Disclaimer: I do not own anything involving the Star Wars Universe other than a POP Poe figurine. All characters belong to their creators. Seraphine and other OCs are my personal characters unless otherwise mentioned.

Author's Note: Mwahahaha, I am an awful human being, and I do apologize. Please don't hate me, all will be explained. Like right now. So yayyyy…..

LoveFiction.2017, to answer your question and for anyone else who might be wondering, no I would not describe Poe and Seraphine as "together now." I suppose it depends on what exactly you define as "together now." They are interested in each other, but it is more complicated than that. Because aren't all relationships complicated. I will say their relationship will develop very rapidly from now on.

Chapter Nine - No Sex and Answering Questions Equals No Fun

"Poe?"

"Finn?"

"Poe Dameron, you're alive?"

"Buddy! So are you!"

Seraphine smirked as she walked past the men hug and went to go say hi to BB-8. The little droid was the cutest thing that she had ever seen. And how did he go up and down stairs! (OKAY HAVE YOU SEEN THE WAY BB-8 GOES UP AND DOWN STAIRS?) So cute. She glanced back at the reunion just in time to hear,

"That's my jacket." Finn awkward begun to take it off before Poe stopped him. "No, no, no. Keep it. It suits you. You're a good man, Finn."

"Poe, I need your help." Finn commented patting the other man's shoulder.

"Anything, buddy, what can I do for you?" Poe replied concerned.

"My friend, Rey. She helped me save BB-8. The First Order, they have her. We have to save her." Finn explained.

Poe nodded slowly, only imagining that they were doing to the poor girl. Trying not to remember what they had done to him. "I'll see what I can do, buddy."

Finn gestured to Seraphine who was standing by them, still talking to BB-8. "Do you think the Collection Agent you mentioned has any sway with the Generals? She knows them."

Seraphine looked up, surprised she was being mentioned in the conversation. Poe was a Commander, he must have more say then her. Poe looked at her confused as well. He also knew he had more sway, even if Finn didn't, but this brought up something else that he had been wondering about. "Yeah, Seraphine, both General Organa and Han Solo are old friends of yours?"

Seraphine stood up and started to awkwardly sway on her feet. "Yeah, you could say that?" She knew that they would find about it eventually, those that recognized her were already whispering about it.

"You could say what." Poe questioned.

"Wellllllll." She sighed. "You know those ten years that I told you about, or at least sort of barely mentioned. That I moved from place to place and got really close to having a family." Poe nodded. "During that time, well, I kind of went by the name Seraphine Solo."

"You are their kid!" Poe gasped. He knew about Ben Solo, who now went by Kylo Ren. He only knew that because he had been read into it, it was a huge secret. Most people didn't even know that the General and Han had a kid. He had not been told there was a second one.

"Not exactly." Seraphine shook her head holding her hands up. "I was saved by them. I was in a real shitty spot you know, and they saved me, and then helped raised me. They taught me everything I know and I owe a lot to them. And." She stopped herself suddenly before she looked at the ground. "I don't go by Solo anymore, I don't deserve to. But yah." She shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal to have been raised by two of the most famous people in the universe. Luke was there once in awhile, but not enough to be counted as a third. But, it wasn't like that for her. They were her saviors and she had failed them.

"You don't deserve it?" Finn slowly asked, confused by her vague answer.

"Come on, boys. That is a conversation for another day. Don't you have a friend to save?" Seraphine laughed and both men ignored her awkward attempt to change the conversation topic, mostly because they knew she was right.

They quickly made their way to the command center, Poe leading, Finn following close behind and Seraphine tagging along mostly because she had nothing better to do.

She had spent so long trying to run away from this war, but it always had a way of dragging her back in. Ben was involved with this mission, and if Ben was involved she was going to be there. He was her problem, not anyone else's. She was the one that had failed him.

She had always hated the First Order. Not just because they had taken Ben from her, but because of all the things they had done to the people. To normal, innocent, people. To people like the force worshipers on Jakku, who had done nothing wrong. They were innocents and they were all murdered. Millions probably died when Hosnian system was destroyed. Not just the New Republic, but also all of those innocent men, women, and children. No one should have a weapon that can do such a thing, and the First Order just kept building them. She had meant what she said when she said it was the Resistance's job to stop the First Order.

It was just time to stop ignoring what was in the back of her head the whole time and finally join the fight with the Resistance.

"General Organa, I am sorry to interrupt." Poe called, catching Leia's attention. "This is Finn. He needs to talk to you."

"And I need to talk to him." Leia replied turning her gaze onto the ex-stormtrooper. "That was incredibly brave what you did. Renouncing the First Order, saving this man's life."

