Outtake 2-

This is set nine years in the future from the ending in the last chapter (six years after Edward and Leah's wedding). Hope you like it, also if you have any suggestions or moments of theirs you would wish to see as an outtake, please let me know. I will try my best to write it for you. Thank you!

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Edward POV-

From afar anybody could claim that she was just asleep. My Leah lay still like a stone, but I knew better. I always knew better. I could hear and feel the burning pain that was tearing her insides to shreds. I could hear the tiny whimpers that were daring to escape her mouth. I could hear the silent pleas of help and the desire to just end it all instead of bear this torture any longer. They never escaped the confines of her mind, but they were loud enough for me to hear.

She was in pain. She was suffering, and it was my entire fault, no matter how much she claimed that this was what she had wanted. I could not push down the guilt that existed within me…. that stood strangling me….. torturing me with its tight hold over my neck.

It was my fault. It was entirely my fault.

My strong, beautiful wife was determined to minimize this feeling of guilt for me. She knew me too well, sometimes even better than I knew myself. She knew that while her pain would be mostly physical, my enemy on the other hand, was inside my mind. She knew that these three never ending days would be a battle for me as much as her. My thoughts were my enemy. My guilt was my enemy. My morals were my enemy. I could not and would not be able to bear anything more than that. She knew that I would break apart if I heard her shouts and screams as she screamed for death. I did not blame her, anything was better than being changed into one of us. Some of our kind believed that it was at par at being burnt alive for a human or even slightly more painful than that. Why had Leah agreed to this I had no idea. All I knew was that whenever I asked her, she would laugh and say that she was a fool in love. I too was a fool in love. I only wanted to keep her safe. I only wanted to keep her away from any sort of pain…..

So, like I had been saying, my beautiful, stronger that I could ever imagine, wife lay still on the king's bed in our room. She did not shout. She did not scream, never aloud. She was determined to do this for me. Of course, her thoughts still told me the real story, but there was nothing she could do about it. I knew that if she could she would have. She loved me enough to do it for me.

What had I done to deserve her? She was perfect, and by some miracle, she was mine….. my wife.

Leah and I had been married for six years now. I still clearly remembered the moment when the world had paused for a few seconds for me. She had walked down the aisle and had stood in front of me, looking more beautiful and perfect than ever. She had blushed, a rarity for her, and had in her mind told me to stop gawking at her. As if that was possible! I could not take my eyes off her. My vampire memory had registered what had happened around us and had intimated me when it was time to say 'I do', but other than that all my attention had been at the beautiful, blushing bride in front of me. How could it not? She was just perfect.

I took my head in my hands, bringing myself back to the present. This guilt was going to kill me.

What had I done?

Leah would never be able to blush again. She would never be able to eat and hog on the fast food she often indulged in. She would not be able to sleep in my arms ever again. She would not be able to open her eyes and see me first thing in the morning, ever again. Her huge smile when she would sleepily look at me and kiss me, despite of her morning breath, was enough to make my day. I don't know why she was so surprised to wake up and find me next to her each morning in the exact same position that I had been in when she had fallen asleep. Where else would I be if not beside her?

I would then cook breakfast for her, while she took her shower. I had learnt cooking by now. Though my Leah could cook and decently at that, she just never had the time to do it. She was always exhausted by the time the day ended. Her work kept her busy, something I was extremely proud of. She would laugh and joke that I was her househusband. I did not mind it a bit. I had never imagined experiencing something like this in life, and honestly I was actually enjoying this new experience. I liked it when Leah came home to a clean house and cooked food. She did not need to work to earn money. I had enough of that in my own name, but just the routine and pleasure that Leah derived from keeping on with her job, was enough to convince me that I would do whatever made her happy. If by cooking for her she could grab a small little while of more sleep, I would easily do it for her.

We lived separately now, close to the family, but still a few houses apart in Ithaca. Rose and Emmett were once again back in high school, while Alice and Jasper were trying their hand at college this time. Esme, who like me chose to stay at home, would be my companion for most of the day. Though Leah and I did not meet the rest of the family as much as before, we made it a point to go over to the main house and spend the day there on the weekends with the family. Rose and Leah would talk within themselves, with Alice trying to convince them of going shopping with her. Esme would cook all kind of exotic cuisines for Leah. Carlisle would play chess with me. Emmett and Jasper would be playing video games or just goofing around…..

