Date started: March 30 2020
Date ended: April 2 2020
Fandom: Black butler [Kuroshitsuji]
Ciel sighed happily and tiredly as the vein was sliced by the blade, it was painful, but it was better than feeling numb, he dropped the blade and it fell to the ground, he then followed the blade and lay down on ground, he curled up into a ball and whimpered as he moved his wounded arm, he could feel the carpet beginning to get soaked in the thick liquid that was leaking from his wounds, he took in deep breaths, he was tired, his eyes hurt from crying so much, the only thing that was moving was the slow rise and fall of his chest, he'd lived a traumatic life, at first he was happy, with loving parents and a cheerful environment, but ever since that day, everything changed, he felt his eyes closing, he began to feel each time weaker and weaker, it would he over soon, he just had to wait, it was a comforting thought, he nuzzled his head into the wet carpet feeling the warmth of the blood, he smiled sadly, he was still having a hard time believing it was really going to end, these thoughts plagued his mind, there was no going back now, he knew he'd die, but what happened in death? He didn't know, but anything would be better than this.
Sebastian swiftly jumped down from the big tree branch, he didn't know how long he had been out there, just enjoying the rain and deep in thought, he felt guilty for having slight peace while his master surely didn't feel such, he felt guilty for leaving him alone, he felt guilty for hurting him, he took in a deep breath, he then looked down at his clothing, they were soaked in rain water and with small bits of mud that had been on the tree and leaves, he moved his attention to the dark forest, it was extremely dark, the moonlight didn't reach the spot where he was, he was reminded of the underworld a lot, it was always dark and cold, even though the air was cold he quickly got used to it, he chuckled sadly, would he be back there once the contract ended? When he was longer by his side?
Suddenly he felt a harsh pain on his hand, as if somebody had stabbed him, he lifted his hand and saw the symbol of the contract glow brightly, he'd never seen it glow so much before, his eyes lit up a bright red and magenta as he felt more stinging pain on his arm, something was wrong, terribly wrong, he was hurt, how could he have gotten hurt? He was in the study... crying... he could feel his soul getting weaker and weaker, he immediately started running to the mansion panic and fear overflowing him, he couldn't sense any other humans nearby, or any reapers, he then realized with a sharp stab of guilt and terror that it was self inflicted, 'Hold on.' He thought to himself, as soon he made it to the mansion he opened the large wooden front doors not bothering to close them behind him as he ran inside, he sped up the stairs, his muddy shoes dirtying the carpet, at this point he couldn't care, he was afraid, "Young master!" He called down the hallway, he heard soft whimpering and a small gasp as he spoke, he ran to his bedroom and slammed the door open, he froze at the sight, horror spiked through his body, Ciel was on the ground, blood surrounding him, he was getting weaker, he looked up at Sebastian with half closed eyes, "W-What...?" He asked softly, too weak to speak a full sentence, Sebastian could only stare, he snapped out of it and walked to his master, what had he done? "Why?" He heard his voice tremble as he asked, why would he do this? Had he done this? He gently turned the boy to his back and placed his head on his lap, Ciel let out a small breathless chuckle "You came..." he mumbled tiredly "Of course I did." Sebastian said trying to calm himself down "I-I'm sick, Sebastian" he stuttered with a tiny laugh "I'm sorry" he whispered, Sebastian couldn't stop the small tear that fell from his eye "Please no" he said softly caressing the boys hair "Don't do this to me" he said his voice tainted with fear and pain, the boy smiled softly "I must," he replied quietly staring up at Sebastian, tears in his own eyes "I'm so sorry" Sebastian cried, pain evident in his cries "Please don't leave" he said as he closed his eyes, tears were now falling freely, Ciel smiled, he then gently lifted his good arm and led Sebastians face down to his own, he kissed him gently, Sebastian whimpered into the kiss, was this really it? He opened his eyes staring down at Ciel who began to cry as well, he broke the kiss and slowly rocked the boys head,
"I won't let you" he stated firmly, his eyes filled with sorrow, he looked down at his damaged arm, he had lost too much blood, what could he do? His eyes suddenly widened at the realization of what he had to do in order to save him, would this be wise? Would Ciel want this? It mean't he wouldn't be able to eat another soul in his lifetime, how could he deal with that hunger? He frowned, he'll do whatever it takes to save him, no matter the cost, he placed his hand over Ciels lavender eye, he closed his own eyes tightly and began to chant what he'd been taught since an early age, he took deep breaths and felt the air of the room grow tense, he wasn't sure he wanted to do this to him, would he be okay? Would it even work? No time to ponder on that now, he stayed still, repeating the spell over and over again, Ciel was unconscious, making things easier, he wished he could've asked permission, but he couldn't change the past, wind opened the windows making loud whistling and the papers on the desk falling, Sebastian could feel his hair be made a mess from the strong night breeze, Sebastian concentrated the best he could, he'd never done a spell like this before, his mind was pondering on what could happen, he knew his human form was slipping turning him back to his original body, he could feel soft feathers on his back, suddenly and roughly the windows shut making the papers fall to the ground around them, Sebastian was still and stiff, he didn't stop talking, even when the darkness in the room began to fade, making the room light with the rising sun, Sebastian finally opened his eyes, gulping back his fears, he took his hand off Ciels face and waited, he wasn't moving, he had his eyes closed, after a long and tense pause he felt his body squirm "...Sebastian..." said a small whisper, Sebastians eyes widened, he tried his best to hold back tears of relief, he held him closely, Ciel whined and opened his eyes weakly, Sebastian smiled gently "I'm here..." he said softly, Ciel stared into his eyes and they flashed a deep red and magenta, it had worked, he was now a demon
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Authors note: Looks like I got my motivation back, I'm so tired- like damn, I looked back at it and cringed at how bad it was written- edited it a little- oof