"Thank you ma'am. But a friend of mine was taken prisoner." Finn commented, politely attempting to move the conversation along. Poe glanced over at Seraphine, honestly wondering why she was still here. He thought she hated everything that they dealt with.

"Han told me about the girl." Leia confirmed. "I'm sorry."

Poe turned his attention back to the conversation being held, in order to add in, "Finn's familiar with the weapon that destroyed the Hosnian system. He worked on the base."

Leia's face light up slightly, "We're desperate for anything you can tell us."

"That is where my friend was taken. I've got to get there fast." Finn confirmed.

"And I will do everything I can to help but first you need to tell us all you know." Leia nodded and Finn agreed.

"I will tell you all that I can."

(Okay so we are leaving the plot of the movie again slightly, but I wanted to include MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE PART IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD but unfortunately because other stuff need to happen, Poe and Seraphine need to be else where. BUT I AM STILL INCLUDING IT GOD DAMMIT!)

"Don't do that." Leia sighed, shaking her head in disappointment as she begun to walk away. She had really thought she could find her brother, that he was the piece they were missing to win this battle with the First Order. And to start putting her family back together again.

"Do What?" Han replied confused.

"Anything" Leia exclaimed and Han gave C-3PO a look.

C-3PO commented, "Princesses." And Han started after Leia again.

"I am trying to be helpful!" He insisted, following her down the stairs.

Leia scoffed. "When did that ever help, and don't say the death star!"

Han simply moaned.

(#CUTEEEEEEE, literally the cutest thing I have ever seen and my favorite thing in the whole wide world. I dream of being a writer who writes something as iconic like this. Welp, now back to your written program (get it? Cause it's not televised and I think I am clever even though I really am not, enjoy [smirks])

While Finn was providing the command center with all of the information he knew, Poe went to go figure something out that had been bothering him. He most likely would be given a very important mission soon, and he needed his mind to focus on that. Distractions would get him and his men killed. And she was a distraction.

Seraphine had been avoiding his eye contact after her confession that she had been raised by the Solo's and had darted away pretty quickly once the conversation with the General ended. She was avoiding him, and that was bothering him. Because there were multiple reasons that she was avoiding them, and one of them was his fault.

He managed to catch up to her, and grabbed her arm, to lead the way. Seraphine started to protest but stopped when he gave her a look. She sighed and simply dragged her heels, literally, making it a lot harder for him to pull her to his room.

He opened the door and went inside, she shoved her hands into her pockets and followed him. "We need to talk."

"About what." Seraphine replied, glancing around his rather bare apartment. It was just two rooms, a bathroom and a larger room, but the larger one was split half into his bedroom and half into a living area. "That ridiculous bright orange jumpsuit you are wearing? Cause if so, I agree, you should change the color. To literally anything else." Poe shook his head. "Oh about the fact that you kissed me." She glanced back at him. "It's chill. I am used to it. I am absolutely gorgeous." She continued with a hint of sarcasm at the end.

Poe shook his head again. "That's not what we need to talk about."

Seraphine threw herself onto his couch and made herself comfortable. "Oh, so you don't want to fuck me?"

Poe winced at her rather blunt response and refused to let his mind go there. He could still taste her on his lips, and yeah, he would really love to taste her again. But now was not the time. Something had been bothering Seraphine, and she had helped him enough that he owed her the favor. Besides, she really needed to learn how to make friends. "You stopped yourself earlier. You wanted to say something, and it's obviously bothering you."

Seraphine pouted. "I don't want to talk about it."

"We need to." Poe insisted, sitting down in the chair from across her.

Seraphine sat up and looked at him with a tilted head. Poe subconsciously licked his lips, and Seraphine begun to smile widely. "No we don't. We can do whatever we want to. And I don't think you want to talk." She stood up and walked over to where he was, Poe carefully watching every step she took. She climbed into his chair, making it so she was almost sitting in his lap, her knees on the chair forcing his legs together and her head was slightly above his. She leaned into whisper in his ear, "we can do whatever we want," repeating her own words from earlier.

Poe closed his eyes to make it easier for him to not focus on what she was doing. Or how close she was. Or how pretty she looked. Or how he could feel her breathe against his neck and it made shivers go up his spine. Or anything like that. Anything about her. It would be so easy to give in. To just let his desire win, but no. This needed to happen. And it needed to happen now. "Well, I want to talk." Seraphine hissed, and then bit his ear. "Ow!" Poe exclaimed, but when he opened his eyes, she was no longer there and already making her way to the couch. "Seraphine?"

"You want to talk, we will talk. Whatever. Ask away, I am an open book. I won't tell a lie, you get 10 questions." She flopped on the couch and stared at the ceiling.

