Chapter 114: Goku's midlife crisis

My little granddaughter is so cute. I couldn't help visit almost every day. On this day, I was bringing a few veggies from the farm. Got to make sure all three of them are eating right. When I entered their home, I couldn't believe my eyes. How dare they toss a defenseless baby around! I quickly saved my poor grandbaby. How dare the boys be so careless! "It's ok Pan, grandma got you. That was scary, wasn't it. Yes, it was. Yes, it was. Grandma gonna keep you safe." Then Gohan had the nerve to say that rough housing is fine, all because she has sayian blood. Oh no way mister. My grandbaby is a princess, and should be treated as such.

He probably wants to encourage her to fight, just like her grandpa. No way! Not on my watch! I quickly take her and Videl into another room. We're not leaving till they agree that Pan is going to be a girly girl. They have to agree she's not going to do any fighting. Or any training. My grandbaby is going to be treated like a princess, and do girly things. She's not putting her life at risk. And even more, she's smart and girly. I can't believe Videl wouldn't mind a daughter who would like to fight. Maybe I am overreacting. But I want my grandbaby to be safe, and have good role models. I want her to never witness any ugly things that my boys seen.

Just my luck. Bulma just had to mention that Vegeta was off planet. To top it off, he's training with that Whis character. And Goku had to be here to hear it. When I heard him surprisly yelled what, I had to cover poor Pan's ears. Goku even manage to shake the whole house. Pan on the other hand was laughing the whole time. "Bulma. I wouldn't do that if I were you." She gave me a confused face, before opening the door. And on qui, Goku rushed in and shook her. He kept asking when did this happened, and how long. He even said how this wasn't far. "Suck it up, Goku. You're a grandpa now. No more training or fighting." He gave me a horror look, before looking at Pan. Goku looked so defeated, as he walked over and took Pan from me.

As he held Pan, he looked so sad. I was starting to feel sorry for him, but not sorry enough. I watch him poke Pan's cheeks, and do silly faces. I really don't give him enough credit. After we found out about becoming grandparents, he had not once asked to go off world to train. He didn't even put up a fight when I told him he couldn't go off planet. He didn't even fight me to even trained just a little. He didn't even sneak any training. Even when we were home, he only did his morning workout, before heading to the fields. He didn't argue or fight to be allowed to train again. That's when it hit me. He WAS taking being a grandpa seriously. He WAS doing everything he could. I truly don't give him enough credit. Maybe I should think about letting him train off world again. Maybe.

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After finding out about Vegeta, I felt really bummed out. I really want to go, but Chichi's right. I'm a grandpa now. I should be staying close. But the thought that Vegeta is getting stronger than me is itching my nerves. No way I could let that happen. I'm between wanting to just go and train, and being a good grandpa and staying on earth. Damn! I'm just itching to just train. I'm trying so hard to be what Chichi wants, and make her happy. Even doing everything I can to make my family happy.

There I go again. I don't really mind. It does make me happy to know I make them happy. Even if it's not what I want. I would sacrifice myself 100 times over for my family. I would do absolutely anything for them. If they're happy, I can deal with feeling restless. If they're happy, I don't mind being bored out my mind. If they're happy, then I'll… I'll… I felt my jaw tighten, as I try to admit it. I'll let Vegeta… Get stronger than me. Man. That left an awful taste in my mouth. Never thought I'll ever say that. And I'm not going to say it out loud. If I do that, then I don't know if I'll be able to look at myself.

Funny. All my life, in a way, I been saving others. I trained to get stronger, and I end up using that strength to protect those who can't protect themselves. Then when I got married, I trained so I could protect what's mine. For once in my life I had something that was completely mine, and I didn't want to let it go. Then came Gohan. I definitely would do anything to protect you, and I did. Even though I feel like I failed you in many ways, I still tried to keep you safe. All I want is to keep my family safe and happy, even when it causes me harm.

Damn, I was daydreaming for too long. It's already the afternoon. Chichi probably is expecting me by now. Strangely, I'm not feeling hungry right now. I'll just continue working the fields. When the sun does go down, I call it a day and head home. When I get there, I'm greeted by a worried looking wife. I try to reassure her everything is ok. As we eat, I couldn't stop praising her cooking. Chichi's cooking is always the best. After dinner, instead of working out, I just sit and listen to Goten read. Then, as we get ready for bed, Chichi once again ask if I'm ok. I keep telling her that I'm fine.

