There is something that you need to know. You are loved. Sometimes you don't see it. You never fully comprehend it. You don't understand it. How could someone like you be loved? Still, He loves you. He knows what you have done, He know what you will do, but he still loves you. He loves you no matter what everyone else says.
There are days in which you can't bare to love yourself. He loves you then. He loves you even when you mess up. He loves you when you do the thing that you said that you weren't going to anymore. He loves you when you don't have enough energy to get out of bed.
He loves you when you don't have anything to give to Him. He loves you, not your idea of a "perfect" you, but you just as you are.
He would trade the world for you. You are His child. He gave up His Son for you. His Son died so that you could be with Him.
You think that your are imperfect, that you are a flawed. You are not flawed. You are His masterpiece and you are His.
Don't worry about the world. They don't see you like He does. They say that you are not enough, that you will never measure up. He says that you are enough, that He will help you.
It is only though Him that you can be free. Through Him, you find peace. Through Him your can be refreshed and restored.
Do not run from Him, darling. You think that He doesn't want anything to do with you. That is not true. It dissent matter how many mistakes you have made. He is there for you. All He wants is for you to lean on Him.
When you lean on Him, He will carry you. The hard times are not as hard when He is there with you. He becomes your rock, your shelter in the storm. All you have to do is call on Him and He will be there with you, for you.
Please, darling, do not run from Him. You have been hurt before, by people you should have been able to trust. He will not hurt your. He loves you and will not abandon you. What has been done to you is inexcusable, but He will not abandon you.
He will not hurt you. When (not if) you go through hard times, He will be there for you. He will not abandon you.
Call on Him, darling, and live in the dark no more. Step into His light and rest in His peace.