A/N: I do not own anything
Flashbacks are in italics
Sheldon never thought the day would come when he would miss being intimate with his wife. Not just sexual intimacy, but everything. She just seemed so depressed. The last time they had sex it just didn't feel like it used to. He now understood the difference between coitus and making love.
"Everything alright buddy?" Leonard asked while they were driving home "not that I'm complaining but why did I have to take you home?"
Sheldon shrugged "Amy just said that she was going home early."
"Is she sick or something" Leonard asked. But it seemed like Sheldon didn't hear him or didn't care. 'Well,' thought Leonard, 'at least he's quiet'
All the way up in the elevator Sheldon remained quiet, when it opened on their floor, he gave Leonard a half-hearted wave and told him he would see him for dinner.
When Sheldon opened his apartment door darkness greeted him. "Amy" he called out, "Are you home?" He walked to the bedroom and saw her curled up on the bed with her back to him. He sat down behind her, "Are you awake?"
"Yea" she mumbled
"Why did you leave early?"
"I just felt like it"
"Well that's hardly a reason to just leave-" Sheldon started
"Sheldon not now" Amy groaned while clutching her stomach. "Amy are you ok?" he asked softly. She turned her head to face him. "I think my period is coming, I'm fine. I don't think I'll be at 4A for dinner but you can go ahead"
"But you're not feeling well. I should stay to take care of you"
"Just go Sheldon. I'm fine" she said giving a fake smile. Sheldon wordlessly left the room and closed the front door.
As soon as she heard the front door close, all the tears she had been holding back began to fall. Truth be told she just didn't want to go by Penny and Leonard because it hurt to see her best friend looking like she was ready to give birth any day, when she couldn't even get pregnant no matter how hard they tried. 'She didn't even want kids' Amy thought bitterly. Everything was so far from fine.
Amy stared at the pregnancy test in her hand. She knew she shouldn't have bought it or taken it, but her period was late, and it meant she could be pregnant, 'Or I could be starting menopause' she thought. She wished Sheldon was here but it was the middle of the day at work, and if it was negative, she couldn't handle seeing the happiness drain from his eyes again.
But maybe it was positive this time. Maybe they could finally start a family. Amy's phone beeped signaling the time was up. She looked down at the pregnancy test to see the word negative plastered across the little screen. She felt the tears burning her eyes, 'I'm not going to cry in work again' she thought. She threw the test in the bin and texted Sheldon to say she was going home.