WARNING: EXPLICIT SEXUAL CONTENT, TRIGGER: SUICIDAL IDEATION

Kacchan had become almost as clingy as I was after the incident with Toga. He never wanted to admit that he wanted to be around me but always made sure to know where I was. I was almost certain it was because of pity. The only reason I believed this was because he had stopped saying much but sat there in silence avoiding everyone and everything. It was like I was an infant and he was my parent. He just had to be there. It wasn't because he wanted to be. It had been two weeks since everything had happened and I was still waking up screaming every night. People had started coming to check after the first night of screaming that I just couldn't pull myself out of. Sho and Kacchan had started taking turns sleeping in my room just so I could have someone to pull me out of it. About a week in Katsuki got in Sho's face telling him he could do a better job making sure I was safe and a whole fight erupted. A completely pointless fight at that. It was hard to feel okay after being used in that way. It was starting to affect my focus in most of my classes. Slowly but surely I could get back to normal I just needed time.

"Alright, class today we will be working in pairs. Please pick the person you work best with and follow me to the training area." Midnight said walking over to the door followed by Aizawa. Kirishima looked at Bakugo and then Kaminari. I looked over to Sho who was already paired up with Tokoyami. He shrugged and mouthed sorry. If it were groups of three I could be with Iida and Uraraka or even Shoto and Tokoyami but that wasn't happening. For some reason, everyone paired up except Kacchan. Maybe they remembered how he had acted before going back to his normal self or even just that he had been sleeping in my room and just assumed we were dating. I wished we were dating. He made me feel so safe and I knew the truth behind his words when he was being mean. I really loved him but I doubted that he felt the same way.

"Hey, fuckwad. We are partners. Don't screw this up." He had a devious grin on his face and I just loved it. He drove me insane just with that smile. I couldn't bring myself to do anything with him because I was afraid of being back in that place mentally. I wanted to though. God did I want too. I took a breath focusing on what Aizawa and Midnight were explaining.

The lesson included putting 2 heroes against a group of another two and we ended up going against Denki and Kirishima. Aizawa had explained most of the rules but there were still a few things left unsaid.

It was about knowing your opponent and their weaknesses and what to do if they didn't have one though most people did.

I started thinking about what could knock Denki out of the running. All he had to do was overuse his quirk and he would short himself out. Kirishima was a bit harder of a target but if Bakugo used his quirk right we could knock him out and he would go soft. I thought of how my brain had worded that and chuckled to myself.

"Quit muttering Deku!" Kacchan punched me in the arm. I rubbed the sore spot whimpering a bit. I dodged plenty of the concrete like punches and electric shocks trying to distract them and Kacchan made easy work of Kaminari. He was being the airhead we all knew and loved because he had overused his quirk. Even with his modifier Bakugo was too powerful for him.

I kicked multiple things into Kirishima's way but it didn't seem like he was going to go down so fast.

"Yo teach. Are we allowed to actually hit people? Like without our quirks?" Kacchan yelled. He had the look of determination on his face.

"We have recovery girl on call so as long as you don't go too overboard it's alright." Midnight yelled back

Denki was already shorted out and being well...Denki. Kacchan grabbed him by the ankles and swung him at Kirishima. Kaminari flew through the air at Kirishima. Him not wanting to see his teammate and friend hurt more than he already was(at least that's why I guessed) he turned his quirk off sending them both flying about another foot or so back. They both ended up hurt. I stood there in shock for a moment while processing everything that had just happened.

Kacchan didn't seem the least bit phased. I ran over to them in a panic as I zoned completely back in. Kaminari was completely passed out and Kirishima was bleeding from the head.

"Don't you think that was overkill?" I yelled at him trying to help Kirishima up by pulling Denki off of him.

"In a real battle, you do what it takes to win. As long as innocents don't get hurt it doesn't matter what happens to the lowlifes who decide to be villains." Katsuki barked at us.

"Are you guys okay? I'll help you get to the infirmary..." I sighed picking up Denki who looked like he would be unconscious for a while.

"Wow, Midoriya you've gotten strong." Kirishima said slightly limping beside me.

"Its all the strength training I've been doing. Especially at training camp..."