We had a good life, and now everything was about to change.

And it was entirely my fault.

What had I done?

How could I do this to Leah? How could I take her life from her?

"It is not your fault." Jasper's voice came from beside me "She wanted this. She does not blame you."

"She did not know any better!" I gritted my teeth in anger. She could never have even imagined that it would pain this much.

"Bullshit!" he said in reply, exhausted, probably by the guilt and sadness I had been throwing at him. "She knew what she was getting into. She had spoken to Carlisle over this for days. She was well prepared for it. She has not been changed accidently. She was ready for this."

A big part of me knew that what he was saying was absolutely correct. Leah who had become quite a planner in the years passed by, had studied and thought about everything that was about to happen. She had held long discussions with Carlisle over how this would affect her career. About if there was any medication to reduce the pain that she would feel. She had shopped for excess clothes before time, knowing that with her newly found strength most of her clothes would not last very long. She had even got herself waxed in her private parts in preparation for this, as once she would be changed she would never be able to grow hair again and so it would stay the same like she had it at the time of her change. She knew exactly what she was getting into.

I sighed, the memories of the conversation that had finalized this decision for us fresh in my mind. The judgment was in her favor from the very beginning, and she was aware of it.

"What now, Edward?" she had said tiredly "What more arguments do you have to present on why I, Leah Cullen, should stay human?"

I had kept quiet. I had nothing more to say in the favor of my argument in this debate of ours that happened very frequently. I had run out of points to offer, long back.

"You wanted me to go to college," she had started, looking directly into my eyes. She knew that looking at the ground could be taken as a weakness or a sign of being unsure, and she was neither. "I went to college. I graduated. I am a lawyer, for Christ's sake." she argued.

She was an exceptional lawyer. Nobody could ever doubt that.

"You wanted me to experience the common experiences of a student- I did all of that. I partied and equally studied like crazy in college."

I had shuddered at the memory of her partying. Yeah indeed she had partied like I crazy person. I remembered the several nights when I had spent pacing outside the bars she had been in with her friends. I clearly remembered holding her hair when she had puked after drinking too much alcohol and I also remembered her promising me every next morning that she was quitting, only ending up breaking that promise. So no doubt in that- she had lived her college life quite well.

"I made good friends. I still talk to them. I am close to whatever remaining family I have and they already know the truth, so you clearly can't use leaving my family as an excuse." She had said folding her arms with a smirk on her face. She so knew she was winning it.

"But," I had tried desperately. She would be losing her humanity…. her soul "You won't even remember properly the first year or two after your change. Your life will only revolve around blood. You won't remember anything that you are so passionate about. You can even lose your memories during the change. Alice lost hers." I pleaded to her to understand.

She had shrugged in reply "If I am living for two hundred years or two thousand years or whatever, what difference will two years make. Once I get my bloodlust under control I can go back to work, and didn't Carlisle say that if a person is reminded of their human life while they are changing, there is a possibility that they will remember most of their human memories after the change. I am hopeful that I will not forget who I was or what I was."

"But there are so many other human experiences left." I had given it my last try. I was clutching at straws now. I loved her so much. I could not let her resent me. I could not take her life away from her.

"Like what? Marriage- already did that. Kids- don't want any. Sex?" she had raised her eyebrow in question, her expression one of amusement. "Mr. Cullen, if you have forgotten, I already have a very active sex life with my sex on legs husband, and on the contrary, shouldn't this husband of mine be dancing up and down in joy at this decision of mine? You won't have to be careful with me any longer and no condoms needed." She seductively whispered the last part with a wink at me.

If I would have been human I would have been blushing, but for now I settled with pulling her close to me and wrapping my arms around her.

"You know how to get what you want from me, don't you?" I had smirked at her.

"I try," she said with a sigh, making me smile, getting her lips close to mine.

