A/N-Hope you liked the last chapter i tried my best to make it longer.

Early on Wednesday morning the doctor came marching in to Lupin's room holding a tray with what looked like breakfast.

"Sir we have brought you some breakfast hope you are feeling ok today..."

Lupin cut him off,

"You brought me breakfast?" Lupy asked sounding surprised.He sat there thinking to himself,

"Why would they bring me, ME breakfast.

"Well sir..." the doctor begun but was cut off

"Get out of my room, i would like some peace!"

"But you..."

"I DON'T NEED THIS BREAKFAST ALL I NEED IS PEACE AND QUIET, GET OUT OF MY ROOM NOW!!!!"

Before Lupin knew it the doctor had rushed over to besides him and was shouting

"Petrificus Totalus"

Suddenly it was all dark and Lupin was knocked out.

"Ahh"

"No - Don't; Tonks... Dont... Ahh"

"No please no. No. No. Please no don't leave me. Ahh"

Lupin awoke with a start gasping for air, he seen his wife and son die. He couldn't do anything... He was hopless. He just let them die.

Suddenly Remus Lupin stopped breathing. His face was drained of colour and no part of his body was moving...

"Give him the green potion B... He's had a panic attack. A severe one aswell. QUICK HE ISN'T BREATHING"

A healer forced a green potion down his throat. A shudder of green light ran down his body, and Lupin awoke once again.

"What happened to me?"

Sometime around midnight he thought he heard tapping on the window, but then he thought to himself.

No its probably just one of the trees hitting of the window outside of his room, wait but there was no tree outside his window.

Lupin stood up wobbling a bit as he still hadn't fully recovered from the panic attack he had earlier. He walked over to the window were he looked out of it and saw nothing but then he noticed something, there was a rope leading down with a note attached to it.

He picked it up and read it,

Dear Friend

I have left this as an escape route for you as I know how much you will be hating that wretched place by know, we are all missing you, we hope you are feeling ok and maby are able to come to the funeral or am I going to far again, I don't know but we would all like it if you were able to make it.

Yours sincerely

Padfoot

Lupin smiled the though brought a tear to his eye, he remembered those old times the marauders everything even the worse parts of it all. He turned the parchment over there was even more writing there,

P.S Buckbeack is waiting for you down at the bottom he will take you to 12 Grimmauld place were there is a room set up for you.

Lupin smiled, he can't believe his friend still cared so much about him after what he had done, he had been so selfish and yet he still wanted to help.

Lupin started to climb down the rope it was very difficult as he couldn't keep still but surely Sirius had not anticipated on Lupin having a panic attack earlier that day. Lupin went to take another step down but all he hit was air, he lost his grip and started to plummet to the ground.

Suddenly something whipped him out of the air.

"Buckbeack!! " Lupin huged the friendly beast " You saved my life, thank you" Lupin was still holding on to the peace of parchment. He tucked it up into his pocket and then lay flat on his stomach hugging Buckbeack,

"You saved my life" he repeated.

He just lay there feeling the wind on his face, Buckbeacks soft feathers blowing in his face, he lay there for what must have been hours before falling asleep.

Next thing he knew him and Buckbeack were landing in the attic of number 12 Grimmauld place,

"What did you last have for dinner Buckbeack, it stinks in here" Lupin walked towards the door that led to the stairs down stairs but all he got in reply was silence, Buckbeack was curled up fast asleep.

"Thank you" Lupin said before wobbling his way down stairs were he found his room. The bed was neatly made and there was a cosy fire going, on the bed were a fresh pair if his own pyjamas lying neatly folded on the bed.

Suddenly he heard creaking on the floor, he had his wand ready in hand,

"Master order Kreacher to prepare for a guest, do you like it" the old elve looked at Lupin, hope in his eyes.

Lupin sighed,

"Yes I really like it, thank you Kreacher"

"Enjoy your sleep sir" then with a click of his fingers he was gone.

Lupin stayed up most of the night deciding whether to go to their funeral or not, but in the end he decided that he was going. Soon after that he fell asleep.

"No.. Don't take me...Take me"

"Ahh"

"Please don't, don't, DON'T"

"No, no. NO!!!"

Lupin awoke gasping for air, every time he went to sleep he saw them die, every time. He was drenched in sweat, still gasping for air Lupin sat up in bed.

Lupin sat there staring into darkness untill he eventually fell asleep again.

A/N- I wouldn't have been able to write this chapter if it weren't for the help of my friend, they are also writing to story's called A Knew Light and Forced Love by Xluv-hogwartsX

Hope you are enjoying it so far.