Warnings: Explicit usage of language.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything involving the Star Wars Universe other than a POP Poe figurine. All characters belong to their creators. Seraphine and other OCs are my personal characters unless otherwise mentioned.

Author's Note: So what if it is 3am, I have actual motivation for the first time in forever and I am going to write goddamnit. I am also going to go rewatch the movie because man has it been a while hahaha. Hope you guys enjoy, and I really love you all and am so grateful for the reviews.

Songs of the Chapter: Goodbye John Smith - Barns Courtney (Honestly anything by Barns Courtney is life and I listen to his music nonstop.)

Chapter Fifteen - For Only When All Is Lost, Will Hope Be Found

"Black leader, there is a brand new hole in that oscillator. Looks like our friends got in." Yolo Ziff called, causing Poe to rip his eyes off of the battle in front of him and look down onto the planets surface. Time was running out, they had less than a few minutes and it couldn't have happened at a better time. It was go time, this was his only chance. This was it. He needed to make it count.

"Red Four, Red Six, cover us." Poe ordered.

"I'm on it." Red Four, Lieutenant Bastian, responded.

Red Six, Ello Asty, chimed in with a "Rodger."

"Everybody else, hit the target hard, give it everything you've got." Poe turned his X-wing into a sharp dive towards the surface, his men following closely behind him. This was going to be the only chance they had, with the seconds ticking down, this had to be done now or else all would be lost.

He could feel his heartbeat accelerate as he forced himself to calmly take breath after breath. This was it. This is the time he was waiting for. The time that he never felt more alive.

She was alive. He could feel her heartbeat. He needed to do this now. He only hoped that she would get off the planet on time. He had his mission, she had hers. He couldn't be focusing on this, he couldn't afford to be focusing on her. She just better make it out of this alive, then it would all be worth it.

He carefully ducked down avoiding each of the blasts coming his way but there were just too many of them, "I need some help here, I need some help." He needed to complete his mission. He needed to complete his mission. He needed to.

"Coming in." Lieutenant Bastian responded.

"Watch out." Jessika Pava, warned but it to was seconds too late. Red Six took a hit and explosions began to tear apart the X-Wings wings.

"I'm hit!" Ello Asty shouted, before losing control and spinning off and colliding with the side of the gully.

Poe glance back and grimised. Ello Asty was a good man. But he didn't have time to think about that now and quickly looked back to resume his mission. He didn't have time to think about all of the friends that had died during this battle, or any of the battles before it. He didn't have time to mourn, he didn't have time to breath. He never did, he was always moving having to focus on the next step. He only could focus on his mission, it was all for his mission. His mission was all he had and he could complete it. Failure was not an option. Not for him. Not now. Not when the weight of the universe was resting on his shoulders.

"All teams, I'm going in." Poe ordered, focusing on the target in front of him, slowly taking each breath to keep his heartbeat down. The one echoing his own was steady and he used it to focus on his own. It was not the time for emotions, it was not the time for mistakes. Mistakes would end up with him getting killed and then all would be lost. "Pull up and cover me."

"Copy that, Black leader." Nik Lek replied as he began to pull up out of the gulley they were shooting down, the others following him. "Good luck, Poe." It was an empty suggestion and Lek knew it. Poe didn't need luck. He was too good to need luck. They had faith in him, he was their leader and they knew he could do this. Good luck was just a polite thing to say.

Carefully dodging everything that came towards him, Poe began the set up of what was needed to prepare himself for this shot. He twisted so he was flying vertically to force his way through the opening the landing parties blasts had created, forcing the tie-fighters to pull off, and started to blast away, destroying everything in front of him.

Explosions ripped out, the bright light surrounding him but Poe stayed focus on his target, destroying everything he could, he could before escaping out of the building, explosions take out almost everything behind him.

Time seemed to slow down as he waited to see if it had been enough, if it had been enough damage. If he had managed to pull it off. After a few long seconds, the building exploded like fireworks being set off behind him. The planet started to show the effects as the explosions spread, destroying everything in its path.

He had done it.

He had done it.

He had somehow managed to do it, he couldn't help but let out a laugh. As he turned to look back down at the surface that was collapsing below them. He had done it. He just hoped that the landing party would have enough time to get off the planet before it exploded around them. He had done it. He just prayed she would get off on time.

He didn't know what he would do if the heartbeat stopped.

He didn't know what he would do if he was the one who had killed her.

He had done it.

But what exactly had he done?

(on the planet)

Rey ran back through the forest, desperately looking around. When she caught sight of his figure laid out on the snow she cried, "Finn! Finn!" She turned him over, holding back tears as she looked at his injured body before slumping down into him. He had protected her. He had done this for her.

