Due to work commitments We will always survive will only be updated on Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday from tomorrow on. I apologise for any inconvenience this may cause. Steff x

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Ana

I have barely seen Christian all day. He's been locked up in his study with Taylor all day interviewing new security and for the first time in the ten years we've been married I agree with his decision, especially for my babies. We agreed a long time ago we'd let them have normal childhood's or as normal as they could get being our children but that even means letting them go on play dates and stuff without Christian running stupid background checks and making sure all the equipment in the parks are to the highest of standards, though I secretly think he checks up on all that anyway he just doesn't do anything rash about it anymore. Even when Teddy broke his leg when he was eight after falling off a jungle gym he didn't stop any of it though I knew he wanted to.

Other than men and women coming for the interviews we've had a team of people at the house adding all new security. For the first time we're going to have CCTV inside the house in the hallways, more outside the house and some more even on the gate that's high tech enough to capture the face of the person in the driving seat of a car driving past at speeds of up to one hundred miles per hour. On top of that we're having a security system on the gate that only works with a live finger print and the only people who will be registered on the system are myself and Christian, Gail, Patricia and the main security team.

The kids have been very well behaved today. I guess they can sense something is going on between Gail and me as we're both obviously apprehensive. Teddy did his homework without me having to ask, Phoebe happily did hers after I warned her she wouldn't have TV time if it wasn't done and the twins and I spent a lot of time working on colours, numbers and letters. They're getting so good at recognising letters and slowly understand the sound of each letter phonically and in its normal form. I can hold up the letters of the alphabet in random order and they both tell me which sounds the letter can make and we turn it into a small competition, even at three they're competitive against one another!

Patricia is staying the weekend with us at my behest. Christian said she would be getting her own security personnel but until that's sorted she's staying with us and being paid and even though I don't expect her to work she's been in the kitchen most of the day preparing dinner which will be with Grace and Carrick.

My emotions have been fluctuating all day, and Christian's recommendation to see Doctor Flynn is becoming a more prominent idea, except of course I wouldn't see Flynn, I haven't seen Flynn on a patient/doctor capacity in years seeing a female shrink called Doctor Carlisle every now and again, she was recommended to me by Flynn eight years ago when I just found out I was pregnant with Phoebe and was worried about being able to handle two babies as well as the life Christian and I lived and my self-esteem had been at an all-time low, Christian of course has never known about her and I prefer to keep it that way. (Or to my knowledge he doesn't know but it wouldn't surprise me if he did!)

Christian

Everyone who has been in this room so far today have been more than adequate to join our team however I don't want adequate I want the best and that doesn't just mean what their qualifications are, it also means how they project themselves to suit working for my family and the situation we're currently in.

"Who's next?" I ask Taylor, these interviews are getting tiring and I just want to go and spend some time with my wife and children before it's time to start the bed time routine which always comes around way too fast for my liking.

"Wayne Richards. Former Secret Service with twelve years' experience there, his reference is from… Jeez you're not going to believe this." Taylor passes me the file and I scan through to the page he was referring to, right in front of my eyes is a written recommendation specifically about this job from the former President of the United States.

"The former president wrote to you recommending this guy for this job?" I ask still in a little bit of shock, I have met the former president a few times of course but a personal letter of recommendation directly from him was something I never thought I'd come across.

"Seems like it, let's just hope he's as good as that letter says." Taylor replies, I know what he means though, just because he has a letter from the president it doesn't mean that he will fit into our dynamic but if he does I want him with Ana. I need the best taking care of her just as much as I need the best taking care of my children.

Gail

I watch as Ana runs around the meadow with her youngest daughters. She's an amazing Mother, has been since the first time I saw her holding Teddy in her arms. Of course, there have been bumps along the way, with Ana's low self-confidence she once confided in me that she thought she was doing a better job of screwing her children up than she was bringing them up, I gave her a stern talking to at that time, she's a wonderful Mom and it's all thanks to her that they're getting a near normal childhood.

They're not spoilt children. Not even Teddy and Phoebe who both attend the best private school money can buy. Yes, I will admit they had more than I ever did growing up, and Ana too but their parents are both successful CEO's bringing in more money than someone like me would know what to do with! Ana's insistence on making sure her children were brought up to be grounded has paid off. They have laptop computers and expensive video game stations and so on but I can remember when Teddy was eight and he spilled juice over his Xbox, he cried and cried as it no longer worked and Christian wanted to go straight out and buy a new one but Anastasia won the argument when she explained to him if he just got a new one he wouldn't think about the worth of the Xbox and they'd probably have to buy new ones often as he'd keep breaking them. Teddy earned a new Xbox when he got a perfect report card from school a couple of weeks later and Ana explained carefully that the new console was a gift for doing so well in school, he's had continued great results since.

I know that Amelia and Amaya will be the same as Teddy and Phoebe. When they're old enough to have their electronics they will at some point go through the same lessons and Ana will win in an argument against Christian as she is the only person who can.

Of course things are a little different now. Ana and I have both been taken by complete surprise by this Jack Hyde news and we're both angry that our husbands kept it from us for so long. We both had a right to know about this but as always Jason and Christian made a decision that turned out to bite them on the behind.