I flexed my arm a bit which resulted in a small but loud laugh from him. Carrying Kaminari on one arm while also helping Kirishima walk to Midnight and Aizawa to explain what happened I thought about how strong Katsuki had also gotten.

Once we got to the infirmary recovery girl let out an irritated sigh when she saw me. She then looked slightly relieved realizing I wasn't the one hurt. I laid Denki down on one of the beds and sat by Kirishima as he was being looked at. He didn't have a concussion luckily but if he would have been hit any harder he would have. This was an I'm going to use your weaknesses against you thing and I didn't like it. It made sense on why he would since he had recently told me that out there people will exploit a weakness in any way they can. Maybe he had done it to prove a point but also he could have just known that if they got hurt as long as he didn't kill them they should be okay with recovery girl there.

After being reassured that Denki would be okay and Kirishima wasn't mad at either if us I decided to walk back towards the training building to grab my stuff. The class was ending soon and I needed to change. Immediately as I got there midnight was dismissing class. Bakugo watched the door while I was changing as if anyone came in they would hurt me. I just felt bad that he thought I was pathetic enough to have to be guard dogged.

"I'm walking you back fuckwad." He said grabbing my arm looking annoyed at the world.

"You don't have to do that Kacchan." I whined as he gripped harder.

"Yes, I do. I am not going to chance it." He groaned pulling me along. I felt bad that he wasn't spending as much time with his actual friends because he thought I was a weakling. That's what it seemed like to me. He couldn't process I had been getting stronger. As much as I enjoyed his company he needed to go check on his friends in the infirmary since he put them there.

"Chance what? Me falling? Me missing a step and slipping downstairs? Me forgetting to brush my teeth because I'm so tired?" I paused my rambling for a second to breathe then continued "As much as I love having you around you aren't thinking about your other friends. Kirishima is your best friend and we aren't even dating. I love you but I don't want you destroying your friendship." The speed of my words almost made me jumble them together. It seemed as though he got the picture though. He let go of my arm and narrowed his crimson eyes glaring directly into mine for a second.

"Fine then loser. You know where I'm going." With that, he turned around and threw his hand up to signify he was leaving.

I walked to my room alone from there. He had gone to check up on Denki and Kirishima who I guessed were still in the infirmary. That was the only place he could have gone. I sighed glad to get a moment to myself.

After everything that had happened lately, I was frustrated in more than one way. Mentally frustrated at the fact that I wasn't being treated like the almost adult that I was. Physically frustrated at everything that had been going on. As well as sexually frustrated at Kacchan. I wanted to be close to him but...

My thoughts stopped. There was no way he wanted to be close to me in that way after everything that had happened. He probably thought I was disgusting. I felt disgusting. Although having him around meant that I got to watch him more. The way sometimes his brow furrowed when he got angry. The way he always over announced his presence. I got to pay close attention to every detail of him that I could see on a daily basis. He was beautifully imperfect and that's what made him perfect to me.

I dug out my shoebox full of toys and sighed drawing the curtains in so I would have a full amount of privacy. I couldn't really have actual sex because the thought terrified me at this point but I needed release. The thought of Kacchan and that damn sexy smile of his made me twitch and tingle. It was hard for me to be around him so much but I did appreciate it. I appreciated every little aspect of him from the way he would crinkle his nose to how he bit his bottom lip in nervousness when he thought no one was paying attention. I laid on my bed after lubing up my vibrator and turning it on. Thoughts of him filled my brain. It hurt at first seeing as I hadn't messed around in a bit but this was a good pain. A pain I wanted. I craved those forceful kisses and small bites from Kacchan. The marks from a few weeks back had faded but I didn't mind. Eventually, he would give me new ones when I was okay again. He was the only thing I could think about. I remembered how he held me close filling me with pure ecstasy. My hand wrapped around my length causing me to whimper and moan as I slowly pumped. The lube that was left on my hand made my member slick and easier to maneuver. I thought about that damn smile and how the last time we were together he called me his. Even if it was only in a sexual way I was his. I didn't mind only being intimate with him if he was only mine too. I doubted that I was the only one he was with. He was too beautiful and amazing in every way for it to just be me. I tried to push that out of my head. Rather than think about that I thought about what I craved. Someone to make me feel like I could be okay again. I wanted him to walk through the door and fix me. This wasn't nearly as good as when he touched me. Hell, I would even take Sho at this point because I wanted that physical intimacy. He had always cared about my feelings and making sure I was okay with what was going on. He always was amazing in bed, to begin with. I just wanted someone to make me feel comfortable in my body again like what I said mattered and that I wasn't as worthless as I felt. I didn't know if sex was the only way for that but it felt like it. What broke me could potentially fix me if done correctly. As scared as I was I needed it. I needed him. I needed Kacchan... my mind filled with thoughts of him once more. Small fantasies that I wanted to act out with him. I felt my length twitch as my toy moved inside of me.

