Tell Me How To Fix You

By: The Duchess of Arendelle

Chapter 36

AN: Hi! Okay so real important and real long AN at the end for anyone wondering about the future direction of this story or you know, was just wondering about some aspects. So check it out. Anyway. I hope you enjoy this chapter! A lot of angst. So be prepared. I apologize for any and all mistakes. See you at the other AN!

"Just leave Anna! It's obvious you don't want to be with me anymore!" Elsa screamed as she paced around the kitchen. Anna followed behind the blonde like a lost puppy.

"Elsa, that's not true! You know that's not true!" she yelled back, desperate to get the girl to understand that she did still love her and she did still want to be with her.

"How could I have been so stupid as to think anyone would care about me?" Elsa sobbed, bringing a hand to cover her face.

"Elsa please, just listen to me!" Anna begged.

Well… this wasn't going as bad as she thought it would. It was worst, much worst. Anna had tried to break it to Elsa gently from the beginning, but the blonde just refused to listen, her fears and insecurities controlling her emotions. Blocking out what Anna was trying to tell her.

*Earlier*

"We need to talk…"

Elsa's heart began to plummet. She swallowed hard and forced herself to speak.

"About… about what?" she asked hesitantly. Anna's eyes gravitated towards the floor as she spoke in a choked whisper. "Us." She responded. Elsa gasped quietly. Her heart began to clench tightly in her chest and her breathing began to become labored. She cleared the lump that formed in her throat. "Wh- what about us?"

Anna still refused to look at her, and that's what scared Elsa the most. She had a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach what this whole thing might be about. She didn't want to even entertain that thought. But as the silence stretched on, it became more and more plausible that what she was thinking, might be what's happening. Anna wanted to break up with her. After an eternity of silence, Anna finally responded.

"I think… I think… that maybe w-we should… take a break. From dating." The redhead whispered, finally looking up to lock eyes with the blonde. And there it was. The bomb being dropped. The other shoe Elsa had been waiting for to fall since the beginning or their relationship, their friendship, the moment she locked eyes with the redhead from across her apartment all those months ago. Here it was. It was happening, just like she knew it would. So why was she so shocked? So hurt? So… scared? Elsa swallowed hard as tears began to well in her eyes.

"Wh- I- what?" was the only thing she could say before the realization of the situation took over and her anxiety started to kick in. She began to deeply breathe in and out. Anna's eyes widened as she realized what was happening. Elsa was having a panic attack. And it was her fault. She had to hurry and explain to Elsa what she meant. She gently grabbed Elsa by her shoulders.

"Elsa, please calm down. I-" she was cut off when Elsa quickly snatched away from her, as if Anna's hands were made of fire and scorched her skin. With her back turned to the redhead, she whispered in a broken voice.

"You're breaking up with me." It wasn't a question. It was a fact that Elsa had already accepted, even before Anna could explain, before she could make up excuses, pretty lies to cover up the fact that she was dumping her because she was tired of her. Tired of taking care of her, of constantly having to worry about her. God was she pathetic. Anna gasped loudly and tried to hold Elsa again. The blonde was having none of that, so she walked further away from her used- to- be girlfriend.

"Elsa, listen to me. I'm not breaking up with you. I just think we should take a break from dating. For you, for us." Anna tried to explain. Elsa shook her head and quietly scoffed. "For us? How is breaking my heart for going to help us?" she asked, back still turned to Anna. Tears began to fall from Anna's eyes at Elsa's words. Oh God. This is what she didn't want to happen. She didn't want Elsa to get the wrong idea. She never wanted to hurt Elsa. And she never wanted the girl's heart to break.

"It's not like that Elsa! Please believe me, it's not! Don't you remember what I promised you? I promised I would do everything I could to help you get better. And I can't do that if we're dating. I don't have the courage to put my foot down if I'm talking to you as my girlfriend and not just my friend." She tried to explain, but it was too late. Elsa already had it in her mind that Anna was breaking up with her because she was tired of her and all the trouble she caused. Everything Anna said now was just to spare her feelings. Anna no longer cared for her, loved her. She had most likely found someone new. Probably Hans. And now that she thought about it, it made perfect sense. She worked with the boy. She talked to him on the phone a lot. Anna even told her that she had agreed to accompany him to a business party, but she had refused to elaborate further than that.