Leah loved sex, something I was very….very….very thankful for. She had in no simple words declared to me before our marriage that she was not going to be remaining without sex for the rest of her life. She had given me two options to choose from. First, I could remove my head out of my ass and talk to someone who knew better on the topic of how a human and a vampire were supposed to have sex, or the second option was that she would seduce me into having sex with her and then would not be held responsible for the consequences of our actions.

Now no matter how tempting the latter option sounded to me, spontaneity was really not on the cards for us, yet, and so I had removed my head out of my ass, Leah's words not mine, and had gone to meet Carlisle and Jasper- Carlisle, because obviously he was a doctor and I also trusted him most, and Jasper because he had had sex with a few human women during his time in Maria's army. He would know what to do. Their advice to me was simple- Be careful, as in don't use your entire strength, and second- use condoms. Jasper had heard of a human woman getting pregnant from a vampire during his southern vampire war days. He did not know if it was truth or not, but either way it was better to be safe than sorry.

"Edward," Leah leaned her head over my shoulder "Do you not want me forever?"

I lightly raised her chin up, making her look into my eyes. I knew that Leah still had to face her insecurities at times.

"How can you even say that?" I had asked "You know how much I love you?"

She had nodded her head "Then why don't you want me to become like you?"

I had sighed "Leah, we can't go out in the sunlight. We can't live normal lives. You will hate me for this. I wish I had not been so selfish. I wish I had not taken you away from your human life…."

"Shh," she said covered my mouth with her hand "Don't." "I would still be ruining my life over the breakup with Sam if you had not made me fall in love with you. I don't regret it and won't ever regret it." she had stated firmly "I know that you feel that I will resent you, but I promise you that I am prepared for this. I am not a naïve seventeen year old, Edward. I know what I am talking about. I am sure of this. Please." She had pleaded to me; tears brim her eyes "Let me be yours for the rest of your life."

"You already are." I had said "I will never love anybody else except you."

"Good." she had said "Now, I was thinking that the third of next month will be ideal for my change."

And that had been it. I had nothing more to state in opposition of this decision. Leah was going to be changed, and I could do nothing more than smile and accept it. Though of course I was happy that she would be with me forever, but the route to this forever was not the most comfortable one in my eyes. I had also worried that Leah would want to have kids someday in her life, but she had made me understand that not every woman wanted to experience motherhood in life. Yes the majority or a noticeable part of the female population did want to be a parent, but not everyone. She had fallen in the minority she had claimed. She was not against it, but she was also not incomplete without having children in her life.

I had nodded my head, a little confused by her choice of date "Why 3rd?"

She had just shrugged "No reason. That was just the first date that popped into my mind."

I had managed a small smile at that "Okay fine. Let's do this. But promise me that you will not hate me for this. I can bear anything but that."

She had softly kissed me on my lips "I promise."

The next few days had passed by in a blur and before we knew it the day of her change had arrived. I was going to be changing her (She had specifically wanted me to) and Carlisle would be there to monitor over me to make sure that everything went well.

"Brother, are you okay?" Jasper asked, bringing me back to the present.

I managed to give him a nod.

"She does not blame you. Your guilt is of no use. She is happy to do this to be with you. I could feel it in her emotions. There was only happiness and love radiating from her before you bit her."

"I know," I whispered.

We sat side by side for a few minutes or hours, I could not be sure. Esme and Rose were currently talking to Leah, talking to her about her past and her life with me. Carlisle had repeated the same thing to me that Jasper had. He had managed to calm most of my worries, laughing and saying that once Leah would wake up the rest would disappear too. Either way I was feeling much lighter now than before.

'Edward, did you hear that?' Esme spoke to me through her mind.

I concentrated on what she was talking about and took a deep breath at the realization. Leah's heart was thumping loudly. The end was near. She was about to wake up.

Without wasting another moment I ran to her bedside. The rest of my family left our room and chose to wait for us in the living room instead. It would do us no good to scare a newborn.

I took Leah's now same temperature as mine hand in mine and enclosed it tightly. I kept repeating it to her that I loved her.

Her heart took a few more loud beats before stopping with one final beat.

It was over. She was now a vampire. She was now like me.

"Leah?" I said softly, coaxing her to open her eyes.

I waited in anticipation for a minute or two….and then her eyes opened.