Even when we're falling asleep, she looks worried. I really don't like this. What can I do to make her not worry? I'm not even in the mood to do that. So, what else can I do? Maybe just a kiss will make her fine. That kiss turns to me to using my fingers to love her. Maybe something is wrong, but I don't want her to worry. Well, she finally asleep, and smiling. So, I guess I did good. I couldn't fall asleep last night, and I don't understand why. To top it off, I feel like I'm just going through the motions this morning. Ruffle Goten's hair, before he heads to school. Give a quick kiss to my lovely Chichi, and then I'm off to the fields. Today just feels off.

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Why hasn't Goku came home for lunch? He's probably working super hard. But he never misses a meal. Could something be wrong with my husband? I try to reach out, but not answer. I wonder what's wrong. When Goten get's home, I try to keep a smile on my face. Can't let him see me worried. But the moment Goku gets home, my worry just spills over. He looks awful. But he keeps telling me everything is fine. But he's wearing that smile that says otherwise. Even during dinner, his behavior worries me. He's not even working out, after dinner.

When we get to our room, he looks exhausted. I try asking again if he's ok, and again he says he's fine. Maybe a hot shower with his wife will cheer him up. I was wrong. He didn't try again. He just took a shower, and then went about drying and getting dress for bed. This really worries me. He always made our bath time fun. This one felt bland. As we're laying in bed, he has that look, as if he's deep in thought. I keep trying to ask him what's wrong, but he won't tell me.

I try asking one more time, and he just kisses me. He would do that sometimes when he doesn't want to tell me what's wrong. Whenever he ends the kiss I try again, and again he kisses me. It even got to the point I felt his hand groping my breasts. He even whisper against my lips how he loves me. I then feel him working my core, with those skilled fingers of his. Before long I'm coming down for a second climax. I'm so lost in the sensation I forgot what I was worried about. Me and Goku share one more kiss, before we fall asleep.

Or so I thought he fell asleep. When I woke up the next day, he looks like he didn't sleep at all. I'm starting to worry all over again. But this time I didn't even get the chance to ask again, for he was already on the move, to get ready for the day. Even as he ate breakfast, it wasn't with the same energy he always eats. He didn't even finish. That really troubles me. Even Goten notice. Even when he did his usual bye for the day, his movements seem automatic. My poor husband. What am I going to do?

Is it my fault he feels awful? Did I do something wrong? Is he mad at me? I felt on the verge of tears. I quickly went to our room, and try to think what could possibly be wrong with my husband. When something does trouble him, he sometimes tell me after a long while. That's if I haven't pushed him to tell me. He does put his foot down when he strongly believes something, and is trying to have me see his side. But this feels different. My Goku doesn't ask for much, and I do try to give him what he wants. Well, I can't really say that. Goku does everything I want. He does everything the boys want. When he does want something, he usually ask, sometimes beg, for it.

Could this be one of those moments? He wants something, but he already knows how I feel about it. He does that a lot. He does everything for everyone, but when he wants something it's hard for him to just ask. Am I that awful of a wife that my own husband is afraid to ask me for things? That's when I begin to sob. He probably wants to go off world, to train with that Whis guy. But he's a grandpa now. He needs to be here on earth, settling a good example for Pan. It's bad to always want to train and fight, and do nothing else with their life. But, maybe I'm wrong.

My Goku loves to get stronger. He loves the rush of a good fight. It's basically in his blood. I can't change who he is, no matter what I do. What example am I setting for Pan, by stopping her grandpa from doing what he loves? Probably not a very good one. But all I want is to keep my family safe and happy. Goku wants that too. Which is the reason he's always trying to get stronger. He gets stronger not just for him, but for the ones he loves. That's it! I quickly call Bulma.

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When dad got home, he looked sad. Mom kept trying to ask what was wrong, but dad tried saying he's fine. But he's not. There's like dark cloud surrounding dad. As we ate, he tries to be cheerful, but even that looks like a lot of work. He doesn't even work out after dinner. Instead, I'm in his lap reading out loud to him. He seems to smile to that, but I know he's still not ok. That dark cloud isn't leaving daddy alone. Maybe one of my hugs would cheer him up. When he hugs me, it feels nothing like his hugs. Who is this person? Where's my daddy? I so badly want to cry. Daddy's hurting. Hopefully mommy could make him happy by morning.