More tears streamed down Elsa's face at the thought. Out of all the people to leave her for, she had to choose Hans. The biggest asshole she had ever had the misfortune of meeting. It was too much. The thought of Anna breaking up with her, leaving her for Hans. Never seeing the redhead's smiling face, or waking up next to her in the morning. Never having Anna's lips pressing gently against hers again. It was all too much to bare, and said girl still being here, standing not two feet away from her was not helping. Elsa let out a heart breaking sigh and spoke quietly.

"Anna, please leave…"

*Now*

"Elsa please just listen to me!" Anna begged the blonde. She had been desperately trying to explain herself to the blonde going on 45 minutes now to no avail. Elsa simply would not listen. Anna sighed and wiped at the tears still falling down her face. "I'm not with Hans. I'm not with Kristoff. I haven't been with anyone except you. I want to be with you Elsa. I want us to be together, I want you as my girlfriend. You don't know how bad I want you and only you. But I can't have you until I get you the help that you need."

"I'm not listening to this. I can't do this right now, I need to clean something…" Elsa said, wrapping her arms around herself and looking around for something to scrub. "This is what I'm talking about Elsa! At the first sign of stress you run to your cleaning closet and clean till your hands are raw and bleeding! You need help, and I'm going to get it for you. I'm going to make sure you get better. Because I love you Elsa. I love you and I care about you. Wrether we're dating or not, I'll always love and care about you. Always." Anna finally snapped as she stopped the girl in her tracks and forced her arms around the blonde's small waist.

"I love you so much." Anna whispered into the crock of Elsa's neck as she held the weeping girl tight. Elsa struggled for a moment but quickly gave up and sunk into the redhead's warm embrace. She sobbed into the redhead's shoulder and wished she were someone else. Someone worthy of Anna's love.

The two stood there, holding each other in the middle of Elsa's kitchen for a long time. Anna continued whispering reassurances in Elsa's ear as she rubbed small circles on her back until her breath finally evened back out. After a while, the tears stopped. Anna silently walked the two of them over to Elsa's living room and they took a seat on the couch. Their hands still interlocked, Elsa squeezed Anna's tightly as she noticed the redhead struggling with getting something out. With a deep sigh, Anna cleared her throat and stared Elsa directly in the eyes.

"Elsa, you are pretty much the most important thing in my life right now. You know I love you and I know you love me. But this…" she trailed off, lightly grabbing Elsa's wrist with one hand and using the other to roll up the blonde's sleeve, revealing the bandages that covered her forearm. "This is not okay. I know this isn't from a rash, I knew that even before Rapunzel told me what she saw. But when I confronted you about it… you lied to me…" Elsa hung her head and looked away from Anna's dejected blue eyes. A hand delicately caressing the side of the blonde's face brought her gaze back up. Anna's eyes were shinning with more tears that she refused to let fall.

"…but what killed me the most wasn't the fact that you lied to me… it was the fact that I was so willing to accept anything you said with hardly any protest. Because I was scared. Scared of being too pushy. Scared that you would get annoyed with me… that you would dump me because I was being too clingy. You're not the only one who is insecure in this relationship Elsa. I am too. And it made me realize. Rapunzel was right. Yeah I didn't want to accept what she was saying at first, in fact I was ready to clock her one, but she was right. We do need to take a break from dating. We both have problems with ourselves we need to work out. We both need time to find figure out who we really are. And I think we can do that, together. Just not… you know… together together." Anna told the blonde with a half-smile. Elsa let out a chocked laugh.

After a pregnant pause, the blonde sighed. "…You're right Anna…" she began, holding the redhead's hands tighter as she spoke. "I… I think it might be a… good idea to take a break. I want to get better, to be better for you. I want to become someone who deserves your love." Elsa finished with a self-deprecating smile. Anna shook her head and frowned slightly. "Elsa. You already are someone who deserves my love, and so much more. I want you to get better too, but not for me, for yourself." The redhead finished, placing a chaste kiss on the blonde's pink cheek. Elsa blushed harder but smiled a bit. After another short pause, Anna spoke up again.

"So. Where do we go from here?" she asked the blonde. For the first time, Anna sounded so unsure to Elsa. It frightened the blonde a bit. She took a moment to think about what the redhead had asked her. Where did they go from here? Staring the younger woman in the eye she gave a shy smile and a shrug.

"How about the beginning? We barely know anything about each other, beyond our shared love of all things chocolate…" Elsa trailed off shly. A bright smile lit up Anna's face and she nodded vigorously.

