I changed my username to WolvesRosesandDiamonds sorry if that caused anyone confusion.

I am soooooo sorry you guys I have been having family issues which has prevented me from updating. I'm not even sure when I can next update to you guys but i'll try. After this my updates will be far in between unless said otherwise. To make it up to you guys from now on out whenever I have time not only on weekends i'll update and this goes for the whole story hooyah. But you can expects weeks part from my updates. Also please please give me suggestions it would help me update more and you guys may even get more updates wink wink.

Bella when are you gonna give me Seth

Me: patience you'll have your boy toy soon

Bella: but I want him now

Seth: I've always been yours

Bella: but i'm tired of having a secret relationship

Me: Oh please give everyone already knows you guys are linked as a pair in the story for a reason wait a while

Seth: Do what she says bae

Bella: fine

Me: can someone please say the disclaimer my mouths hurts from talking to you guys.

Seth: WolvesRosesandDiamonds does not own twilight or any of it's characters

Bella: but she owns her crazy mind

Me hey!

My wolf

My mate

Please save me from my fate

my end may be near

I may disappear

his fangs are my neck

I dare not take a breath

for it may be my last

-WolvesRosesandDiamonds

I write my own quotes and poems aren't they awesome

Bella pov

I had really started to form a tight bond with Leah and Seth. We had grown to be the best of friends. Everywhere they went I went. I had also started to form a tight bond with their parents Sue and Harry Clearwater. Today we were going to have a chill day meaning our days with popcorn pizza and cocoa.

I went downstairs to say goodbye to my dad before heading out. "Bye dad i'm heading over to the Clearwaters residence. "Bye bells be safe". I kinda wondered why he didn't get concerned at how often I visited them but considering the fact that during my depressed stage I had neglected contact with all my friends I guess he was just happy that I was getting out.

That thought made me feel bad for my dad. I couldn't imagine how it would feel like to have to watch your child going through a depressed phase and not just any depressed phase but a dramatic heartbreaking I wanna die phase. As bad as I felt for him it wasn't enough for me to ever want to understand how he felt. I sent a quick prayer hoping that karma didn't get me back one day.

I headed in my chair driving to their house. Once I reached there I stepped out the truck and almost tripped and broke my face. But luckily Seth was there and he caught me just in time. Before I knew it I was scooped into Seth's arms while he whispered into my ears "you're really gonna test theses reflexes huh but don't worry i got ya". I couldn't help the blush that came across my fate when I felt his hot breath across my neck.

Although both Leah and Seth were my best buddies I wasn't stupid even I could see that Seth was really hot. I was reminded of that one day when we were hanging out on the beach and Seth took off his shirt I swear I almost died and went to heaven. How did a boy his age have a six pack or more likely who's body did he steal. Please lead the way to this body factory I couldn't help but think.

"Come on let's go Leah's waiting for us inside" he said as he helped me step down and walked in front swaying his hips in a confident and graceful moment. We had already settled down on the couch when Leah walked into the room and gave me a hug. "hey girl" she said passing me a bowl of popcorn.

Sometime throughout the movie I had ended up laying my head on Seth's shoulder. I had started to grow more comfortable with Seth more and more as our friendship progressed. But until now I hadn't really just how comfortable I had become.

We stayed like that and watched a few more videos before i realized i had to head home. When i was driving home something touched my heart and i began to feel pain fill my heart as memories of me and Edward in the meadow came to my mind. The meadow! that what i was missing i just needed to see the meadow one more time and i knew i could come to some type of peace or get closer to moving on.

I parked near the meadow and walked into the center of the meadow and sat down. This place was so beautiful and marked so many memories for me and Edward. I saw a flash out of my eyes and thought it was nothing until a vampire i knew too well appeared into the meadow. The vampire was black skinned with dread locks and blood thirsty red eyes that i was no doubt prey to.

"Bella what a surprise to see you without the company of the Cullen's" there was no way i could forget that accent even if i was deaf it was Laurent. I knew this situation could get dangerous real quick so i thought of a lie i knew probably wouldn't work ''they're away on a trip although i could tell them u stopped by".

His next words guaranteed that there was no way the lie had worked and that if i didn't receive a miracle i was going to be Laurent lunch. He was suddenly in front of me and i knew that it was about to over for me. He put his fingers to my lips and said "shush i'll make it quick at least its me if it had been Victoria it would have been a lot more painful torture most likely just be lucky you won't suffer".

Victoria she had been watching me! That's why i had felt uneasy and scared lately i knew something was off. But there was no need to worry i was literally already dead. I felt his teeth at my neck and said any last words. I don't know how or why but my mouth moved on it's own and said "mate help me" i barely registered my mouth purr those words. What a minute i don't even remember learning how to purr actually i never could.

Before Laurent teeth could sink into my skin something rustled in the forest behind us and pounced locking with its prey who thankfully wasn't me this time.