Chapter 4
"Hey, I just checked my schedule. I have Monday morning off. Thanks for letting me stay for dinner. Goodnight x -C"
"Sounds good to me. Goodnight x-A"
"Do you want to meet for lunch somewhere or I can come to your place?x-C"
"I think it´s better to meet somewhere"
"Yea you´re right."
"Goodnight Callie"
"I hope you sleep well, goodnight Arizona. X-C"
Arizona was re-reading the messages from Callie after the surprise dinner as she waited for her ex wife to meet her in the café. For sure they could of talked at her apartment but Arizona thought it´s the best to be somewhere in public, so nobody could start screaming. Being in a café forced both women to talk calm and that is exactly what they needed to do.
Somehow the blonde was being nervous and reading the messages once again helped a little. She sensed that Callie was really sorry, they needed to get their shit together, at least for Sofia´s sake.
"Hey, I´m not late am I?" the Latina asked as she reached the table.
"Hey Callie, no I was just early."
"Okay, did you order already?" Callie wondered, trying to read the blondes face.
Callie was nervous, not just a little but out of her mind nervous. And knowing her ex wife, she could always tell, if things will be good or bad. But right now she wasn´t sure.
"No, I waited for you." Arizona said with a small smile.
They ordered something to drink and some light food for lunch. Neither of them wanted to waste too much time eating. They only made some small talk during lunch and when Callie finished she stopped feeling nervous, so she was the first one to speak.
"About the other night. I truly am sorry, Arizona. I know, I already told you a few times now but still. I didn´t think about your feelings and what happened in Seattle before you moved. I can´t imagine how you felt back then. That´s all my fault. But please, you need to know that you´re the best mom to Sofia and I´m sure, she is the happiest kid when she´s with you."
"I know you´re sorry. But Sofia wasn´t happy with me in Seattle. I felt so bad, Callie. I tried everything to make her smile but nothing was helping. She was miserable during that time and I promised myself that I´ll never make her feel this way again. So yea, I took her shopping and probably fed her way too much ice cream recently. But we needed this. Can you understand that?Sof and I needed to be carefree and have fun together or else she will never forget how unhappy she was with me." Arizona explained with a sad expression.
It was the first time she honestly spoke to Callie about what happened.
And for Callie to hear it made her even more miserable. "I never should off moved" Callie thought to herself.
"I put a lot of trouble in Sofia´s life. I´ve been so stupid. You won though. Arizona, you have full custody and still you let her go with me, so Sof would always have her two moms and then you´re the one to see her so unhappy. It´s not fair to you. I….I don´t know how to make that up Arizona. You don´t deserve this."
"You don´t need to make anything up. It´s done now. We need to find a way to move forward and Sofia comes first. When she overheard our talk, it broke my heart. Callie, Sofia is no baby anymore. She has to stay out of any fights or arguments. She´s been through enough and we shouldn´t cause her more worries."
"You´re right. So what are we gonna do?" Callie asked, she wanted to hear Arizona out.
"First, we will try to work out a schedule, to make sure Sofia knows when she´s staying with you or me. I´m starting to work next week, that means we need to be more organized. You´ve only seen her one or two times during the week since I´m here.
Second, we need to talk more. There is so much going on in both of our life but we haven´t talked about anything yet."
"What do think about a family day once a week, Saturday or Sunday? We could take Sofia out, to the Zoo or even movies, whatever we feel like?"
Arizona made eye contact with Callie while she spoke and could see a little spark in big brown eyes. The blonde haven´t seen that spark in ages, she couldn´t help but smile at Callie.
"I would love that, Calliope." realizing what she just said, she cleared her throat.
"Sof will be bouncing of the walls, when we tell her."
"Definitely" the bad ass ortho doc couldn´t find any more words.
"Would you like another coffee?" Arizona asked, hoping to spend some more time with Callie.
Before the blonde could order she watched Callie walking over to the counter. A little confused she waited for Callie to return.
The Latina walked back with a big smile on her face and two coffees to go in hand.
"I thought we could take a walk."
A few minutes later the two where walking through a little park. Neither of them saying much but just enjoying each others company. Arizona couldn´t remember the last time they did that.
"Can we sit here a minute?" Arizona asked
"Sure" Callie smiled, sitting down besides her ex wife.
"Callie, I also want to apologize to you. I was really hard on you, so I´m sorry. It was a big change to come here, I was a little overwhelmed and worried about the whole situation. I was looking forward to come here and make things better for all of us." Arizona finished, just looking down on her cup of coffee.
"Well, I think we´re doing a pretty good job, at least the last two hours." Callie said, trying to lighten the mood.
"Ha Ha" Arizona faked, rolling her eyes but with a smile on her lips.
"I sometimes regret that I moved here with Penny." Callie stated, feeling the need to get that out.
Arizona only looked at her, waiting for Callie to continue.
"I mean, at first I didn´t. But things with Penny went downhill really fast, so I started to regret it. I thought that being here with her would make me happy. I thought I could forget all the troubles I had in Seattle and start over. But I struggled, I struggled at work and I hardly saw Penny, so I couldn´t even talk about it. I was only happy when Sofia was with me. You know, we talked so much about you and had a laugh, it made me miss you. It made me miss us..."
"Callie..." Arizona tried to interrupt
"Just hear me out please?" Callie asked, getting a small nod of the blondes head in response.
"I broke up with Penny way before I told anybody. I was ashamed of myself and scared of how you and anybody else would react to the fact that I broke up with the woman that caused us and our friends so much trouble. So I didn´t tell, I kept staying at the apartment with Penny but only to take my time to find a nice place and not the next best thing that came up. It was really awkward, not just at home but also at the hospital. That´s why I tried to avoid Penny at work for a while. You will start at the hospital next week and I don´t know how things will go and how Penny will take it. I haven´t talked to her in weeks. So please if something will happen or bothers you, you have to talk to me. I don´t want any more trouble anymore."
It was quite for a minute or so, for Callie it felt like ages but finally Arizona spoke.
"Thank you for telling me Calliope" The blonde said with a warm voice as she placed her hand over Callie´s.
Arizona smiled and said "It was great to talk to you that way. It´s time to get back" the peds surgeon stood up and started to walk back.
Turning around to the brunet still sitting on the bench, Arizona said "I missed us too"
and with that, the blonde walked back to her car, leaving Callie with a megawatt smile on her face.