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I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
Cause your not, your not alone
And I'll be your hope when you feel like its over
And I will pick you up when your whole world shatters
And when you're finally in my arms
Look up and see love has a face
And I will be your hope
And I will pick you up
And I will be your hope
Not Alone, by RED
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Eve didn't feel any of what happened after she fainted in Dean's arms. She didn't feel when he held her tight as Castiel orbed them back to Bobby's house, Eve didn't feel when Dean took her upstairs or when he wiped the blood off her face and body, she also didn't feel when he dressed her up in her favorite pajamas, and tucked her in bed. Maybe Eve didn't feel it that either, but Dean stayed next to her until the next day.
Dean heard a light knock on the door before Sam entered the room, walking slowly trying not to make a sound. "How is she doing?"
"The same," Dean sighed. "Did you find out anything about Simon, did he pick up?"
"He didn't, but someone else answered his phone," Sam said and Dean raised an eyebrow waiting for more. "He's in the hospital, intensive care unit. He got shot, and I think we know who."
"Shh, shh dude!" Dean hushed his brother, then he slowly got up off the bed where Eve was sleeping. "Lets talk downstairs I don't think Eve will be up anytime soon."
"Dude, the talk can wait, what if she woke up alone, she might freak out." Sam said, throwing a sympathetic look at Eve.
"Trust me, she won't." Dean sighed shaking his head. "It's another one of Eve's comas, its not only about what happened, its probably the powers too." He trailed off as he walked to the door, Sam looked one last time at Eve before he walked after his brother. The two of them could hear Bobby's voice talking to someone, the boys shared a confused look and walked faster downstairs.
"Hello guys," Libby said softly waving at them.
...
"You saved her? Did you lose your fucking mind?" Lilitu screamed her lungs out, her rage could burn half of the planet in a matter of seconds. But Adam didn't answer her back, which made her angrier, if that was possible.
"You know, Lamia, I'm the boss here not you." Adam said calmly, he knew this wasn't going to end well, so far Lilitu was his right arm and the strongest of his allies, even a little bit stronger than him, since he didn't regain his powers, not fully, not yet.
"You are the boss my ass, I do every fucking thing here Adam, you only fail midway and go save your little whore." Lilitu screamed one more time. This time Adam snapped and ran to her pinning her to the nearest wall, by the neck.
"And you don't get to talk to me like that either, bitch!" he hissed while her blue eyes were piercing his mind.
"You still love her, hell, you still fucking love her!" Lilitu exclaimed, "I knew it, I knew you were going to relapse one way or another."
"She isn't a drug," Adam said as he banged her head into the wall before he loosened his grip letting her go.
"She is worse than drugs, and she will be the end of us all, as long as you are still trapped in her nest." Lilitu growled. "I'll go to kill that bitch right now."
"Don't you dare, Lilitu," Adam stopped her firmly.
"Ohhh, I'm so scared," She laughed sarcastically. "I'm stronger, I do what I want." She added stubbornly.
"I never thought you'd get so jealous."
"You and her can go fuck and have abomination for kids, I don't give a damn." Lilitu said coldly, yet honestly. "I don't love you! I only want what you promised me and don't want to waste the work of years, don't be a wuss like your father was, Adam."
"I'm nothing like my father!" Adam growled.
"Better not," She said steadily, she knew Adam and she lived long enough to know how to manipulate a person. "And I better get what I was promised, or I swear to the worst of the worst I have done, I'll tear you to shreds, you and your little whore."
Adam looked at her and once again he preferred not to talk, he hated everything she said and he hated her but she was the only one there to help, not because she was the most loyal but she because she had benefits, and at the moment Adam knew that he had to say yes to whatever she wanted or all his plans were going down the drain.
"Whatever you want, Lamia." He said surrendering to her.
...
"Libby, what are you doing here?" Sam asked out of the surprise.
"Nice to see you too Sam," Libby sighed taking a seat on a near by chair. "My two best friends are hurt, one of them is about to die, and you two chuckle heads couldn't keep Eve safe, she's freaking pregnant, and she just survived a rape attempt and a possible extreme demonic makeover, so yeah, this is why I'm here."
"Take it easy Libby, he was just asking." Dean sighed, it was a long night and he didn't sleep, Libby's voice was loud.
"I wasn't talking to you Dean," Libby snapped looking at him with teary eyes. "You let him take her Dean, he took her while she was supposed to be with you." she gasped, tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Libby," Bobby walked to her, placing his hand on the small of her back, guiding her away from Dean. "Lets take you to Eve," he said while Libby was still crying but she listened to Bobby and walked with him peacefully, she was only stressed and felt terrible when she knew about what happened to Eve, she had no one to blame but Dean, but now she was starting to feel bad for screaming at him, which made her more hysterical, crying harder.