I was so wrong. That black cloud is worse. No! Daddy! Daddy isn't even eating like usual, or even finishes. He ruffles my hair, but it's weak compared to the way he usually does it. Something really wrong. I don't want to go to school, especially knowing that daddy isn't ok. During school, I feel off. Trunks tries to cheer me up, but it doesn't work. He ask what's wrong, and I tell him how my dad isn't feeling ok. He then suggest after school we could ask dad to spar with us. Maybe that'll cheer him up, but I don't know. That's when he tells me about his dad. Oh! That's got to be it. Dad feels left behind. Now it makes sense. But how am I going to help him?

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This just suck. I can't even focus today. I ended up trying to take napping under a tree. I don't even have the energy to do anything. I should have finished eating. Or maybe it's the lack of sleep. Even trying to nap is becoming useless. Damn it all. Let me just work on the field and hopefully I'll be fine. What felt like forever, I finally finish working on one half of the field. Now to get started on the other half. Just then I hear someone calling my name.

I lazily look up, and it's one of Bulma's jets. What does she want? She lands somewhere off, before making her way to me. "Man, Goku. Chichi wasn't kidding when she said you look awful." Great, just my luck. My wife called her. I don't need this today. So, I ignore her, while I get back to work. "Hey! I'm talking!"

"So, what."

"Goku!" I annoying look over to her. She marches over to me, and is about to slap me. I'm really in no mood for this. I stop her hand, and tell her to leave. "At least hear me out on why I'm here." I tell her to hurry it up, how I need to finish with the field. "Look grumpy, I came here to give you this." She hand me a small rectangle box. "It's a phone. I'll call you when Whis comes back to earth." Wait. What! I'm completely thrown off guard. I ask her why. "Your wife. Now stop being Mr. Grumpy. It really doesn't suit you. The instructions are in the box. I also gave one to Chichi, and gave her one for Goten. Now, if you excuse me. I have to go back to work." With that she left. I was just stun. What just happened?

When I went home, for lunch, I was met with a very cheery Chichi. "What did you do? And why did Bulma said she'll call me when Whis comes to earth?" I pull out the box, and show it to her. She hugged me around my waist, and just said that she'll help me setup. "That's not answering my question, Chichi."

"Aw. I was being mean. I thought you would be happy."

"Right now, I'm just confused on what's going on. Tell me what's going on." I think I sounded angrier than intended, by how she looks sad. She hugs me tighter, and kept saying for me to forgive her. "Chichi. Can you please tell me what's going on? I'm really not in the mood for this." She looks at me stun, and even has tears at the corner of her eyes. Did I really make her cry? Great, just great. I should apologize, but I don't. Instead, I gently get her arms off me. I walk to the table, and set the box down. I then walk over to the door. "I'm going back to the field. I'll be home for dinner." She tries to stop me, but I pull away.

As I work on the field, I'm on edge. I'm exhausted, in a fool mood, and confused about what's happening. Not very good combinations. To top it off, it look like I hurt Chichi. Damn it! I slam my fist at the tree next to me. I hit it with enough force the roots came out. Great, just great. More work to do. When I get home, I'm greeted by an energic Goten, trying to get my attention. "Not now, Goten. Daddy not in the mood to play." He stops bouncing, and looks really sad, almost hurt. Great, just great. I'm really not in the mood for this. Dinner was eaten in silence, and the worse part it tasted bland. No way that's possible. Chichi cooking always tastes good. Guess my taste buds aren't in the mood either. "I'm going to bed." They both look worried at me, but so what.

Once I'm settled into bed, it's hard to fall asleep. I know I'm tried. I know I'm exhausted. But why can't I just close my eyes, and rest? Even sleep is getting on my nerves. "Goku?" I can feel her behind me. I can even feel when she touches my shoulder. "Do you want to talk?"