"Okay! That sounds like a wonderful idea. But… before we do that… can I do one last thing?" Anna asked the blonde. Elsa nodded confused and Anna moved in closer. Slowly, she moved forward and brought her lips to Elsa's. It was a simple kiss, just lips moving against lips, but to Anna, it was the best feeling in the world. The redhead was seriously reconsidering calling off the break, especially when Elsa lightly nipped at her bottom lip and she couldn't help but let out a quiet moan.

After breathing became a pesky issue they could no longer avoid, they pulled apart, eyes still close and lips slightly parted. Slowly, two sets of different shaded blue eyes opened to stare into each other. Pulling back slightly, Anna smiled and held out her hand.

"Hi, I'm Anna Summers. I'm a 21 year old journalist who recently moved here from Arendelle. I have some trust issues and I can be a tad bit insecure, but I'm working on that. And you are?" The redhead had a twinkle in her eye as she asked the blonde sitting beside her. Elsa smiled back and took her hand.

"I'm… Elsa Frost. I'm 23 years old and… I'm the CEO of my late father's company. I have… OCD and anxiety issues… and I'm ready to start working on them." She shook Anna's hand and the two sat on the white couch, smiling at each other.

"Nice to meet you Elsa."

"Likewise… Anna was it?" Elsa joked much to Anna's delighted surprise. The redhead gasped in faux offense and took a chair pillow from behind her, whacking Elsa with it. The blonde laughed, grabbing one for herself, and went on the defense, blocking Anna's blows and returning some of her own.

Fifteen minutes later, two exhausted women lay next to each other on the couch. The events of the day were finally catching up to them. Looking down, Anna felt Elsa curl up into her side and instantly fall asleep. She stared down at the gorgeous blonde and swallowed hard as her eyes traveled down to soft pink lips. The memory of their last kiss came flooding back and she closed her eyes tight, trying to block out the feelings that were coming with said memory. As Elsa turned over in her sleep and wrapped an arm around Anna, the redhead sigh exhaustedly.

This was going to be a lot harder than she thought.

AN: So good question an ANON reviewer asked and I'm glad they did because I was going to bring it up in my AN this chapter. "…I have a concern about rapunzel being in the center of it all. I understand that Elsa needs friends but it's strange that it took a while for her to be okay with anna in her space but accepted punzie so quickly. I understand they spoke on skype but that isn't the same. Also all your recent chapters seem to have the cousin hanging around all the time which makes any kind of Elsanna relationship impossible. I hope you aren't planning on having rapunzel around when anna talks to Elsa about putting their dating on hold."

Thanks for your questionnnnn.

Ok. So…

Rapunzel has been around a lot lately, and though she is friends with both Anna and Elsa, and she promised she would help them through this, I feel like this is a thing Anna and Elsa have to deal with mostly on their own. I mean, Rapunzel can be there for occasional back up/support, but it's mostly going to be left up to Anna and Elsa. Another thing ANON asked was, why was Elsa so quick to warm up to Rapunzel, even though they only skyped and such and it took Anna much longer. The answer is that Elsa has not warmed up to Rapunzel as much she has to Anna. If you go back and read the earlier chapters, you'll see how Elsa never touches Rapunzel like she does with Anna, and kind of freaks a little when Rapunzel tries to hug her, and how most of their conversations has Anna there with them as a kind of barrier. I mean yes she does feel a little comfortable around Rapunzel, more than she has anyone else besides Anna, but it's not like she's huggy touchy feely with her. Plus, the reason why I had Flynn and Rapunzel meet was because I was planning on weaning Rapunzel out of the Anna/Elsa relationship and into her own. I mean really, no one likes being a constant third wheel. And remember, storyline wise tomorrow is Thursday and Rapunzel has her 'not a date' with Flynn, and Anna still has her engagement with Hans.

Which, yes I didn't show it, but I hinted at Elsa accusing Anna of like liking Hans or Kristoff during their big argument.

I hope that cleared things up for anyone else out there who was wondering. Questions, comments, or criticisms? Drop me a line via Inbox, review, ir tumblr and I'll get back to you as soon as I'm able.

I just realized 10 days ago was this story's 1 year anniversary. It seriously doesn't seem like it was that long ago. WOW. Thanks to everyone who stuck around, and to the new people that joined us! :)

See you soon!