"Dean, she didn't mean that, you know Libby and she's probably-"
"She's right Sam," Dean softly said, cutting his younger brother's sentence. "Maybe she's nervous and talks a lot but she is right on this one."
"Stop saying that, you did everything you could." Sam said trying to make his brother to feel better. But Dean shook his head and walked away.
"It wasn't enough. It just wasn't enough." Dean said opening the door, "I need some air." He added and without waiting for a response, he walked out of the house and slammed the door behind him.
Sam ran to the door and opened it, "Eve might wake up, and she still needs you!"
But Dean didn't even look back at his brother; he walked away like there was no one talking to him. Dean felt like he let Eve and his unborn child down, but it wasn't only about that, it was so many other things, all mixed up that some didn't make any sense to him at the moment that he thought he was being a drama queen. Dean wasn't only mad at himself for letting Eve be on her own while he knew she might be in danger, but he was also mad at her. Eve didn't come to him when she was troubled, Sam knew about her pregnancy, and now he found out that Libby knew too, and Arial too, who else she might have told? All he knew that she didn't tell him, and he was supposed to be the first one to know, its not a matter of right because that was his baby, no, it was more than that, because he thought Eve would come to him first and they are not only dating, they are soul mates.
Dean didn't think clearly, he mixed up everything, his guilt and his love, how weak he felt for not being able to protect Eve, he had no one to blame but himself, blaming Eve would be easier, he thought. Then he remembered that all the heavy talk will have to wait, Eve needed him now and he should go back and be right there next to her, screw Libby and what she thinks, screw the whole world and who knew first about what, like he said before to Sam, let his pride go to hell because the woman he loved needed him.
...
"Would you just stop crying?" Sam asked Libby, not seeing Bobby waving him off. It was a bad move, the girl was on edge and there was clearly more tension between them than it should be.
"The guy who doesn't call back, shouldn't ask me to do anything." Libby hissed looking at Sam with crazy sad eyes. "Sam, don't talk to me at all, please."
"A girl is resting here, shut up!" Bobby angrily whispered to both of them. "Want to be loud, go downstairs, or keep it down."
"He's the one who started!" Libby said with a pout while Sam rolled his eyes at her.
"Why there is so much talking here? Eve is asleep." Dean said firmly as he walked into the room.
"I'm going to wait downstairs," Sam sighed walking out. Bobby walked out as well but not before patting Dean on the shoulder smiling a little, like what a good father would do, and with Bobby, no words were needed.
"I'm sorry for what I said earlier, I was a bitch and I feel really terrible now." Libby apologized, both her and Dean knew she didn't mean what she said but it doesn't take it back.
"Its fine Libby, you weren't so wrong."
"No, I'm so wrong that's me, I know myself." she said and he smiled taking a seat on the other side of the bed, as he reached for Eve's hands to hold it. "I know you did your best to keep her safe, its Eve, somehow everything just goes wrong with her. Its not your bad, its so many things and people's fault but trust me its not yours." Libby sighed, she didn't talk to Dean like that before, most of what she knew about him was from Eve or Sam, but they didn't really talk and she was glad they were, even if it was something like this, and she really didn't mean what she had said to him. When Dean smiled a little and nodded patting Eve's hand, Libby felt a little better seeing that he wasn't that angry.
"Are you going to cry and crawl to beg me?" Dean asked with a small smirk, teasing her.
"Bite me!" She answered with a chuckle, that made her tear up even more. Both of them sat in silence for a long time, before Dean snapped his neck towards Libby who stared at him with a 'what the hell?' expression all over her face.
"Who brought you here? And how is Simon?" He asked.
"He's been better," Libby sighed. "He's in intensive care, that Ethan bastard almost got him killed but he's stable now. I'm glad Ethan is dead, it might sound mean but he brought that on himself, he should have been dead long, long time ago, but Mark chickened out and didn't do it so…" Dean looked at her with a raised eyebrow. "You and Eve don't talk much huh?"
"We talk, but some of the history is still vague." He shrugged a little.
"History is overrated," Libby smiled rubbing Eve's hand. "And answering your other question, Arial is the one who brought me here, and told me what happened on the way… Eve and I didn't talk in ages, which is explained by the whole mess you guys went through and the baby thing, I can't believe she didn't tell me she is pregnant."