"K...Kacchan..." I softly moaned almost forgetting where I was in ecstasy. The toy that was inside of me was nowhere near as good as he was but I would have to make due. My bottom lip slipping into my mouth between my teeth in pleasure. I couldn't dare ask him to do anything with me after what happened. I had come so close to bleaching my skin to get the feeling of that night off of me. I didn't want to make him feel gross about me. I knew that he thought I was gross after all of that.

"K..Ka...Kacchan.." I whimpered my legs thrashing slightly at my sides as the toy vibrated in me.

Suddenly my door opened and there he was staring right at me. No knock nothing.

Awkwardly he walked in and closed the door behind him not taking his eyes off of me. He made sure that he locked the door and glared at me.

"So you pushed me off on Kirishima to come fuck yourself while thinking of me? Are you that much of a slut Deku?"

I let go of myself not able to take the toy out. I pushed my knees together so he hopefully couldn't see it anymore. My face was flushing red

My mind space wasn't as I'd like it to be because I was just that turned on. All I could do was softly whimper while staring at him. I felt my length start to twitch against my stomach. I wanted him so bad. I needed him. I was willing to beg him it was that bad but I didn't. Maybe he was right. Maybe I was a slut.

I tried to hide my face by grabbing my pillow and shoving it into it.

He took a few steps towards me slowly peeling off layers as he did. First, he kicked his shoes off then his shirt and finally, he was starting to unbuckle his jeans. I peeked around the edge of the pillow with a blush causing me to look like a freckled tomato.

He sat on the bed beside me and tugged the pillow away.

"So what's the fucking deal Izuku?"

My heart pounded harder in my chest as my name left his lips. I couldn't respond. All I could do was stare at him in disbelief.

"Hey, earth to Deku." He shouted waving his hands in front of my face.

I tried to ignore the toy inside of me.

"I.." his lips moved close to my ear.

"You what? Is the thought of me better than the actual me?" He growled

I let out a whimper my length twitching slightly while hearing his words.

"Answer me." He demanded

"I just feel disgusting... I didn't t..think you'd want to touch me...I don't even really like...t..touching me." I sighed after the words left my mouth. Everything I had said was true though. She had ruined me for everyone including myself.

My wrists were gripped and I was suddenly pinned to the bed.

"Did I ever once call you disgusting?" He snarled throwing his leg over me and straddling me. I could feel him pressing against me and it made me quiver.

"Since you aren't going to answer I will answer for you. No, I didn't. So don't think things like that. And don't put words in my fucking mouth."

His lips moved back to my neck forcefully nipping and biting causing me to gasp. My train of thought had completely changed. He didn't care what she had done to me. Either he just didn't want to lose his toy or he genuinely didn't get grossed out by what she had done.

His tongue ran from my collarbone to behind my ear. I let out a small whimper the toy wiggling inside of me. I could feel the bulge pressing against the thin fabric of his boxers.

"P...Please..." I mewled my eyes closing in a mixture of pleasure and embarrassment.

"Please what?" He growled lowly in my ear.

I couldn't think of the right words.

"U..Use me..." I mumbled softly. It was the only word that came to mind. If anyone was going to do that I wanted it to be him.

A small chuckle slipped through his lips.

"Is that what you want?" He licked his bottom lip.

My breathing hicked as he spoke. I forced my lips against his. I pulled his lip out between my teeth. He let out a small moan.

"I'm taking that as a yes. I want to hear it out of your mouth." His hands slipped between my legs gently pushing on the vibrator. I squirmed underneath him. "Tell me." He groaned.

