WARNING: TRIGGER: SUICIDAL IDEATIONS
I let out a whimper of pain trying to adjust laying in my room. How did I get here? The last thing I remembered was Kacchan and Toga disguised as Dabi. My whole body ached. My eyes started to water as I relived the night in my head. I had thought it was all a dying hallucination but it wasn't. She was hurting me. It made me want to die. I wanted to forget. I wished that she had killed me so I didn't have to remember.
My sight was starting to come back and I noticed all of the bandages on my body. Kacchan was asleep on the bed next to me. I glanced over thinking I heard someone and saw Sho asleep on the floor. He looked so sweet.
I checked my phone and had quite a few text messages from my mom. Above all of those, there was a message sent out that I didn't send. It read: Mrs. Midoriya I thought you would want to know that izuku got hurt on our little camping trip. I feel horrible that we let him go walking on his own but he's resting now. Katsuki is keeping a close eye on him to make sure that nothing else happens I will make sure he calls you when he wakes up but try not to ask what happened it's not something he will want to talk about to anyone for a while.he is safe now I can promise you that. I take full responsibility for this.
- Shoto Todoroki
He sent a paragraph to my mom and didn't reply to anything she sent which was mostly things like did he have to go to the hospital? Where were the adults? And are you sure he's okay? There were at least ten messages like that from my mom.
I coughed and whimpered at the pain. Kacchan's eyes shot open. "Deku!" He jumped up and ran over to me. It almost looked like he had tears in his eyes. He did... he was crying? His hand gently touched my cheek.
"I'm sorry about last night Kacchan... you can hate me if you want..." my eyes started to water again thinking about how I had probably ruined his life. I truly believed he should have left me for dead.
"Okay moron what the hell are you talking about?" He raised his voice seeming aggravated as he wiped the tears away with his thumb.
"The game of truth or dare..." I said softly.
"Oh that. I don't fucking care honestly. I told them I was really horny and that I'm bisexual. I'm not exactly happy about you telling them but I couldn't care less in the long run. You were wasted." He shrugged "I was still super drunk at the time or I might have been able to steer them away from that question. you were gone for so long though when you went for your walk. I decided to come to look for you. You don't really drink so I was worried. Why the hell was Dabi there?" His face looked angrier as he finished his last sentence. It was as if someone took something that was his and defiled or destroyed it.
"That was Toga... I found out her quirk... I don't know how she found us but... I was scared. She can use the quirks of others after she drinks their blood. She can fully transform into them.."
"So you had sex with her as Dabi? Without my permission? We had an agreement Izuku. You didn't really look like you wanted any of that though." He growled. I sincerely doubted he believed it was consensual considering I was crying and asking for him to help me. Maybe I had been too quiet? Maybe he didn't hear me crying last night. If I could ever get over this then I would have to ask him.
I shook my head answering his question despite the pain I was in and started to cry again.
"That's what I thought." He sighed climbing into the bed beside me. His lips gently pressed against my forehead. "I won't let anyone hurt you again. I'm sorry I wasn't there. I will fucking kill her. No one touches what's mine." I felt his arms wrap around me pulling me close to him. His heartbeat was loud in my ears or was that my own? He had said I was his. My heart fluttered in my chest like an overexcited butterfly but my mind started to wander to the night before. I remember the pain I felt. My body felt disgusting. I wanted to bathe in bleach to get the feeling of her off.
All I could do was hold onto him and cry. I hurt so much and was surprised they hadn't taken me to the hospital.
I heard the door to our room unzip.
"Hey, Midoriya is awake!" Denki said seeming excited.
"Shut the hell up and get the fuck out Derp Ass. I don't even like IcyHot being in here but he's asleep so fuck off." Kacchan hissed.
"You didn't make this or buy it. Momo did so I can be in here." Denki stuck his tongue out at him.
Kirishima walked up behind him. "Kaminari leave them be. They've had a really rough night so far but Midoriya we need to take you to the hospital soon." I sighed and nodded. I wondered if they knew now or they just thought that he was being kind to me because of what happened. Either way made sense to me.
"I don't want him walking I'll carry him to the car. Hey Half and Half. Wake the hell up and take this phone. Call his mom." Bakugo grabbed my phone and chucked it at him. I was just glad my phone didn't break. Poor Shoto had woken up to the phone hitting him in the chest. He looked irritated as he winced in pain but forced a smile seeing I was awake. Kacchan repeated himself getting a simple nod in reply.
He picked me up bridal style in his arms. I could hear his heartbeat as I laid my head on his chest. I just wanted to be close to him.
This weekend had been a bust. We were only on the second day and not even fully. It was still dark outside so I hoped that no one was still intoxicated. I needed to cry I wanted to die and honestly if it weren't for Kacchan I would probably have tried if I would have survived last night without him.
It took about 30 minutes to get the hospital. I cried out every time we went over a bump which happened often. Kacchan had his arm around me the whole ride there and refused to leave my side for any means. I wasn't awake the entire time but when I was I was in extreme pain.
