It´s been a while but it´s finally there. I struggled a bit and wasn´t 100% sure so I waited till i was happy with it. Let me know what you think please.
Chapter 12
Soft music was playing in Callie´s bedroom.
No words were spoken.
Callie and Arizona were standing in front of the bed facing each other, holding hands and looking each other in the eyes for a little while.
Time didn´t matter in that moment.
There was no need to rush because both women knew right there and then was where they belong and both missed it.
"I love you so, so much Arizona" the brunette says after a few minutes of silence.
"I love you too, Calliope." the blonde says before her hands move to Callie´s neck and she pulls her lover into a loving kiss.
It didn´t take long and both of them were laying in bed almost naked.
The brunette was on her back, in a sexy black bra and matching pants while Arizona was on top of her wearing a dark purple bra and panties.
The blonde leaned down to kiss pink lips, running her tongue over Callie´s bottom lip just as Callie wanted to push her tongue into her lovers mouth, she pulled back. Looking at the blonde, she was met with a smirk but before Callie could say anything, Arizona started to kiss her neck.
Sucking on her pulse point and running her tongue from her collarbone down between perfect boobs. Soft moans were leaving Callie´s mouth as the blonde continued to kiss her stomach and drew small circles around her bellybutton. As Arizona continued to move down and kiss soft skin on Callie´s inner thigh and knees, the brunette was already almost on the edge. She sat up to look at the blonde and moved closer to her, making both of them stand back up.
"Together" Callie whispered and kissed her lover. Running her fingers over Arizona´s shoulders and down on her back until she reached the clasp of the bra, hesitating for a small moment, Callie opened the clasp as soon as she felt soft hands in the same position on her own back.
Arizona was the first one who put her hands on the hem of Callie´s panties to move them down on caramel legs and Callie followed Arizona´s actions.
It was slow but in a good way. They are about to cross a line, which both of them thought would never happen again and they knew they needed to cherish this moment.
All the pain, tears and broken promises, they will never be forgotten, they are a part of the relationship now and when blue eyes were starring into brown they saw the same, they knew they were thinking and feeling the same.
Their bodies were so close, their boobs slightly touching.
"You´re sure?" the latina questioned carefully.
Again, no words from the blonde but a small nod of her head.
Callie sat down and moved in the middle of the bed saying "Come here"
And with that, Arizona got into the bed, sat down in Callie´s lap and started to kiss the brunette without hesitation. Braking the kiss, only to move down to suck on the pulse point, the blonde started to kneel Callie´s boobs. From now on, things started to heat up pretty quick.
Hands were everywhere, kissing and sucking on each others nipples and hips were moving in sync.
Callie was the first one to break the kiss when her hands were on Arizona´s thigh and moved towards the blondes centre.
Just like before, Arizona followed Callie´s actions while just starring into brown eyes.
Their breath hitched as they both felt the wetness on their fingertips.
One final look into blue eyes and Callie slowly entered the blonde with two fingers. Arizona leaned forward to connect their lips again before pushing two slim fingers into Callie.
Both moved in the same rhythm, enjoying the sensation of being together again.
It was pure love making, nothing fast or rough, it was an action to reconnect physically, mentally and emotionally.
As both of them rode out their orgasm, they were still in that same position, holding onto each other like their life depended on it.
"Callie" Arizona says in a low voice.
"Mhh" was all Callie was able to say. So many emotions and thoughts running through her head.
"I don´t know what to say." The blonde says honestly.
"Then don´t says anything, love. I don´t know what to say either. Other than, that was amazing. I love you so much." Callie put her arms around Arizona to hold her tight.
There was no response for a little while, but Callie felt wetness on her shoulder, where the blondes head was resting.
Callie immediately went into overdrive.
"Hey, what´s wrong? Did I hurt you? Speak to me Arizona." the brunette was concerned.
"You didn´t hurt me, I´m sorry Callie. It was amazing and you were amazing."
"Then why are you crying?"
"How can we love each other so much but still hurt each other at the same time? Why did we let all this happen, when we truly love each other so much? Callie, how could we let this happen to us? And now we are here and everything is amazing and then I started to think, how it´s going to be from now on and everything came back up. So I´m wondering, do you think we are doing the right thing?"
That caught Callie off guard. They just shared the most special momemt and Callie actually thought they were moving forward and both wanted the same.
"Wow, okay. Now, I don´t know what to say….." Taking a deep breath, she continued.
"Do you regret it? Do you want to stop? I mean, I´m scared too and I worry but I´m confident because I believe in us and I trust you to not make the same mistakes again. I know I won´t do the same mistakes again. I can´t promise you that we won´t argue or fight sometimes. That just belongs to a relationship but I´ll never let any issue destroy us again. Not in this life anyway. Do you hear me Arizona? I´m here and I´m in this with you together. I won´t run and won´t let you run, just because you´re scared right now. I understand how you´re feeling but you will speak to me about it and we find a way to deal with it. Arizona, I´m scared too but please don´t run."
"I´m sorry Calliope..." the blonde was still crying.
"It´s just, so many emotions came back up and also a lot I didn´t tell you yet….." Before Arizona could finish, Callie spoke
"So, tell me. Please."
"Well, when I lost my leg, I failed to be a good mom. I failed to be a good wife. I lost myself and I know you think I wasn´t a failure but that´s what I fell like. I struggled but instead of working through it with my family I completely failed and pulled away. I was so lost that I didn´t even realize what I was doing when I slept with Lauren. I failed again. I failed to be a good mom and wife again, for something I can´t even remember. At that point I really hated myself, Callie. I mean already before Lauren, I hated myself. I can´t really explain. But then I thought I can make it up and prove to you that I´m still there, I was really trying and I wanted nothing more than giving you what you always wanted. A baby….." Arizona could hardly hold it together. Looking in sad brown eyes she saw tears running down Callie´s face.
"...But I failed again Callie. I was trying, I was trying to find myself . I was trying to make you stay. But no matter how hart I thought I was trying it wasn´t good enough. I couldn´t recognise myself any more, Callie.
Now, I´m in a better place but I still talk to my therapist. But I don´t know how all of this came up."
There was a short moment of silence before Arizona spoke again.
"I don´t want to fail again, Callie. I don´t want to fail to be a good mom and wife."
Silence fell over both of them, Callie just put her arms around the blonde as tight as she could and hold her close to calm her down.
When Arizona finally stopped crying, Callie said.
"Look at me babe. I´m here. We are here. We go way back and have a lot of history, good and bad, but I wouldn´t change any of it and you know why? Because we are here now, stronger than ever and for sure I´m sorry about so many things I did and I´m hurt about so many things you did, but Arizona it doesn´t matter right now. We agreed to leave it in the past and work together. So tell me what you think we need to do that you don´t feel like that any more?
You are not a failure. You are strong and together we´re even stronger. I believe in us and there is nothing in this world that can stop me from fighting for you and my family. I won´t let my family fall apart again. I´ll go and speak to your therapist, we can do couples therapy, we can do whatever you feel like you need but I will not sit here and do nothing about it. I´ll tell you and show you just how much I love you and that you´re anything but a failure for me and your family."
Arizona pulled back to look into brown eyes, seeing tears in Callie´s eyes.
"I´m sorry Callie" was all the blonde could say. Her mind completely messed up.
"What does that mean, Arizona?" Callie started to feel scared.
Would the blonde put an end to their relationship again?