco smirked into my skin and then tightened his hand around my throat, cutting my air off as he fucked me as hard as he could.
I couldn't make a sound, I was just cast adrift at the feel of him rearranging my insides to accommodate him and then my orgasm hit me and I went rigid, mouth open in a soundless scream as tears pricked my eyes. Draco's eyes met mine in the mirror above us as he fucked me through it, holding my gaze with almost pitch black eyes. Unexpectedly his hand fell away from my throat and I cried out, whimpering as we fell forwards onto the bed.
"Draco… I can't, I can't… Fuck I..." Draco's fingers found my clit and a second orgasm washed over me as I cried out his name as I felt Draco go rigid, his arm locked around my waist clutching me to him as he came, the head of his penis pressing right up against my cervix as he cried my name against my neck.
Slowly we came down from our respective highs and Draco rolled off me, but pulled me into his embrace as he pulled the green comforter back over us.
"Are you okay?" Draco asked concern in his eyes as he brushed my hair out of my face while little aftershocks wreaked my body.
"What was that?" I laughed breathily.
"Sorry… I… I like to get a little rough," Draco apologised sheepishly.
"Don't apologise. I loved it," I whispered as I raised one hand to his face.
"I'm glad you did. You felt incredible…No one has ever let me fuck them like that," Draco said softly. With a pout I glared at him.
"I didn't realise I was a possessive woman until now but, no one is ever going to need to let you fuck them like that ever again. You did not essentially tattoo your name on my cervix to go fuck someone else like that," I said, my voice tired as sleep tried to claim me. Draco chuckled as he brushed his lips over my forehead.
"Conceptuum impeditionem," Draco whispered as he ran his fingers over my abdomen. Sheepishly I looked up at him only to be met with the same sheepish glance.
"Maybe I should get a potion," I snickered.
"Probably a good idea, I plan on fucking you to sleep at some point," Draco smirked and his words sent a jolt straight to my centre and I bit my lip.
"You can't say shit like that to me after fucking me like that when I can't have you again," I scolded.
"I'll say whatever the fuck I like, whenever the fuck I want to say it Granger. If I want to tell you how I'd like to bend you over our potions desk in the middle of potions I'm going to tell you. If I want to tell you how I'd rather be eating you out on the breakfast table instead of tea and toast, I'm going to tell you just that. If I want to ask if teacher kinks exist in the muggle world during muggle studies… well fuck I might just have to fuck you in there now too. Learn to fuck me back and take it out on me that way," Draco teased and I had to fight not to stick my hand between my legs. Draco did it for me anyway and I gasped. "Also… There's no way in hell that I'm cumming in you just once tonight," Draco breathed as he caught my lips within a searing kiss.
"I'm already sore Draco," I gasped as Draco's fingers drifted through my swollen folds.
"Then it's a good thing I'm a wizard who knows a few healing spells," Draco smirked and then I felt the gentle caress of magic sooth away the soreness and I gasped as Draco inserted one finger into me before withdrawing it and offering it to me to taste. "Taste us," Draco smirked and I did.
As I licked his finger clean Draco smiled at me and then hitched my leg over his hip and slid deep into me in one swift movement, pulling a moan from me once again as he groaned into my mouth