"Why the change of heart?" Poe asked, shifting in his seat in an attempt to get rid of a annoying disturbance. If she had seen it, she didn't comment on it.

Seraphine shrugged. "I'm joining the Resistance, gonna make those First Order assholes pay. Do I have to fill out paperwork or anything, for that? To answer your question, I figure that if I join the ranks I am going to be stuck having you pester me until I answer your questions. I've heard legends of how stubborn you are." She sat up slightly too look him straight in the eye. "That being said if a word of this leaves this room, I will make your life so physically painful you will wish I left you to die on Jakku. Do you understand?"

"Understood." Poe confirmed crossing his arms and running over the things he wanted to ask.

"Chill." Seraphine flumped back onto the sofa. "Nine questions."

"What?"

"You had ten questions, and now you have used up two. Eight questions." Seraphine stated.

Poe simply sighed. He figured fighting her would just end up with him losing more questions, and simply be a waste of time. And she considered him to be stubborn? "What did the General save you from?"

"Hell."

"That doesn't count as an answer." Poe corrected, running his hand through his hair. He had let it get too long, but he never had any time to cut it. He never had time to do anything. He didn't even really have time to be doing this now, but it was something that needed to be done. He need a question answered before he left, a question that had been bothering him for awhile.

"I am from Talali. Talali is a planet that choose to cut itself off from the outside world, completely run on slavery." Seraphine replied looking at her nails even though she didn't really care that much about them. She just knew where this story was going, and she prefered not to be looking at him while it did. She knew what he wanted to know, but she still didn't want to answer it. She didn't want to think about it.

Why was it so fucking hard for the past to remain the past?

"So you were a slave?" Poe asked, crossing his arms and watching her carefully.

Seraphine sighed, "Not exactly, I was a Doll.

"A doll?"

"Talali was built on slavery, but the slaves started to get smart. They knew that rebellion after rebellion had been crushed, but they swore to have no children of theirs be slaves like them." She glanced at Poe, but looked back at the ceiling after seeing how intently he was watching her. "Unknown to their master's, they committed mass castration on themselves. No new children were born. And when the old slaves died off, the citizens of Talali begun to panic. Their whole philosophy was that others were less than them, and then they were only left with each other."

"That is awful." Poe muttered, his face twisting and his stomach turning. People like that they made him physically ill. It was almost always the people in power, the people who felt like they deserved everything. The people that felt like they deserved more than everyone else. The people who felt like they were better than everyone else. People like that were barely people.

"It's disgusting. It goes completely against everything I believe in, but that is because I spent the first 12 years living on Talali as a Doll, as less than a person. As less than a slave." Knowing that Poe was probably giving her a look of confusion, but still staring up at the ceiling, she explained, "You see, when they were running out of slaves, they developed a new program. Using technology they had gotten from outside worlds they were able to create beings however whatever they wanted. With genetics they were able to make the men twice as strong but dumb as a rock. And the women they were able to make look exactly how they wanted."

"What do you mean?" Poe questioned slowly.

Seraphine sat up and looked at him. She pointed to her face."Well, so my features, they don't make sense. They were picked from different gene pools because that is what my master's wanted. So individually they look fine, but if you look at them all together they don't quite seem right. Because they can't occur naturally, I wasn't born. I was made. They called people like me Dolls, and the dumb ones were Mules. Mules did physical labor, and Dolls, well, we just sat there and looked pretty or what ever else they wanted us to do."

Poe didn't understand what she was talking about. Well, he understood that they messed with genetics, but he didn't understand the comment about her face. Her features went perfectly together, she was perfect. That didn't make him feel any less sick. "Who were your masters?"

Seraphine shrugged and looked down at her feet. "I don't know their names. I blocked out their faces from my mind. They had a daughter, her name was Maikua, and she was three years older than me. I was bought to be her doll, more than theirs, so she would dress me up and drag me around to show all her friends. Their family was really wealthy, everyone had Dolls and Mules, but no kids did and she loved all the attention on her. And I was supposed to just stay silent and follow her around. If I cried, they didn't even hide the bruises. But I was lucky."

"How?" How the fuck was this lucky? How after all of this is she still able to smile the little that she did? How is she so nonchalant about this? He wished he could go back in time and wring the necks of of those who did this to her. She was innocent. She didn't deserve that, no one deserved that. Was this the reason behind the sadness in her eyes?

Seraphine shrugged and shifted awkwardly. She could feel his gaze and she wanted to leave. But she had promised him ten questions and he had two more."Twelve was too young to be my master's type. That's what the rest of the girls at the house had to do, but they were all older than me. So I was just a child's doll. Besides, I didn't know better. None of us did, no one told us that we deserved more so we didn't even consider that we did."