"Leave me alone. Get some rest. I'm fine." She says fine, and tries to kiss me, but I pull away. I then feel her try to hug me. "Stop. Please stop." I hear her gasp. I then feel she moved away, and is laying down. I really don't like that I spoke to her like that, but I really just want to be left alone. The next morning was worse. I don't know why I'm angry, but I just am. My whole body is on edge. What's worse when I see Goten. "Boy, aren't you supposed to be getting ready for school?"

"But… But…" His stuttering is getting on my nerves.

"Speak up!"

"But it's Saturday, dad." He looks on the verge of tears. I tell to go to Trunks, or something. Instead he hugs my leg. "But I want to spend time with you, daddy." I try my best not to scream at him to get off, but he just hugs tighter. I'm really in no mood for this. To top it off, when I look at Chichi, she has tears coming down her face. She doesn't look sad, but scared. Just my damn luck. I have a crying son, who won't let me go, and a scared looking wife. I feel an itch to just punch something.

"Goten, please get off daddy's leg. Daddy isn't in mood to play." He eventually gets off my leg, and I walk out the house.

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"Mommy! What's wrong with daddy?" Goten is crying in my arms. I tell him how I don't know. "Mommy! We have to do something. Daddy is cover in a dark cloud, mommy. How can we make daddy happy again?"

"I was trying to tell him, I was letting him go train, but he didn't give me the chance. So, I don't know what to do. I'll try again. Can you help me find daddy, so we can tell him? Also, so we could up setup his new phone." He nods his head. I quickly grab my bag, and place the phone Bulma gave for Goku. I also grab mine. Even though, Goten is able to carry me, I suggested we take nimbus. With that, we go in search of Goku. When we reached him, he's in a valley, doing some of his kata. When nimbus set up down, it's clear Goku has yet noticed us. Goten is about to go towards Goku, but I stop him. Goku form just reads bottle up rage. This isn't good. I tell Goten to sit, that we'll wait till he notice us.

Thankfully, it wasn't as long as I thought. When he saw us, he lowered his stance. Goten wanted to go to him, but I told him to wait. To let his daddy come to us. When Goku does walk to us, it's clear that he's frustrated. He sits in front of us. Again, I try to stop Goten. This time Goku has his arms out. "Come." Goten almost rushes to Goku, and hugs him. "Sorry about that, kiddo. I didn't mean to yell at you."

"It's ok, daddy. I know it's not your fault. It's the dark cloud's fault." Goku looks at him for moment, but then shakes his head. "Daddy. Mommy has something to tell you. So, please. Please wait till she finish telling you." He says ok, and hugs Goten. He's now looking at me.

I pull out the phone box, and his face starts to twitch, but at least he's quiet. "I was trying to tell you that I'm letting you go train." He looked surprised. "I was being mean, so I thought this would cheer you up. I asked Bulma to let me know when Whis came back. So, you could hopefully ask if he could train you, as well. Then Bulma suggested the cell phones, so she could call you directly. Since Bulma showed me how to set it up, I was going to help set up yours." At first, he looked taken aback, then amazed, before he looked sad. He asked why did I do that. "You do a lot for us. You deserve something, too. I was being very mean trying to stop you, from doing what you love. Which is very unfair. Could you ever forgive me?" He had a big smile, as he got up. As he carried Goten, he walk over, and sat next to me.

Keeping Goten on one lap, he pulled me onto his other. He kissed my cheek. "Of, course I forgive you. Could you ever forgive me for being a big jerk?" I playfully jab his face, and said of course. We then went about setting up his new phone. He even learned how to take pictures, and took a picture of the three of us. "We should go to Gohan's. I want to take a picture of him and Pan." It was nice to see my husband be his cheery self again. He's so cheery again he's tickling me and Goten. Without warning, I give him a kiss on the cheek. His face turns red, and he looks so cute. I take a picture with my phone. His face then becomes redder, as he tells me how I better delete the picture. Aw, but it's so cute. "Chichi."

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Mom kissed dad, and dad face got all red. Now I see where Gohan gets it. Dad looks so shy. Why is dad shy around mom? But at least that dark cloud is gone. We then head to Gohan's place, and take lots of pictures. I think dad's favorite one, is of all of us sayians together. Or the one where he's holding Pan. Then on our way home, dad wouldn't stop tickling me. When we got home, we had a tickle fight with mom. Before long, it was bed time.