I just hope that he isn't out for any revenge. Taylor told me he doesn't know if we're at risk and that no threats have been made but they just want to be better safe than sorry. That I understand, of course I do I mean Jack could have killed both Ana and Mia and we wouldn't be where we are today but I can have hope that he's free now and that he'll leave Seattle and Washington State all together and leave us alone to live our lives.

That of course is all I can hope for right now.

Ana

As I finally manage to round up my babies and bring them towards the house for a drink and snack my cell phone rings catching me off guard. There's a rule in my work that I'm only to be disturbed on weekends if it's life or death otherwise I don't want to hear it but when I whip my cell from my pocket I'm not surprised really to see Mia's name lighting up the caller ID. I slip the Bluetooth in my ear before knocking the answer button, passing the youngsters to Gail.

"Ana Grey." I say as always, even if I do know it's my sister in law.

"Oh my God Ana! Mom and Dad just told me is it true?!" She screeches down the phone causing me to wince, using Bluetooth with Mia is really not a good idea, I note.

"Yeah Mia, its true Christian told me last night." I sigh sadly, I wish I had known there was a chance of this happening sooner but I can't dwell on it really.

"It's been ten years Ana! Does he really think that we're at risk?"

"I don't know Mia, Jack Hyde might not be a risk but Christian is Christian you know?" I reply, I understand her fear, it's the same as mine as we have both got children now, it's not the same as last time in any way, shape or form.

"And Christian is putting security on us all?"

"Yes." I reply. "That includes the kids."

"Ok." She sounds the tiniest bit more relieved now. "That's good."

"He probably won't do anything Mia, just go on as normal for now ok?"

"Ok Ana, I'll see you and thanks."

"No problem Mia, bye." I knock the phone off and shove the Bluetooth device in my pocket before hurrying off to catch up with my family.

When I walk into the kitchen Gail has my four children sat around the small round breakfast table with a glass of apple juice and small bowls of cut up fruit. Everything in our house near enough is a routine. Like today even though it was me who was supposed to be with the children but last night's news had Gail coming to work even though she wasn't needed.

Patricia has made me a cup of tea and placed a couple of her homemade cookies on the plate beside it. I sit down with my children and just watch them eating, drinking and talking like a normal happy family unaware of what their Daddy is doing in the office right now.

Christian

Finally, after hours of interviews we have our new team. It's large and between Sawyer and Taylor there's going to be a lot of work but we're all confident now that we'll be able to stop Jack Hyde of getting within ten feet of any of us which is exactly what I wanted.

I meet my family in the dining room and I see that my parents have arrived, they look at me like they're pissed with me but I know it's them hiding the worry they're feeling, that we're all feeling.

"Daddy, Tisha made beef!" Amaya says as I slip into my seat beside my wife.

"Has Patricia made beef has she?" I ask mocking excitement, I learned that from Ana when Teddy was a toddler, how to pretend to be absolutely fascinated with what unnecessary bullshit our children babble about.

"Yep!" Amelia answers popping her P just like Ana does, damn other than the hair these two are all Ana. "And beef's a cow isn't it Daddy?"

"Yes Amelia, beef is a cow." I reply with a smile.

"Just like lamb is baby sheep." Phoebe decides to announce making Ana groan, it's hard to forget the stage of not eating lamb that Phoebe went through especially as when Ana was pregnant on Phoebe she went through a random stage of craving lamb products and the craving never really went away.

"Daddy is lamb baby sheep?" Amaya asks and I look at the two toddlers in their high chairs wishing my answer could be different when Ana interrupts.

"Lamb is lamb, and it's yummy, you both love lamb stew don't you?" She has a softness in her voice when she talks to our children that has them always listening intently to her when she uses it.

"Yeah lamb stew yummy Mummy." Amelia replies making everyone around the table laugh at her accidental rhyme.

As Patricia serves us the beef roast she's made I get to relax a little and forget for now the stress of the day. I know it's something we're going to be discussing once the kids are in bed thought.

Grace

My grandbabies sure know how to earn a laugh, I can't help but wonder if any of them will attempt to go into stand up one day! However, the relaxed family atmosphere around the table is being slightly spoilt with knowing what the conversation will be once we're free from the kids.

I hate knowing that my family is going through some terrible turmoil right now. Ana is by right still furious with Christian for hiding it from her but apparently, from what she said when we talked briefly outside, she didn't make good on her threat for him to sleep in the guest room last night!

Christian does have a lot of explaining to do, as does my husband who hid it from me! I thought we had no secrets but for the past six weeks he's been hiding this whole thing from me and it's deeply upset me. I can understand to some degree that he agreed with Christian that if they succeeded at the parole hearing then we wouldn't have needed to be told but the thing is they failed and now Jack Hyde is as free as can be.

Jack Hyde has been in my worst nightmares for the past ten years, he put me through so much turmoil as well as the rest of my family. I'll never forget when Mia was missing and then what he did to Ana… she could have lost our beautiful Theodore and even her life because of one callous monster. I shiver just at the thought of the possibilities.