Dear Diary,
When I started East High, I thought it was going to be the same as it was at other schools; I was going to be the new nerdy girl who had no friends, no dates to the school dances and picked on by the cheerleaders and popular kids. It was terrifying walking through the front doors on my first day and I was worried about what was going to happen to me but it didn't turn out how I wanted it too.

East High was nothing like my other schools and I have some amazing friends that I know will stick with me for the rest of my life and I also have an amazing boyfriend who is so supportive of me and he actually appreciates me being a 'nerd'... he always tells me that he thinks it's really sexy that I'm so clever, I don't know if I believe him but I appreciated the sentiment none the less. The people in my life are the best people in the world and although it was a little rocky at first, I love them all and I would do anything for them and I know that they would do anything for me too... they've already proved that.

I've also learnt to be more confident and outgoing at this school and I have even been in a school musical! I never even classed myself as a decent singer. When I got called on stage on New Year's Eve with Troy I was so nervous and scared that I was going to get booed off stage and everyone was going to laugh at me but then I heard people cheering, applauding and seeing them dancing. I was shocked that they actually liked me! Meeting Troy there was amazing and seeing him in East High was like fate, there was someone somewhere pushing us together and it worked.

I remember when my mom and dad told me that we were moving to Albuquerque and I was so angry at them for moving me again and making me start over in a new school and be the new girl for the fifth time. I was angry at them for moving me around my whole life and never giving me the chance to settle down and make some roots but that all changed now because I do have roots, I have friends, I have a boyfriend and I have the best life I could possibly have.

I am so grateful for the life that I have and the people in it and I don't want anything to ever change.

Lots of Love,
Gabriella x

I closed my diary and leaned back at the chair letting out a content sigh. Writing my journal frees my mind and it stops me over thinking and gives me a chance to let out whatever it is that I'm feeling. I've been writing journals since I was 8 years old and looking back on some, you can see how angry I've been with my parents for making me move around and how much I resented them for it. I spoken about all of the horrible things I've been through in some of my old schools, in terms of bullying.

I've had drinks thrown at me, food thrown at me, things put in my bag, belongings stolen from me, name calling, shoves in the hallway and people threatening me. School so far really hasn't been a positive experience for me because I am clever, I know that with my high IQ a lot of people find it difficult to 'bond' with me but I don't think I deserved all that happened to me but this is why I'm so happy to be where I am now because all of that horrible stuff shaped me to be the person that I am today. It also makes me appreciate what I have now and I don't ever want anything to change.

My phone made me jump and brought my out of my thoughts as the tune from 'Start of Something New' played out loudly. It was the ringtone I set for Troy...

"Hey Wildcat" I answered happily.

"Hey" He replied "I was just wondering if you had any plans tomorrow?" He asked, sounding slightly nervous.

"No plans at all" I told him.

"My parents are going out of town for the weekend, a last minute thing, so I was going to ask you if you wanted to come over. We can order some pizza and watch some movies?" He suggested.

"Sounds perfect" I replied,

"Great! Well... I think they're leaving about 8am tomorrow so just... come over whenever" He said.

"Sounds perfect" I repeated.

"Ok, I'll see you tomorrow"

"See you tomorrow"

The call ended and I thought about what I was going to tell my parents. They will not like the idea of me going to Troy's house when his parents are not there, I can't tell them that I'm going to Troy's. Don't get me wrong, they like Troy, in fact my mom thinks that Troy is perfect for me but they are very over protective, especially my dad and he likes Troy but he doesn't trust him because he's a 17 year old boy.

My parents are very traditional and they don't mind me and Troy going out on dates but I have set times to be home by and they like Troy coming to the door and 'calling on me'. It's actually really embarrassing sometimes but Troy doesn't seem to mind and I think that's why my parents like him, they can see that he is a good guy and he is respectful to them and their rules.

I'm going to have to use Taylor as my back up for tomorrow. I've had to do this three times already and I know Taylor doesn't mind, in fact I've been her back up story for her parents when she's been with Chad. I will just tell them that I'm going to go to Taylor's for a girl's day as her parents were not going to be home.

My phone let out a sound telling me I had a message;

Do you think you could stay tomorrow night? Xx

Troy wanted me to stay overnight? We've never done that before, yeah we've been in his house alone before and he's been in my room and we've cuddled on the bed but we've never spent the whole night together. I don't know if it's a good idea, I mean I don't want him thinking that I was ready for something else, is Troy even ready for something more?

Ok... I'm freaking out.

I called Taylor.

"Hey! Everything ok?" She asked casually.

"I need some advice" I stated.

"I'll do my best" She replied.

"So, Troy called and said that his parents are going away for the weekend and asked if I wanted to come and hang out, I agreed and as I was thinking about using you for my cover story with my parents, he texts me and asks me if I want to stay the night" I explained and I heard her gasp "I don't know if it's a good idea or if I'm reading too much into it... I'm freaking out" I told her.

"First you need to calm down" She said "You and Troy are in love and it's only natural that he is going to want to spend as much time with you as he can. What part is making you so nervous?" She asked.

"Our physical relationship hasn't gone that far, as you know, I don't know if maybe he's expecting something from me staying over. If he is after that, I'm not sure if I'm ready for that step just yet" I explained.

"Do you want to spend the night?"

"I do, I love him and I love cuddling him and spending time with him. We don't get to see much of one another outside of school" I said.

"So stay the night but if something happens that you don't like or you're not ready for, tell him. Troy is a complete gentleman and I know he won't want to rush you or make you feel uncomfortable. Just be honest with him, go over tomorrow and spend some time together and don't over think or panic too much"

"That's actually some good advice" I told her.

"I know it is!" She said with a laugh "And yes I will be your cover story" She added.

"Thank you, I need to and message him back. I'll text you tomorrow"

"Ok. Bye Gabriella!"

"Bye Taylor, thank you again" I said and ended the call.

I text Troy back instantly;

Yeah I can stay over. I'll see you about 10am? Xx

I got a text back pretty much straight away;

That's great. I'll see you then! Goodnight, I love you xx

I wasn't going to text him back but I had to;

I love you too Wildcat xx