Poe sat there silently, thinking, and Seraphine shifted awkwardly again. She glanced up at him and was surprised. She had expected for him to look at her disgusted. Like she was less than him, like the abomination she was. But he didn't look disgusted, he looked mad. His hands were in tight fists and shaking slightly, and he looked like he wanted to put a hole in the wall. Slowly Poe asked, trying to remain as calm as he could. "How was the Republic okay with this?"

Seraphine shook her head and corrected his incorrect assumption. "They weren't, not really. Talali wasn't part of the New Republic, not at first at least. It had little to no contact with the outside world, until it got scared of the First Order's and other people's growing power. Since interest was being paid to them for the first time, they ran to Republic for protection. The Republic has laws against slavery, and Talali was able to get away from it because legally we were classified as Dolls and Mules. So they honestly thought we were toys and animals. No one came around asking questions, so they got away with it for a little bit."

"And the General figured it out?" Poe asked, slowly releasing his hands in an attempt to release the anger boiling in his soul. She didn't deserve that. No one deserved that.

Seraphine nodded slowly, watching Poe's motions. "The Solos did, yeah. All of them, they were a little suspicious. A lot of stuff on Talali didn't add up for them, so they found an excuse to vacation there to investigate. When they found out the truth, they freed us. All of us. They took me under their wing because I helped them prove it, and gave me a name. I had never had one of those before, Maikua tended to change what she called me based on her mood. Ben said I was as beautiful as an Angel, and I had a fire in my eye. So that is what he decided to call me."

"Seraphine. Fiery Angel." Poe replied. As much as he hated, no hate was too light of a word, despised Kylo Ren, he did have to admit the name was fitting. She was beautiful, and the fire in her eye was one that kept on burning. It was one that kept her going.

He had asked many questions, but he hadn't asked the one that he wanted too. He hadn't asked her the question that had been bothering him. She knew too much about Kylo Ren's victims from the beginning, and it turns out she has known him for years? He hadn't asked the question that he wanted too.

And Seraphine knew this.

She sighed and pulled her legs up into her chest. "You are out of questions, but I know that is not the question you really have been wanting to ask. Just ask it."
"How close were you to Ben Solo?"

She looked up at him and looked him in the eye for the first time since the conversation had started. He was able to see the fire for which she was named for. "He was my savior and my everything. He walked me out of my hell and I wasn't able to stop him from walking into his. Everything he's done, everyone he's hurt, it's my fault. And that includes you."

"How is it your fault?"

Seraphine stood up. "You've had your ten questions, Dameron. So unless you want to have some fun, I suggest we get back. You have a mission to complete." She walked out of the room and Poe simply watched her go.

He didn't know what he had expected. People like him, people like them, they never have happy backstories. He just hadn't expected, well, that. He had hoped she had had a happy childhood, that she was surrounded by love and white picket fences. He should have known better.

He just couldn't understand how she could possibly blame herself. Everyone's actions are their own, and you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved. He wished he could tell her the words that would make it all better but he knew it wouldn't matter if she wouldn't listen. Words did no good when they were falling on deaf ears.

He wished he could fix her, but he knew better. He was too broken himself to even a imagine a life where he was fixed. Picket fences and happy laughs were not something he was meant to be surrounded with. He lived his life this way so others didn't have too.

He closed his eyes and he could hear the screams.

He would never be able to escape the screams.

Author's Note: Oh? Did you think by my smirk that something was going to happen? HAHAHA no, because I am a piece of trash. Next chapter you will get an hint. And then after all shit goes down, well there will be a wholeeeee tonnnn of fun stuff.

Sneak Peak into Chapter Ten

When the reconnaissance mission returned, he had to go back for work. He had tried to find Seraphine after she had left, but she seemed to purposefully avoiding him. Again. So he headed to the meeting, and tried his best to push all other thoughts out of his mind. It wasn't working too well. He was still tasting her lips, and he could still hear his screams no matter how hard he focused on anything else. He need a mission. He need a purpose. He need something to set him straight.

He focused on the data in front of him, that he had to present. "The scan data from the from Snap's reconnaissance flight confirms Finn's report."

Temmin "Snap" Wexley further exclaimed. "They've somehow created a hyper-lightspeed weapon built within the planet itself." Poe's eyes turned moved off of the other pilot when he noticed Seraphine sneak into the back of the room. She sulked in, and crossed her arms remaining in the shadows.

Taslin Brance asked, "A laser cannon?" Poe kept his eyes on Seraphine, still paying attention to Tas, but when she looked at him he maintained the eye contact. She tilted her head and looked at him strangely, maintaining eye contact for the first time since she had met him.

Poe swallowed, suddenly having a feeling that she was looking straight through him. That she was aware of a truth even he did not know.