"If it makes you feel better I only knew yesterday!" Dean said bitterly. Libby raised her eyebrows in disbelieve.
"Don't take it personally," She said to Dean who let out a sarcastic laugh. "Its Eve with crazy hormones, so,"
"Right," He agreed with another laugh.
"Well, Arial told me all on the way, well I nagged until he talked." She added. "He thought it'd be good for Eve to have all of us with everything that happened and he came to get me, I shot him twice… thought he was a thief, I'm not so used to angels popping into my room like porn ads on your lousy browser." She said and Dean laughed enjoying the shooting part. He was thankful for Arial to bring Libby but he hated him for what he told Libby. "You don't like him that much, am I right?"
"Won't deny it, I don't like him and he doesn't like me back." Dean admitted.
"Eve said that too, she isn't comfy around him as she seems to be but he's her guardian and she needs him. She hates that you guys don't get along but she understands the tension."
"Wow, and you say you don't talk to each other!"
"Well, not in a while but we did talk about this," She said with a laugh. "I really hope she is going to be alright." She sighed looking at Eve, wiping a tear that was about so slide down her cheek. "Did Ethan…?"
"No, I guess not. We don't know for sure!" Dean sighed, squeezing Eve's hand hard.
"Oh God, I really hope he didn't!" Libby sobbed.
"Eve is tough and we are all here with her, whatever the situation is, we will get over it, she has us." Dean said smiling at Libby. He did mean what he said but he was worried about Eve, he knew she was tough but he could imagine how hard the situation was on her and he hopes Ethan died before he could lay a hand on Eve. Only now he hoped Eve was alright, that she wakes up and their unborn child wasn't harmed.
...
Maybe Eve was asleep but her mind was overloading with thoughts, ideas and memories. She kept having dreams about her past, mixed up dreams that her mind was going to explode. Seeing her family when she was a little girl and her father used to help her with sports as a start before he started training her as a hunter telling her about the family's history, which she didn't believe the most of it but later when she started getting into troubles, her own issues. Mentioning issues, Eve also had dreams about Ethan and how an innocent friendship turned into a terrible nightmare, how Mark, Simon and Libby helped along with Eve's favorite uncle to get rid of Ethan and pushed him out of her life, when Adam entered her life right after. How things never been the same from the day Adam and her got together, and that took her crazy mixed up memories to what happened to her recently and what made her emotionally drained, afraid and simply terrified.
Ethan's face moved closer to Eve's, he was about to… whatever he was going to do, he didn't have enough time to do it as his body went flying across the room.
"That was not in our agreement!"
"A-a-a-Adam," Ethan stuttered seeing angry Adam in front of him.
Adam looked at the strapped pale Eve checking on her first, then he looked back at Ethan. "Surprised? Let me make it up to you." He growled as Ethan's body flew in the air again to the highest point then suddenly it fell down to the ground. "Kidnapping, that is so 1920, PUNK!" Adam screamed as Ethan started screaming as well from all the cracked bones in his body, but Adam didn't stop, he kept going as Ethan's screams were getting louder.
"Are you okay?" Adam asked the confused Eve, as he suddenly flashed near her, untying her. "Long story."
"Untie me so I kill that bastard." Eve hissed, her fear and agony turned into anger now, thanks to adrenaline.
"Rest and leave the rest to me," Adam said shockingly soft, giving her a small sheet to cover herself with.
"I was never happier to see you in my life!" Eve admitted, "But why?"
"No one fucks with you but me," He said simply. They didn't need much to say, because that was a very simple but honest answer. "And I want it to be a battle, power, not this." he added softly.
"Can I kill him?" Eve asked.
"No, he is mine. He broke the promise and his soul is mine." Adam said coldly looking back at Ethan. "You may wanna give a last look?" he said sarcastically to Eve, "No, great, then-" in a blink of an eye, Ethan's body crumpled into little pieces, chops of flesh and bones that exploded with a wave of blood.
"Son of a bitch!" Eve exclaimed as some of the blood and flesh hit her face and body. It was the last strike to her nerve system after all what happened. After a moment of silence she started to cry, burst into tears.
And on that, the memories stopped as Eve gasped loudly bursting into tears, waking up. Dean and Libby were still there, they didn't move waiting for Eve to wake up and once she did, both of them held her and didn't talk. Eve's true love, and the best friend that was close of being a sister to her, they understood her very well that they didn't need anyone to tell them what to do or how to act around her, especially in such times. Eve didn't want anyone to talk to her, she only needed the support from the closest people to her. Feeling that as well, Arial appeared in the room but for a change he did what he was meant to do, to stay there out of the picture, ready to help when he's asked to, Arial fought so hard not to approach Eve and do what he felt to do but he had to put her first and what he was doing was sure the best for Eve, and that was all that mattered at the moment.
