Andy´s POV
The shift was finally over and Jack and I went home. We ordered pizza and I started to tell him everything about my dad. When I finished he told me about Rigo and Dean. I wanted to help him but didn´t know how. He made a mistake and now his world is breaking. His best friends hates him for what he did. The only thing I could do was staying with him and telling him that I don´t hate him for it. After lunch he decided to go for a run. I texted Ryan because I wanted to talk to him about my dad. He usually knows what to do. He came ten minutes after I texted him.
"Hey, thanks for coming" I was really glad he was here.
"Of course, how was the rest of your shift?"
"Well... I know now what my dad wanted to tell me the whole time."
"really? What is it?" he ask and I had the feeling that he was nervous.
"He has cancer and only a few more month to live" I said and I almost started crying again. I looked at him and something was wrong. He didn´t looked surprised or shooked or anything. And then it hit me.
"You knew? Is this why you came back to Seattle in the first place?" He didn´t need to say anything I already knew. I felt deceived. He came back because he knew my father had cancer and he didn´t said anything.
"Why didn´t you told me?"
"You´re dad ask me to"
"What else did he ask you to" I was mad. Everyone I love makes decisions for my live without asking me. I just want to go back to the point where everything was okay. But to be honest I have no idea when this was the case the last time. I think it was before Chief Ripley died. I suddenly felt empty inside. I realized that Ryan was talking and that I missed a part, so I cut him off.
"Sorry can you say that again?" He nodded and started again.
"He came to San Diego and told me that he is sick and dying and that he will not get treatment. He ask me to come back to be there for you when he is gone. He knew that I love you. I think he hoped that we will get back together, so that he don´t have to worry about you when he dies."
"And I just played you in the cards" I was mad but more at myself for not realizing what was going on.
"Can you go please? I need to think about everything"
"Sure take your time but Andy I love you. I didn´t just came back because your dad ask me to. I wanted to be there for you"
I just nodded and closed the door behind him. I had to talk to my dad. I haven´t seen him after I left my bunk. I drove to his apartment and knocked. He opened almost right away and let me in.
"How long do you know about it?" I asked him
"A couple of month"
"So instead of telling me about it you went to San Diego to talk to Ryan and ask him to come back. Who else did you tell?" and again it hit me
"you told Sullivan didn´t you? This is the reason why he didn´t promote me right?"
"You´re right I went to San Diego to talk to Ryan but I only did it because I don´t want you to be alone and he loves you Andrea. I knew he would stay by your side."
"So you planed that we get back together or is this just a nice side effect?"
"Andrea! I love you and I just want what is best for you. I didn´t planed anything."
"But you hoped that it would happen?"
"I will die soon and I will never see you getting married or having a child or becoming captain. It is hard for me to die knowing that I will miss those important parts of your life."
"So you pictured my future and hoped it would be just be like you want it." My heart broke I understand now why he did it but he needs to understand that I chose myself what my future will be like. Who I will marry and when and if I am going to marry and have kids at all or not.
"I get this dad but have you ever thought that I want to live differently?"
"Ryan is good guy Andrea he loves you and knows you and he makes you feel. I am not saying you should marry him right away but I always thought you two would end up together. Why do you fight this so much?"
I wanted to answer this question but I didn´t know how. I have no answer. It just feels not quite right. But on the other side I am not in a good mood at the moment so I shouldn´t make big decisions right now. Instead of answering I ask him the question he still hasn´t answered.
"You told Sullivan not to promote me because you are dying." I saw that he hesitates, he looks like he is fighting an inner battle. "Dad!"
"I told him not to poromote you because your year will get worse. I didn´t told him why. Later when Dixon told him to get me to stay in line I think he figured something out but he just knew for sure after I told you about the cancer"
My thought were racing again. It was just to much for me. "Okay I will go home I´m tired"
"Okay good night mija"
"Good night"
I went home and saw that Jack is cooking despite the fact that I´m really tired I´m also really hungry. So I helped him and we sat down together to eat.
"You´re okay? You look..." He said. I smilled but it wasn´t real.
"Ryan knew about my dad and he didn´t told me. My dad went to San Diego to tell him everything and to ask him to come back to look out for me"
"He didn´t want you to be alone" He tried to calm me down
"I know but he should know that I´m not alone when he dies. I mean even when I´m mad at Maya she is my tribe and you are here and the whole team."
"Sure we´re all here but it isn´t the same as to have someone you love"
"Okay forget about my dad but Ryan knew and he lied to me instead of telling me" I said "I mean sure my dad ask him to but if it where you wouldn´t you tell me?"
"I think he just wanted to protect you"
"Am I overreacting?" I know that I take things way to personal sometimes without notice it.
"I think you have a lot to go through at the moment and it is completly normal that you mad at your dad and Ryan. But you shouldn´t be for too long"
"Thank you! I´m glad we moved in together, you´re a good friend"