Chapter 46
"What's got you so interested in that site, anyway?" Lauren asked as she took a seat beside Alice.
"I think I could ask you the same. You've got it all. Two parents that love you, an older brother, a promising future... You're the cool girl," Alice replied quietly.
"Yeah, I've got everything, don't I? I have a brother who is so busy living his life that he doesn't even take note of me. A mom who thinks I'm trying to get a boy's attention when I kiss a girl. A dad who is so invested in his job that he thinks giving me cash equates to love. And don't even get me started on school. Jessica thinks I'm cool because when we were both six-years-old she heard me call a black girl a word I'd heard my dad say. I didn't even know what it meant, but she did. She thought thought it made me outspoken and interesting. And since I want to continue being someone, I have to keep on badmouthing people. I have to be that girl, the one that's cool, not because I'm likable, but because I'm so vicious that people won't dare to go against me."
It was the most Alice had ever heard Lauren say. "I don't think June would care if you were popular or not."
"She wouldn't. But I do. I care. And that's the problem."
Before Alice could come up with any form of reply to Lauren's words, Lauren got up and walked off to talk with the others.