There is a four-hour drive from Central to the Hawkeye manor at the outskirts of East City. What was once a dirt road that barely saw visitors to the old house welcomes Riza one morning, and it is only then that the finality of her visit sinks in for the first time. A young family had bought the house three months ago, with the promise that they would manage and spend for the renovations themselves. Her only purpose is to collect some old things of hers and her father's, and maybe get a bit of cleaning done as courtesy to the family.
Roy had decided to come along without question, or even any kind of discussion. She had simply mentioned the purchase in passing one day, and then her planned visit, and under a still-dark sky that morning, he showed up outside her apartment with his car. It made perfect sense, Riza reasoned. He might have left some of his own things during his time as her father's student, and he would have more use than she would for whatever research materials her father had left behind. Above all, it's a huge house—she needs the company and help.
"We're here, sir."
He is already awake, but he has difficulty opening his eyes. Riza decides not to wait for him, and she steps out just to look at the old house. She breathes as slowly as she takes it all in. There is a heaviness about it, like a weary weight on tired shoulders. Since her departure for the military, her presence has been replaced by that of overgrown vines and weeds. Despite all this, it hasn't changed much; the structure still seems solid and functional. Nothing that a fresh coat of paint, new wood trimmings, and landscaping couldn't fix.
Roy joins her in gazing up at the house. "So this is it, then. Shall we get to work?"
"A ten-minute break won't hurt."
"No, no, I'm in perfect shape." Roy swings and stretches his arms. "That nap for half of the trip helped a lot."
"I couldn't let you drive all the way, though, could I? You've already done me a huge favor by coming along."
Riza finally takes her eyes off the house, and as she turns, she's greeted by a smile that she wallows in greedily, and then guiltily. The warmth that rises in her cheeks is damning in the cool early morning breeze. Thankfully, Roy grants her another favor by not remarking on it. "Come on."
Every part of the house seems to creak as they enter—the fence, the door, the floorboards. The interiors aren't as bad as Riza expected. Other than a few mold spots on the upholstery and a layer of dust on the remaining furniture, everything seems to be intact and functional. Of course, it isn't as if she had left the house entirely untouched once she entered the military. She has dropped by now and again just to make sure it hadn't fallen to ruin, and the young family has seen it for themselves—there are spots where the dust has been disturbed on the hardwood floors.
"So, where should we start?"
"Hmm." Riza pauses for a moment. "There's not a lot down here. I'll go through the living room and the kitchen—you can start with my father's study."
Roy clicks his tongue. "All right."
Clearing the ground floor is an easy half-hour task, as there are very few things on display that could be considered sentimental. Riza takes the only three pictures in the living room—the last Hawkeye family photo, a solo portrait of her mother, and herself as a baby with her mother—then she proceeds to the kitchen, which is far more promising. She recovers some brass pots and pans, an heirloom dining set with matching silverware, and wooden cooking utensils. Riza gathers these into a box and places them in the trunk of Roy's car, and then she heads upstairs to check on his progress in the study.
She pokes her head through the door. "How are you doing, Colonel?"
He is crouching by the bottom of a crowded bookshelf at the back of the room, carefully absorbing each title. This is the first thing that takes Riza back to a vivid memory of her childhood, when a much younger Roy first became acquainted with Berthold Hawkeye. Shirt half-tucked, hair standing at the back—she can see the boy there almost as clearly as the man.
"Well, the libraries in Central would cough up a fortune for a collection like this, and this shelf is all just general alchemy titles," says Roy as he straightens up. He has a tattered book in hand that Riza didn't notice right away. "You have stuff on philosophy over there, and biology in two full shelves there—that's not yet getting into physics and chemistry, which is of course a lot more extensive since your father studied flame alchemy, and…"
He trails off at the sight of Riza, who has become a picture of amusement—leaning against the doorway with her arms crossed, eyebrows raised, and a smirk lifting one corner of her lips. Roy clears his throat. "Anyway, I'll try to finish this quickly."
"Take your time, we have a long day ahead of us."
Riza's gaze is then drawn to a door at the end of the hallway. The sight of it alone is enough to fill her with nostalgia, enough to know that she needs to take precisely twelve steps to reach it. She opens the door, and she is all that has changed about the room.
There are a few old books on her dresser and on a shelf that also holds a few memories of schoolgirl days—certificates from school and notebooks filled with both learnings and idle doodles, a few photos here and there, but nothing too personal—they come from official portraits like those from her graduation days, and class photos at assemblies. There's an old porcelain lamp and her mother's hairbrush on her nightstand. In her bedframe is a mattress long stripped bare, spotted with mold.