But the next morning was strange. I spy with my little eye, something I should not be watching. But it's so hard to look away. Mommy and daddy look so happy. I never seen Trunks' parents this happy. But why are they're wearing bathrobes. Did they take a bath? Mommy daddy always are fully dress during breakfast time. I look back on the clock, on my desk, it's super early. Why is mommy daddy up so early? Maybe they got super hungry.

Uh? Why is daddy touching mommy's butt? Daddy! You can't touch mommy there. That's a no, no spot. Why is mommy letting daddy touch everywhere on her body? Now daddy has mommy sitting on the counter. Mommy always said no one can sit there. Why is she allowed to? Daddy is kissing mommy through the open parts of her robe. He keeps getting lower, and lower.

SLAM! I slam the door. I was not supposed to see that! That was a mommy daddy kissy face time. And I spied. Oh no! I'm in big trouble.

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After the whole ordeal, I was feeling much happier. I even played with Goten and Chichi. Then Chichi surprised me with a kiss, and she took a picture. "Chichi." She started giggling. We then headed to Gohan's, and I was able to take lots of photos with my family. My favorite was taking a family photo. And maybe the one where I had one with me holding Pan. My cute little granddaughter is so perfect. Afterwards, I played with Goten on the way home. At home, we had a tickle fight till bed time.

The moment me and Chichi were alone, my mood sky rocket. She sucked me off. But when I wanted to do her, I wasn't allowed. She said how it's just for me. For almost the rest of the night I had came all over her. Every inch of her was covered in me. If this is the treatment I get after a fool mood, I should be in a fool mood more often. Then again, not really. I should be a little more selfish with my wife. Not like it's a bad thing. She is my wife after all. It shouldn't feel wrong to ask for some special treatment once in a while. I just wish it didn't take me this long to figure that out.

We even woke super early the next morning, and in a super good mood. We stood in our bathrobes, as she fix us some breakfast. The smell of pancakes being made, and having my scent all over her was a turn on. I quickly sense to see if Goten was awake. Thank goodness he wasn't. Looks like I'll have time for a little snack. I kiss her neck, as I rub up and down her sides. I expose some of her shoulders to my hungry eyes. Mm. My Chichi smells and taste so good. I want more. I grab you perfect firm behind, and she giggles.

I can't take it anymore. I sit her on the counter, and kiss my way down her expose chest. I even give a little nibble between her perfect breasts. Just when I was going to dig into my snack, we heard a slam. Oh, please don't tell me. I quickly sense if Goten was awake, and to my horror he was. This is bad. I started to panic, as I looked up at Chichi. Even she looked in complete shock. She quickly got off the counter, fixed her robe, and we went to Goten's door. Before we could even knock, we heard him. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. It was an accident. Me sorry. You two looked so happy. I'm sorry. I'll stay in my room."

Me and Chichi just looked at each other. What exactly are we supposed to do? Chichi knocked on the door. "Goten, come out."

"You sure? You and daddy done kissy face?" I felt my face burn up at that, and Chichi started turning red.

"I'm sure, Goten. Me and daddy aren't doing kissy face."

"Ok. But I'm keeping my eyes close." When he stepped out, he had his eyes tightly shut. Chichi told him he could open his eyes. "You sure it's safe?"

"Yes, Goten." He opened his eyes, looked at us, and then covered his nose. Oh great, completely forgot about that.

"Better yet, call me out after you two take a bath. You two smell funny." He then went back into his room. It was actually funny, and we couldn't stop laughing. Chichi quickly finished making some pancakes, before telling Goten. We then headed upstairs, to our bathroom for a quick shower. And I was able to get my morning snack after all. When we came back down, he just finished his pancakes. I sat next to him, as Chichi started making our pancakes. "You love mommy a lot?"

"Yes, I do."

"You two looked very happy. I'm sorry." I ruffled his hair, and told him it was ok. "I'll go play at Trunks, and you could be kissy face with mommy all you want." My whole burned up at that comment. And from the looks of it, Chichi almost dropped a pancake. "What? You two looked super happy." Breakfast was eaten in silence. It was kind of awkward at the moment. Goten smarter than what he seems. He might not have Gohan's book smart, but he's a super smart kid. That makes me proud. I have smart sons.