...
And I'll be your hope when you feel like its over
And I will pick you up when your whole world shatters
And when you're finally in my arms
Look up and see love has a face
...
Later on that day Eve was alone with Libby in the room, although she loves them all and didn't want to upset anyone, Eve didn't want any of the guys with her, only Libby. Everyone respected that even Dean and Arial who didn't want in the world at the moment but to be around Eve, to help her get through that situation. But it was her call and they respected it. On the other hand Libby was the one to stay, at first she didn't know what she should say and didn't want to hurt Eve, so she sat in silence, so did Eve for a while.
"He didn't rape me," Eve said softly, turning to face her best friend. Libby looked at her with a confused look. "Sorry, I feel terrible and can't control my powers at the moment, not fully," she sighed closing her eyes, "and your brain just screams with the question Elizabeth, I had to answer you."
"I'm sorry babe," Libby said tearing up, getting closer to hug Eve, but Eve moved back startling. "What's wrong?"
"Sorry, I just don't want anyone to touch me, don't take it personally you know me." Eve apologized. "I still feel his touch on me, feels like only fire will clean me up now."
"Or a hot shower!" Libby suggested with a small smile trying to lighten up the mood. "Dean cleaned you up and got you dressed, but you still look like crap darling."
Eve smiled a little and nodded. "I feel like crap, I should shower." She added getting out of bed in a sudden move that made her dizzy.
"Woah, woah! Easy there tiger, your condition and the baby, you shouldn't act like an Olympic athlete." Libby sarcastically hurrying to help Eve.
"Right! This is gonna be fun," Eve huffed standing up with Libby's help. "Who told you? Oh, God, I'm the worst. How is Simon? I can't take any tragedies now, please tell me he's okay!"
"He's okay sweetie, Simon is tough and he's gonna make it!" Libby answered without details. "Let's just focus on you now."
"And who told you about the baby? Oh God, Dean probably knows now, and not from me!" Eve said tearing up, she hated everything now, how things were going to hell one by one, she hated her situation and hated her life.
"Eve, lets get you cleaned up missy, feed you and get you some real rest. Then we can talk about Dean and the baby and everything else. Your nerves are crashing and you need no more stress!" Libby said firmly walking Eve to the bathroom.
"I don't remember you being bossy," Eve said wiping her tears before they crawl down her cheek.
"People change, to the worst." Libby joked as Eve laughed a little. "And I made you laugh, score!"
"Yes you did, I'll buy you a chocolate later."
"Yay!"
"Childish," Eve laughed. "Thanks babe, for being there for me."
"Damn you gonna make me cry again," Libby said tearing up, again. Eve smiled and hugged her tight. "Now I'm defiantly going to cry."
"That makes two of us."
...
Eve was done with her shower twenty minutes later, it wasn't just a shower as the water didn't only clean Eve's body from the sweat and blood, but also washed over her sadness and the dirty feeling she had since Ethan laid a hand on her. She was thankful things didn't get worse; she knew she could have handled Ethan but what about that innocent baby inside of her? He or she was not going to handle that, and she was probably going to lose it. What she hated the most was the fact that Adam saved her, she was sure he probably would use that against her later. She sighed and turned the water off, knowing she wasn't going to get any cleaner than she was.
Walking out of the shower she put on a robe to dry off her body, she glanced at herself in the mirror seeing how she looked better, it wasn't only the shower but her healing powers were working. Shaking her head she got out of the bathroom and back to her room, startling again when she saw Dean there.
"Its just me," He said softly getting up off his chair. "Libby is on phone, she didn't want you to be alone when you are out. Sorry if I startled you."
"Its okay Dean," Eve said forcing a smile.
"If you want me to go out in order for you to change…"
"Dude, no!" Eve sighed getting closer to him. "I won't break Dean, I'm just in a bad shape after everything that happened, you don't have to be so careful around me." she said forcing another smile. Looking into Dean's eyes she saw everything she needed to know about how he felt about the whole situation. "And I don't have to say its really not your fault!"
"Sure about that?" he asked her sarcastically.
"Yes, it was going to happen sooner or later Dean." She said reaching for his hand, as she sat down on their bed, and he sat next to her. "You don't know the whole story, but its just my past is out, well was out to hunt me down, story of my life." She said sarcastically. "I only want to know what happened when I was gone, and how Adam came to me. I also have something to tell you, well two things."
