This chapter starts after Andy´s first shift.

Andy´s POV

My first week at work went by fast. I haven´t talked to Sullivan but I tried to act respectful. During this week I made the decision to move on from Sullivan. Everything else would just hurt more. So I called Ryan after my first shift. I didn´t know why but I wanted to talk to him.

So we met in the park and brought cafe. We walked and talked about my dad and his mom. At some point I couldn´t hold on anymore.

"Ryan, I am sorry for the other day. I didn´t know what happen between you and Jenna and why it happened. I didn´t mean to hurt you by telling you that I fell in love with Sullivan"

"I know. Look Andy I meant what I said. I love you and I want you to be happy and when it is Sullivan..." I cut him of.

"There is nothing between us. I mean I have feelings for him but thats all. I don´t want to wait for something that will never happen."

"Okay so what you are doing?"

"Just moving on I guess"

We walked a few minutes in silence. I was thinking about us. We know each other for a long time and we hooked up every now and then. We were a couple more than once. But something always happened so that we ended things. We dated other people or started a job or we were just too young to want to start something serious.

"Maybe we should try it." I said but wasn´t so sure about it.

"Try what?"

"Us. Maybe it could work when we both try hard enough."

"Andy you´re in love with someone else and I don´t want to be you´re comfy blanket anymore."

"This is not me asking if we should start to hook up again. I want to try to have something serious with you."

I knew what he would say next so I said "and yes I am in love with someone else but I feel a lot for you too and I mean people do it all the time right? They start a new relationship despite the fact that they just broke up with someone they loved. I mean just look at Vic and her new boyfriend. He just broke up with the woman he loves and she just lost Ripley and it works. I think."

"I don´t know Andy."

"You don´t have to answer right know. Think about it."

"Are you sure that you really want this?"

That was a difficult question. I was tired of waiting for a man who will never chose me over his job. And I don´t want to be alone anymore. I didin´t lied to Ryan when I told him that I feel a lot for him and there was a time where I loved him. So why shouldn´t this fellings come back? He was a good guy who would never hurt me intentionally. So why shouldn´t it work when we try it?

"Yes I´m sure"

"Okay then lets try it but I think we should start over"

I had to smile at this. "Okay lets start over"

So he ask me for a date. After we made a appointment for our ´first date´ we both went home. I spended the rest of the day with Maya and decided to tell her everything that happend between me and Sullivan and me and Ryan.

Ryan´s and my ´first date´ went well. It was great I felt good, better than in a long time. During my first week at work we spended a lot of time together. Almost every free second of my off days we spended together. It was nice. We just talked for hours. On Thursday we had our second dinner date. At the end we kissed. I felt like a teenager who is starting to date the boy she has a crush on.

On Friday I had shift. We had a difficult call. After it I wanted to talk to Sullivan about the Captain position. He still hasn´t said anything and that maked me nervous. When I walked towards his office I saw Maya standing in there talking to Sullivan.

She came out and I ask her what that was about. She just said that I should talk to Sullivan. I knew what that meant. He promoted Maya to Captain. I walked into his office to talk to him.

When I left his office I really didn´t knew more than before but I was angrier. I was mad at Sullivan and a little at Maya for not just telling me. Does this man know what he wants? Does he ever keep his word? It hurted that he couldn´t even tell me why and that he broke his word.

I decided to call Ryan and tell him everything. It felt good to be able to talk to someone about it. He offered to pick me up after shift so that we could have breakfast together. I agreed and we ended the call.

I should sleep but I knew I couldn´t. I saw that Travis was still up too. I sat down next to him and we talked till the next call came in.

When the shift was over I left the Station and saw Ryan. I walked over to him and he kissed me. It was a quick kiss on the lips. I smiled and we got into his car and then we had breakfast. I really enjoyed the time we spended together.

Now I lie in my bed and think about my future and my past. I know for sure that I have to move out. I can´t live with Maya anymore. But I can´t move in with Ryan that would be way to soon, I don´t want to rush something. So I have to find a new place just for myself.

Time went by fast and Maya has her first day as Captain today. I am still mad about the whole situation. The shift was hell, Maya forced us to do workout with her. At the end of the shift Jack came to me and ask if I want to have breakfast with him and talk to him about the whole Captain situation. Ryan is working today and I don´t want to go home so we left the Station together.

Jack shows me where he lived once. We sit down and talk. When he said he needs to move out I thought that this could be the solution. So I don´t have to live alone and neither does he.

"Maybe we look together" I said

"What? You and me? Like roomates? You sure that´s a good idea? Aren´t you back together with Ryan?"

"You got a better one? And yes I am but it´s too soon to move in together and we are just friends right?"

"We are. Okay. Yeah screw it. Let´s find a place together."

"Not here, though. I need walls. Maybe a roof." I said to mock him a little

"Yeah I am a firefighter so i can´t afford that, okay?" He said smiling