"Yu hodnes em, yu hodnes em, Clarke ste in hodnes kom Bellamy! (You love him, you love him, Clarke is in love with Bellamy!)"
"Miss Madi Lexa Griffin, if you don't stop that right now..."
Clarke let the threat hang in the air as she stirred the sauce that was simmering on the stove.
"Yu hodnes em! En em ste in hodnes kom yu! (You love him and he is in love with you!)"
"Madi! I do not love Bellamy. And Bellamy certainly does not love me!"
Madi stopped dancing around the table as she sang her little song and instead came to stand at Clarke's side with a grin on her face.
"If you don't love him then why is he coming to dinner?"
"Because he is a friend. And Raven asked if she could bring him."
"Sha (Yeah), sure..." Madi smirking gleefully, ducking as Clarke swiped at her with her spoon.
"I though you wanted to change before they got here?" Clarke sighed and Madi skipped out of the room, waiting till she was a safe distance away before she started singing again
"Yu hodnes em, yu hodnes em, Clarke ste in hodnes kom Bellamy! (You love him, you love him, Clarke is in love with Bellamy!)"
"Who's Gina?"
Aww shit.
It had been going so well.
Bellamy and Raven had arrived, bringing with them a bottle of wine and a chocolate cake for desert, which apparently Murphy had made under protest.
"Murphy made this? Are you sure it's not poisoned?" Clarke said to which Raven laughed and Bellamy smiled.
They had sat down to dinner, after Madi's fashion show.
Raven and Bellamy showered her with praise for her creation, a black dungaree short set over a red and white polka dot t-shirt with black and red stripey tights under sparkly sneakers.
Clarke served dinner (Spaghetti, with Griffin Special Sauce, parsley and Parmesan cheese), Bellamy poured the adults a glass of wine each and Madi a lemonade and blackcurrant in a wine glass so she didn't feel left out and they began to eat.
Raven did most of the talking, half complaining and half talking about Sinclair and Wick and the garage and Wick and Roan and Wick. Bellamy filled in with a few stories from work and class. Clarke told a couple anecdotes about Madi's antics.
It had been going so well.
And then...
"Who's Gina?"
A deathly silence fell over the table as Madi looked around expectantly.
"She was in a picture at your house. Octavia told her name but I don't remember her from stories. Who is she?"
"She was my girlfriend." Bellamy said gruffly, clearing his throat. Raven was looking between the other three anxiously and Clarke was staring at her plate, not knowing how to undo the damage that had already been done. It wasn't Madi's fault, but innocent curiosity was burying Clarke in an early grave.
"Did you break up?"
"No Madi. She uh, she died, few years ago."
"I'm sorry Bellamy. She'll be in the Flame now. Like ai other nomon en grandnontu (Like my other mom and grandfather)"
"Madi. That's enough. Go kom your room beja."
Clarke had found her voice again and barked out the words, wilting inside slightly at the look of hurt on Madi's face as she slowly got down from the table.
Raven didn't need to speak Trig to understand that Clarke had asked Madi to go to her room, and she got up too.
"Why don't you show me your room Madi? C'mon let's go."
Raven took Madi's hand and the two walked upstairs.
Leaving Clarke and Bellamy alone.
"Didn't need to jump down her throat like that. It's not Madi's fault." Bellamy said before letting out a dark chuckle "You told her the stories, but I guess not all of them right?"
"She knows what happened, to an extent anyway. Just not everyone who was involved. She knows about Fox, John M, Maya... my dad." Clarke said with a slight crack in her voice.
"But not Gina? Not Jasper?" Bellamy sounded less sad now.
Now he sounded angry.
"You can't just pick and choose who and what you remember Clarke!"
"I don't!" Clarke was on her feet now, her arms wrapped around herself "I think about them every day Bellamy. Everyone we lost in Mount Weather, I remember them all. I remember everything. But..."
"But what?" Now Bellamy was on his feet too "But Gina? Jasper? What they weren't important enough to tell Madi about? Tell me something Clarke, did you tell her how you ran out on me- all of us? How you abandoned us after the worst day of our lives? Or was that just as insignificant as Gina and Jasper?"
"They weren't insignificant! I just..."
"JUST WHAT?"
"I couldn't tell her because it hurt too much!"
Tears that had been shining in Clarke's eyes had now spilled over.
"Talking about Jasper just reminded me that it was my fault he died. I couldn't save Maya and he just... he walked into that fire and..." Clarke bit her lip as fresh tears fell "And talking about Gina... it reminded me of you. It reminded me that I couldn't save her and then I left you!"
Silence.
Silence.
Silence.
Silence.
"All of you." Clarke said in a broken whisper.
More silence.
And then...
"Clarke?"
Raven had reappeared.
"Madi's asking for you. She's... she's real upset. Bellamy I think we should go."
"Yeah... yeah we should... I should..."
And with that Bellamy left the room.
"Call me later okay?" Raven said, giving Clarke a quick hug before following Bellamy out of the apartment.
"Madi? Ste em okay taim ai come in? (Is it okay if I come in?)"
"Sha."
When Clarke entered Madi's bedroom she found the little girl, curled up in a blanket fort that she must have constructed with Raven, because it hadn't been there earlier.
"Permission to enter Fort Madi?"
"Sha."
Clarke crawled into the blanket fort and sat beside Madi. Madi's young eyes were puffy and red and she sniffed a little.
"Clarke, I'm sorry I made you and Bellamy fight. I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm-"
"Madi it's not your fault! It's all my fault, I..."
Clarke hesitated then ploughed on.
"Do you remember the Mount Weather story?"
"The bomb?"
"Yeah."
"Sha, I remember."
"Well... I didn't tell you everything. Do you want to hear the whole thing? Then you'll know why Bellamy was upset."
"Okay Nomon."
"Okay. I'm going to tell you a story."
Ta da!
The angst is real with Bellamy and Clarke! More will be revealed when Clarke tells Madi her story.
Hope this was okay!
Let me know what you think I love to hear from you!
More soon.
Geronimo xx