"Do you want to talk first or should I tell you the story?" Dean asked her, both were not clear on what happened and Eve didn't know if Dean knew about her pregnancy or not.
"I can tell you something first, then it'd be your turn." She smiled nervously. Dean nodded waiting for her to talk, he knew what she was going to say but he wanted to hear it from her. "I'm pregnant!" she said and waited for Dean's reaction, and was disappointed when she got it. "You already knew," She sighed.
"I didn't say that," Dean said, trying to fake an expression of shock, but it wasn't working.
"You didn't need to say it Dean, I know. Its all over your face and you're mad at me too." She sighed again. "It was never the right time to tell you, I wasn't even sure until recently."
"Still, you got to tell Sam. I heard from Sam what I should have heard from you." he snapped a little, Dean didn't mean to be a jerk but… he sounded like one. Eve was going through much and yelling at her made it even worse, when she snapped her whole body starting to shake, and her eyes welling up.
"I'm sorry I was going to tell you." she said so softly that he barely heard her. "I didn't want you to know this way but, but nothing I can do I swear!" she was shaking now, talking like a little lost girl who was being blamed on something she did by accident, she was being pushed and her nerves were no longer able to take it, she couldn't be tough now, she couldn't fight, she was scared and shaken, weak and beaten… it shocked Dean how she reacted, wishing he could have slapped himself a hundred time before talking to her like that.
"Eve, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell at you like that." He said about to hug her, but once again she backed off like she did with Libby, only this time she was scared and it was shown in her eyes, she feared Dean and it killed him, stabbed him right in the heart. "Eve, I'm so sorry, so sorry I didn't mean to sound like this." Dean apologized again but it was too late, Eve was shaking uncontrollably and crying, and it broke his heart. How could he do this to her when she needed him the most?
"I finished the-" Libby entered the room, cutting off her sentence when she saw Eve like that, running to hug her. "What the hell happened?" she asked in confusion while Eve held on her tight while crying harder.
"I-I'm sorry, I yelled at her and…"
Libby didn't give Dean the chance to explain, glaring at him. "Get out!"
"But,"
"No, just get out now Dean!" she hissed, she didn't want to hurt Eve more than she was already, she had to keep it down. "Dean, she's having a breakdown now and you really need to go! Just go now, please."
Dean looked closely at Eve, feeling worse by the second, but he didn't have a choice, he had to leave, the damage he has done was enough.
...
"What the hell was that Dean?" Libby asked in anger as she walked downstairs. "She cried herself to sleep, the girl's a wreck and you yelled at her?" Libby did her best with Eve, and for almost forty five minutes she tried to calm Eve down until finally she finally was better, not much but enough to stop crying and gets back to sleep. Of course that was after Libby helped her to change into comfortable clothes. "Dean, I get that you're overloading with emotions right now but you can't take it on the girl who was kidnapped and oh, almost raped!"
"Libby, I didn't mean to yell at all," Dean sighed wiping his face with his palm. "We were talking and I just… its not excuse, I screwed up. Eve was never like that!"
"There is a lot you don't know about her Dean, especially when it comes to this topic!" Libby told him, taking a seat next to him on the couch. "Look, I'm not blaming you, I have no idea of half of what you had to go through but for the sake of Eve, she needs to be away for a while."
"What? No, I will not let her be alone, not after this!" Dean refused, he was firm and it was obvious from the way he talked. Libby rolled her eyes at him and huffed, slapping his arm.
"No need for such boyish shit!" she said in a calmer way. "She is going to be with me and I can take care of her, plus her angel will be around and that other cutie angel Cas or something." She sighed pausing, "And you'll be a few hours away, or a zap from your angel. Dean, I know you know Eve as much as I do now, but you can judge her with her Adam current issues and the powers and all that, you can not judge her with her past or the kind of problems you didn't have a clue about. I can, this is why I'm telling you, she needs sometime away. You are fighting with so many emotions, she's freaking out and acting different that she usually does, both of you need rest, I don't want to sound mean here or a jealous bitch like, but you do need some rest from each other!"
"She will hate me, I don't want her to be away and I didn't explain what happened to her." Dean admitted but Libby smiled and patted on his shoulder.
"She isn't, she probably won't remember what happened. You will get to talk to her too."
Dean looked carefully at Libby and shook his head, sighing. "Do you think she will agree to go with you?"
"I don't think she's in shape to decide now." Libby answered. "Its our call, she needs to let go for a while."
"Then, she should go!"
...
And I will be your hope
And I will pick you up
And I will be your hope
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