"I...I want you to use me...I...I'm your toy..."

I blushed hearing the words coming out of my mouth but it was as though I was acting without thinking. Katsuki just did that to me.

"You're more than just a toy to me. I hope you know that." His spare hand caressed my cheek as he continued to wiggle the toy slightly. I could feel my heart in my throat. The softer side of Kacchan was so kind "but for now I will play with you like one." The other males' lips curled into that devious sharp-toothed smile that I loved so much.

He retracted both of his hands back to himself moving one finger to his bottom lip in thought.

"Tell me what you like. I know your an exhibitionist. At least a little. Half and half proved that." He rolled his eyes then glanced back down. "And you obviously like your toys but what are your kinks."

I shrugged resulting in an annoyed glare from him.

"Don't give me that I don't know shit. I fucking know better. No one has handcuffs and sex toys and doesn't know what they like."

'I...I haven't really thought about it. I know small things but.."

He pulled his phone out of his pocket. "We are going to settle this here and now. You are going to do this test and before you say anything else yes with the toy in you because I need to know what you're into."

His phone slid into my hands still warm. He glanced at it. The words on the screen read let's test the kink out of you! My face flushed red and I could feel it becoming hotter.

"A..are you sure?"

He nodded a small chuckle escaping the depths of his throat.

"P..please let me take the toy out..." I whimpered.

"Fine but I'm not cleaning it. " he scooted off of me and I slowly pulled the liquid covered dildo out. I sat there scrolling through questions. It looked as though Bakugo had already filled in the age and sexual orientation part of it as well as the length needed to be tested. There were so many questions. A whine escaped my lips as he pulled me onto his lap. His hands ran over my thighs harshly gripping ever so often. I could feel them getting higher and higher till he eventually just spread my legs. His fingers danced around the edge of my entrance for a moment or two before gently pushing in and filling the void the toy had left. I tried to focus on the quiz at hand but it was so hard. Some of the things were completely in the red like wanting to be considered superior in the bedroom. Other things were spot on like being sexually tortured. That one caused Kacchan to let a slight chuckle escape his lips. I wiggled around on his lap trying to focus on the test he had wanted me to take but that just caused him to pump his fingers faster making me gasp softly. I like pain being inflicted during sex/BDSM and seeing the results afterwards. I glanced up at Bakugo who didn't seem to be paying attention to the test only my squirms. I clicked all the way on the green side starting to realize what that would entail. I like my partner(s) to be completely in charge in the bedroom, ordering me around. Once again there was a 100% green. I let out a whimper noticing he was glancing at the phone.

"Oh really?" A low growl escaped from his throat.

A few more questioned passed and my scores came up. I showed the results to him causing his lips to get close to my ear.

"Should have known. Sub, slave, masochist, and even pet. Ooh, look at that your a slight degradee" his lips pulled away and he continued " it's not high it's more than 40% though." He was biting his lip looking down at me "exhibitionist and voyeur are as well as boy/girl. What makes me laugh is that everything that is 100% is things that would be for a submissive. At least in my thoughts. Oh, I knew this one." He paused for a second getting close to my ear again placing a finger from his spare hand by one of the results "rope bunny. Suspected that because of the handcuffs. Though I'll be investing in some actual rope."

His teeth ran across my neck "and this one too. Brat. Yeah. That was a total no brainer."

I whimpered trying not to moan louder than I already was as he bit into my sweet spot and pushed in his fingers further.

"H..How is it fair...?" I whined

"How's what fair Izuku?" His fingers that were pumping inside of me sped up a bit.

"T..that you get to see my results but I can't see yours."

"I didn't say you couldn't now did I?" He scrolled through his screenshots with his free hand and slipped the phone back into my hands."

"There now quit bitching." I glanced over the list. Exhibitionist and Voyeur were around 96%. Rigger was at 100% and Master/Mistress was as well. I wiggled back against his fingers trying to contain moans as I continued to read. Brat tamer 88% while Daddy/Mommy was at 94%. His spare hand snaked around and slowly pumped around my length.

"H...hey I'm trying to focus."

"And I'm trying to tease you so fuck off."

