Hi! Update after a year. I tried to write another chapter and here it is! Sorry for my mistakes. My English isn't best, but I tried.
'' I don't know what do you want me to say. '' Donna sights.
'' Truth. Why did you kiss me? '' he is looking at her.
'' I don't know why I did it anymore. It just happened. Mike told me that I need to share my feelings for you and then Louis was talking about how the love of his life was marrying someone else. I was so confused and then I did it. I'm so sorry Harvey. '' tear escape from her eye but she tried to cover up because she doesn't want Harvey to notice.
'' You don't have to be sorry. You did what felt right. I just don't know what do you want me to say. '' he stood up.
'' I don't know either. I wanted to be alone and process what I did. Then you showed up here and everything changed. ''
'' In a good way or in a bad way?'' he smiled.
'' In both, I think. Wait, why are you here? You normally didn't take a vacation'' she asked. She is confused because he never takes free time.
''You are right like always. But I needed time for thinking. ''
'' OK, what's your conclusion? '' she is just curious.
'' So far, I did right decision when I broke up,'' he said it like it was nothing.
'' Wait, you broke up with Paula?''
'' You think that I would left when I was still with Paula?''
'' No, you wouldn't. I'm sorry. It's my fault. Are you OK?'' She doesn't know why she apologized, but it felt right.
'' It isn't your fault. It happened in the morning before that, you know. She forced me to choose between her and you. I choose you. '' he is smiling now.
'' Wait, you chose me? '' she didn't know if she heard right.
'' Please, wait. I need to finish my speech'' he smiled. '' I realized that I couldn't be me without you. Then you kissed me and all I wanted to do was pull you closer and never let you go. '' he is stepping closer to Donna.
If she didn't cry before, she definitely is now. She didn't know what to say. Tears leak from the corner of her eyes. He steps closer to her and reaches out to wipe her tears. Her eyes close, but her tears don't stop. He pulls her into him, he wraps his arms around her and kisses her forehead. He holds her tight against his chest.
I don't know how I am feeling right now. He is so close and he is hugging me. I'm still crying. This feels so right to be in his arms. I hug him back. Then I realized I should tell him something, but what. I don't want to hurt him. After a few seconds, I step back from him and I immediately miss his embrace. ''Why this is difficult? Why we are so difficult? '' I ask. I know that it is a mainly rhetorical question. But I ask anyway. He seriously looks at me. '' Because we are Donna and Harvey. We never have a simple relationship. We are not simple. We are special. You are. I know it's hard to understand. But we are changing, I am changing because I want to be better for you. '' How could he change like this? Now he is opening up to me. He is telling me how is he feeling. I am the worse one. I can't handle my feelings. I know how I feel, but it's hard to say because we hurt so much in past. I'm afraid that I will lose him. And I know that would break me. '' Donna, tell something. '' he looks terrified. '' I'm sorry Harvey. for everything. I can't lose you. '' ''You won't lose me. I am here, am I?'' smile show up across his face. '' I don't know what to say. You are here, opening up to me and I am still crying. I'm terrified so much.'' '' You think that I'm not? This is the hardest thing I have ever done. I am scared to hell that I will say something that will hurt you. But I'm done to be scared or terrified. I know who I want and I will fight for you. ''
This was hard to say, but it's truth. I think that it's the first time I see her like this. No confident, shaky and full of fear. It is weird, I never see her like that. I need to tell her everything and wait for what her reaction will be. '' Please let me in'' I want to understand her and help her feel comfortable. I reached out for her again, but she took step back. '' Donna, what's wrong? '' ''Nothing, I just can't.'' ''Why not?'' It's a hard question. She didn't say anything so I continue. ''What do you say? You are tired. What if you lay to bed and I read you something.'' I suggested that it will help her relaxed and for a while forget. '' Okay, that's a good idea.'' she lightly smiled. She went straight to bed and got comfortable. She is looking at me while I reading. She slowly closes her eyes. When I think she fell asleep, I quietly stand up. I reach the doors but she whispers. '' Please, stay.'' Of course, I stay. I lay next to her. She cuddles into my side and relaxes. I wrap my arms around her and pulling her close. '' Thank you, Harvey. For everything.'' I kiss the back of her head and in a moment we fell asleep in each other's arms.
Thank you so much for reading. So what do you say? I would like to read your opinion.