She had no idea what to do as the snow fell around them. And then there was a bright light, causing Rey to look up as the tears fell down her face. It was the Falcon. Chewy was here for them.

She grabbed the lightsaber off of the snow as Chewy carried the injured Finn onto the Falcon, carefully laying him down onto the seat. Chewy quickly went off to start to pilot the Falcon and get them off this crumbling planet and Rey quickly grabbed Finn's hand and started to stroke his head. They needed to get him to a medic soon. She didn't even know if he was still alive.

(back in space)

Poe's eyes searched the space as the planet began to explode. They had to be alive. They had to have made it off. They had too. She had to be alive, he could still feel her heartbeat. Or was it his own and his mind was playing tricks on him. He didn't know, and his eyes began to strain as he searched for that ship.

Wait.

There.

He felt his heart lift and a slight weight off his shoulders. He opened his com and called "All teams, I got eyes on them." Listen to the cheers across the line he watched the Millennium Falcon strongly pulling off the exploding planet.

She had to be alive.

She had to be on that ship.

He believed it.

"Our jobs done here. Let's go home." He sighed feeling like he could breath for the first time in hours. They had done it. He had done it. They had won and they were safe. Everyone was safe.

For now.

(on the Falcon)

Rey fretted over Finn, not knowing what to do, almost jumping as she heard steps behind her. She glanced back and her eyes widened in shock when she did.

It was the girl who had saved her earlier. She didn't remember her name, or even if she had heard it being said. But she recognized the armour that she had been wearing. The armour that was now dripping blood. She was covered in it. It was literally dripping off of her armour and was smeared against her face as well. She looked as if she had fought out of the depths of hell but left her soul behind. Her eyes looked dead as she stared down at Finn.

Rey attempted to speak as the Seraphine crouched down beside her, checking Finn's pulse. "Are you?" She asked stumbling over her words, searching for any wounds she could find. There was so much blood. There was just so much blood.

Seraphine avoided the question by responding, "He's alive. Barely, but he's alive." Rey quickly turned her attention back to the injured Finn as Seraphine grabbed the medical kit and began to focus on doing what she could for the injuries she could see. She wasn't a medical expert but she knew enough. She had stitched up plenty of wounds in her day, but for now she just needed to keep him alive until they could get him back to the base.

"What happened to the two of you?" Seraphine asked, knowing full well the answer. These were lightsaber wounds on Finn, which was why he wasn't badly bleeding. And probably the reason he was still alive. Knives weren't as kind.

"Kylo Ren." Rey replied softly, lightly stroking the top of Finn's head in an attempt to comfort the unconscious man.

"And you guys lived." Seraphine responded shaking her head and Rey stayed silent. "You guys are lucky, he kills everything in his path." She looked over at Rey. "Is he alive? Ben, er, Ren? Is he alive?" Rey nodded. "How'd that happen?"

"I was only able to hold him off. The land split at our feet and pulled us apart." Rey explained softly and Seraphine didn't respond, she just kept on treating Finn. She was glad he wasn't dead. She was glad he wasn't dead yet. Because now she could be the one to kill him. She could be the one to kill Kylo Ren, she could be the one to free Ben. Even if she was freeing him into death. It was the way it needed to be. This needed to end.

The two of them sat in silence, their thoughts lost to the dark corners of their minds.

They were alive.

The base was destroyed.

But Han was dead.

Han was gone.

And it had been at his son's hand.

Both had the same mission in their head. They were going to end this. They were going to end Kylo Ren.

Author's Note: I decided not to include the lightsaber fights between Finn/Kylo Ren and Rey/Kylo Ren because they are beautiful scenes but since they were not 'necessary' to the story and I wasn't sure I could do them justice. So, rewatch them in the movie because they are amazing and the attention to detail is ridiculous. Kylo Ren is a whiny baby tho, like I love him, but gosh he can get annoying.

All names and quotes during the X-wing conversions are real characters belonging to the Star Wars Universe. It took a weird amount of work went into it, consisting of carefully looking at who said what and then tracking down their wiki page and I had to literally google all of the scottish actors in Star Wars to find Niv Lek, but I am pretty confident it is all correct. If it is not, please let me know and I will fix it. Thank you.

As always, reviews are amazing and lifesaving and I am so grateful for all of suport you guys have given me. It really means so much, you guys are awesome.

Sneak Peek into Chapter Sixteen (contains a possible violence trigger, so be careful)

She could hear the cheers from outside the ship. She could hear the cheers and the celebration as she sat there with no desire to celebrate. She could hear the cheers as she sat there her mind lost in the darkness and her thoughts and the emotions she did not want to be feeling.

She looked down at the stormtrooper helmet she was clutching. She didn't know why she was still clutching it, or why she still had it. But as she stared at the blood splatter on it her mind flashed back to when she slammed her knife into his throat.