She enters the room as if it were a sleeping beast she doesn't want to wake. Only her reflection in a tall mirror startles her, but it might have something to do with the unfamiliarity of her freshly cut hair, which is once again as short as it was in her younger years. In contrast, the way she sinks as she sits at the end of her mattress is still a very familiar feeling. Riza is content to stare at the dusty curtains ahead of her for a while, until she is interrupted by the approach of Roy's heavy footsteps.
"So," he says, slowly entering and examining the room, "this is the bedroom of young Miss Hawkeye."
She simpers as she turns to watch him. "You know, it's not appropriate for strange adult men to enter young girls' bedrooms like that."
"No!" Roy clutches his chest in mock pain. "I can't believe you still consider me a stranger after all these years."
"Well, I'm open to suggestions. What should I consider you?"
"It's simple, really." He takes a few careful steps to the side of Riza's bed, then hesitates for only a few seconds before sitting in a spot perpendicular to hers. The mattress groans as it accommodates his weight. "When you've known someone for nearly all your life, you'll eventually realize how you truly see them. It could go one way or the other." A pause. "I realized that about you long ago, Riza."
Riza ignores the swooping in her chest. She laughs wistfully, her eyes cast downwards.
"Oh, I don't know. For starters, the last time I saw you here, I had you burn my back. And before that, I was both an orphan and my father's successor to you. I don't know how I should see you, Roy Mustang; you're a different person every time you're here, even now."
"Am I really just one of those things to you?"
She looks up to find a knowing and hopeful expression on his face. He doesn't need to ask; Riza knows exactly what he means by asking the question that he did. But surely he knows that she needs him to take the lead—that she has kept far too many hard truths to herself for honesty to be easy?
Roy reaches for her hair without warning, raising goosebumps as his hand brushes against her nape. She is made aware again of how short her hair is now, cursing how exposed it leaves her feeling. Riza swallows hard, visibly. Somehow, it's just the push that her nerves needed.
"You're not," she whispers. "You haven't been for a long time."
Suddenly, they're face to face within an inch of each other. Riza leans in to close the gap, with their foreheads touching first, and then their noses. And then, only hesitation hangs between their lips. The moment stretches out with Roy taking a last lingering look at her features up close. Still, it's he who kisses first, soft and cautious.
There are a million lines that they have crossed to find themselves here, and the kiss does not answer when or how those lines were crossed. Ishval, the move to Central, the Promised Day—there's no point in figuring it out now. It's only one of many things that they have never needed to discuss, but somehow already knew. Still, even as Riza kisses him back, Roy pulls away with a deep breath. "Is this okay?"
She responds by kissing him again and nodding eagerly—then her hands reach for him, one tugging at his button-down and the other taking his hand up the split in her skirt. Roy takes his cue; he guides her back down to the bed and her legs along the length of it. He is careful with his weight as he settles on top of her. All the while, their kisses become more fervent, greedier, until every little movement they make is lost in a flurry of reflex actions that are unrehearsed, but familiar from years of being side by side.
When he finally enters her, Riza freezes for a brief moment as she is seized by the most tantalizing waves. She helps him find his pace by moving against him as well. Slow, then a little faster, then slow again—there is a different kind of pleasure at each pace, as well as some pain to work around. They find more places to kiss each other and place their hands, and at the sound of each other's moans and shuddering breaths, she becomes wetter and he throbs in anticipation.
They settle on a certain tempo as they begin their final climax. Riza can no longer tell where it aches or stings, but the impending pleasure takes her mind off it.
"Please, Roy—please—ahh—"
Roy is moaning her name as she comes, and then again, until the waves stop and leave her spent. He thrusts a final time and then finally pulls out, deflating on top of Riza. For a minute, they are nothing but sweaty bodies, panting, and a plesant residual buzz. The wetness spreads onto the mattress. She holds him close, fingers in his hair.
He settles into the spot next to her once he recovers. Roy kisses her forehead, and then her shoulder, and then her hand—and then he doesn't let it go. She inches into him until she cannot get any closer, and they are face to face again. Riza is the first to smile. He laughs, and it's the first new thing she has seen about him in a while. The second is his voice as he asks, "For how long?"
She touches his face with her free hand. "Years."
Roy closes his eyes solemnly and nods once against the mattress.
"Years."
He lets go of her hand then, pulling her close instead. There will be more questions about where this leaves them, Riza is sure—many of them to be dealt with once they return to their daily working lives at Central. But while they are there, she decides that this is all that matters: she is falling asleep in her old house for the last time, and in Roy's arms for the first.