I whimpered once more and started reading again. Sadist and owner were also at 100% as well as dominant. Degrader coming in around 70%. I was really jumping around with my reading because I kept clicking on things accidentally with all the squirming I was doing. Primal(hunter) was at 72%.

"W..What's this mean K...Kacchan...?" I showed it to him in confusion.

"Its basically just very animalistic sex..." he placed a soft kiss on my cheek causing my heart to beat faster.

"W...was that on mine?"

He chuckled and it looked as though he was thinking about it. "I'm pretty sure you had prey on there but I don't know." He took the phone out of my hand pulling both of his hands away and sucking on the fingers that had just been inside of me.

"Now that I know I can adjust accordingly. Not that I really have to because our things correlate well. Knees now." He demanded I complied quietly "I want you to blow me."

I sat there for a second with the thought of me just blowing air on him. I took his length out and did just that with a giggle. He let out an annoyed groan.

"Listen here you brat. I know you know what I meant and if you do well enough I'll fuck you till you can't walk. No more of that bullshit though. Got it?" His words were so demanding and it caused a coil in my stomach. I didn't just want to comply I felt I needed to. I took his member in my hand slowly pumping and licked the slit that had already started forming precum. I hadn't answered him so I started to feel like I should after a moment I repeated a line that I had used before "Yes sir." It seemed to fit so much more now. I even knew why he liked it so much before. His hand gently patted my head "good boy." His voice was much softer than before. I softly rubbed my head against his hand continuing to suck.

Soft moans left his parted lips as I bobbed my head on his large length.

"Now Izuku." My name sounded like velvet coming off his lips. "As much as I want to cum on your pretty face I would rather bury your face in this bed and my cock inside of you."

He hadn't said to stop so I continued sucking and licking his length causing his hips to buck as they always did but this was a tad harder than usual. I gagged softly and pulled his length out coming off with a small pop.

"Why didn't you stop before?" He raised an eyebrow holding out his hand to help me up. I took it and stood slowly glancing down at a small puddle of precum that had dripped off of me.

"Were you just enjoying yourself too much?" I shook my head.

"Y...you didn't say to stop yet... "

"But what I said meant it." He gripped my length softly and ran his finger over the slightly wet slit. "And if you don't obey me next time you'll be getting teased for hours."

I let out a small whine as he let go and pushed me onto the bed.

"So it said pet. Which one do you think you might be?"

I shrugged and thought about it. "I.. I have caught myself purring before...I..also rub my head a..against things.." I softly moaned as his length pressed against my entrance teasingly.

"So maybe a kitten?" I let a whimper escape my bruised lips as he gently pushed in his head.

Slowly my head nodded.

"A kitten has to have a tail. I might just have to get you one." He chuckled to what I assumed to be a joke. I pushed back against him letting small curses escape as he filled my void. This is what I had been craving. His hands were on my hips pounding into me. I felt right.

His fingers entangled in my hair pulling tightly and harshly. I moaned trying to muffle myself with a pillow.

"K..Ka...Kacchan." his name left my mouth so easy and it seemed to be driving him wild.

"Izuku." He moaned softly "s..say my real name. I need to hear it." He grabbed my hips violently pounding and thrusting. It almost seemed sloppy. I felt myself getting close to climax and I knew I needed it.

"P...Please... Katsuki... m..make me cum... I need it so bad... I n..need you so bad. F..fill me p..please.." I pleaded

"F..fuck... y..you've really got this dirty talking thing down don't you..?" He groaned his nails digging into my hips as they had before. I could feel him throbbing inside and it was euphoric. I needed the release. I began rubbing my length against the bed as he pummeled me into in. Soft moans leaving my mouth but mostly his name. The friction felt nice and against my member. The twitching inside of me started to become violent and I knew he was getting close.

"Izuku.." he moaned softly "your mine. You belong to me. Got it?" He groaned and I could feel his teeth sink into my shoulder biting harshly. I couldn't stand it anymore. My body released causing most of my muscles to spasm and thrash under him. My walls clenching around him I could hear the lustrous moans leaving his mouth. Pulling me as close as he possibly could he began to fill me. I could feel every ounce of him that was being poured into me. The warmth was overflowing this is what I had wanted. Someone to want me but not only in a sexual way. I wanted to be his.