The doctors were angry by the fact we hadn't come in sooner with how much blood I had lost. They scolded Kirishima and Bakugo for not bringing me in as soon as I was found telling them that my wounds were probably going to be infected. They questioned Kacchan about what he remembered from the event and he told them but only out of the room. They wanted every detail he knew and the same from me but I was still too much in shock for that. He refused to speak about it in front of me because I would start crying which hurt me more. There was no one on staff with a healing quirk like recovery girl so they were pumping me full of pain meds because of how deep my gashes were. They even had to sew a few of them shut to keep from making things worse. Recovery girl had been called but there was no telling if she would actually be able to come seeing as she was a very busy lady.
I didn't know how long it would take to recover. Mentally I knew it would be a while. Every time I closed my eyes I saw that horrifying grin. I was just glad she didn't hurt me with Kacchan's face. I wouldn't be able to look at him if she did. Every time I even thought of Dabi I retched. I almost always had a vomit bag next to me. Just not existing sounded great at this point. I had ruined the weekend for everyone though I knew they would never admit it. Momo kept telling me it wasn't my fault that all I had done was go for a walk. Sho kept eyeballing everyone who walked in the room as if someone was going to upset me. It looked like he was more aggressive than Kacchan at this point. Katsuki, on the other hand, was trying not to be his normally aggressive self. Just trying to be more comforting. It didn't really make me feel much better because it reminded me of everything that had gone wrong. I just didn't want to be here.
I was in and out for about three hours every time I awoke screaming in terror. My mom showed up soon after the last time I had woke up. She stared at me crying for a few minutes before speaking.
"My baby..." was all she could muster before hugging me trying not to hurt me.
"Mom I'm alright..." I lied trying not to let her see how much pain I was in.
"Izuku honey. You're in the hospital again. You are not okay!" She softly touched my cheek her eyes starting to water.
"Thank you both for making sure he didn't die... I don't know what I would have done if I had lost him." She tears starting to stream down her cheeks only briefly looking up at Sho and Kacchan but not meeting their eyes.
"A lot of things happened mom but seeing how I escaped with a few cuts and bruises I'll be okay..." I forced a smile not wanting to worry her more.
"Cuts more like gashes..." kacchan muttered. I glared at him grinding my teeth and he actually looked shocked that I would look like at him the wayI did. It was very called for because knowing my mom she wasn't too keen on letting me do anything as is and this just happened to be the icing on the cake.
"Things will be okay mom. It's more mental than physical. I'll get over it eventually.." I sighed trying not to think about the night before.
I was sure she would try to figure out a way to blame this on the school but I couldn't think of a way she could.I glanced at katsuki who was messing with his phone. He hadn't moved except to go to the bathroom since we arrived. I could hear his stomach rumble ever so often and tried encouraging him to go get food though I was always met with something along the lines of I'm not hungry shitface.
My mom stayed almost all night but couldn't get out of work the next day. The only reason she left was that I kept insisting she needed the rest and I would tell her when I was being discharged. Recovery girl had driven all the way out just to help me which almost shocked me a bit but because it was a love-hate relationship, It surprised literally no one else.
I was recovering well but literally, everyone started probing me for information regardless of Sho arguing against it. The police had shown up at some point while I was sleeping to get information but had been blocked at the door with Sho stating I needed time to rest and he didn't think I was mentally able to handle the probing which would cause me to relive it more than I had with the nightmares.
Bakugo had gone to get me some food that tasted better than the shit they had here. Or that's how he put it anyway. I was glad that he had gone to eat even though it was the one and only time he left my side. Kirishima and Kaminari pressured him into leaving saying it would be better for him to have time to think about what had happened and they could grab some food while they were out.
My body still ached but it felt like it was a pain caused by mental strain. No matter how many days I was in the hospital I wouldn't be able to get rid of that pain.
Recovery girl had told me that I would be in the hospital until Tuesday so they could assess what I was going through mentally. Kacchan had told her what had happened and said that he was worried. He had all right to be honestly...
The only thing that made me sad was that I would be alone for around two days. They all had classes and I couldn't make them stay.
Being alone (besides the doctors and nurses checking in on me) made me feel like garbage. Kacchan wanted to stay. Hell, he begged to stay but he was told that he could come back once classes were over. That was the only reason he left. Unfortunately, I was constantly inside my own head and it was starting to weigh in on me because I was dealing with everything alone. I couldn't stop myself from flashing back to that night of intoxicated pain. Every time I did I would start crying. Things would not be okay if this kept up and I was sure that they would. Kacchan returned with Tsu, ochaco, surprisingly a friend I had made from class 1-C Hitoshi shinso and after classes ended for the day. They all had been worried and Hitoshi tried to make civil conversation avoiding the topic of what happened. Though it seemed as though Katsuki saw him as a threat for some reason. He had climbed into the bed beside me just sitting there with his arm around me and looking out the window but gripped me tighter if shinso said something that seemed a bit too friendly. It was weird. I didn't really know how to feel about it.
It was pretty clear Ochaco and Tsu at least had an idea of what was going on though they seemed too scared to ask. I was happy with the fact that Kacchan was cuddling me. It made me feel safe. Even if it was just temporary.