A/N: I don't own it and I was devastated to know they were cancelling it but as I watched the last episodes, it sat well with my soul as the show ended as it started, a fine quality production, that was better than most anything else on tv. I will miss the characters, but thanks to fanfiction, they, especially my OTP, STROSSI, will live on in our hearts. As usual, check out the forum You Give Me Fever, now that so many of us are home, maybe some of the old ideas (and new ones once I get off my encounter suited butt, Babylon 5 reference) on there will spark some new Strossi fics. Feel free to use anything you find on there. I know this fic is short, but it is done for now. It has been sitting for years and it keeps saying there is no more, right now. Last thing. I do not mention, whom Erin is divorcing in this, but it is NOT Dave. He is and always will be, her first love.

My First Love

You've been so kind to treat me so fine
And I know, for me, you'll do anything
But I've made up my mind, I'm just wasting your time
'Cause I'm yet to get over my first love

You'll meet someone that will pay
Attention to you everyday
And I might as well be true to myself
'Cause I'll never get used to no one else

Read more: Atlantic Starr - My First Love Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Erin Strauss pulled off her wedding rings and placed them on the table. She could see how much this was hurting him. There was a small part of her that wanted to turn around and tell him that she would stay, that somehow, they would make it work. But she knew in her heart of hearts, she couldn't do that. She had betrayed her true feelings long enough. As she opened the door to leave the lawyer's office, the ink still drying where they had signed the final Divorce Decree, she could hear him pleading with her not to walk out that door. The look on his face as he scribbled his name on the signature line, would haunt her for years to come. Even now he was imploring her, almost pleading with her to not walk out of that door…

"The papers haven't been filed yet, sweetheart. Until that happens, we are still legally husband and wife. Just turn around, and we can tear them up, forget this nightmare ever happened. I promise, I will do anything you want, just don't throw away everything we have built over the years".

He was a strong man, a proud man; Yet, he was pleading with her, for another chance. Didn't he understand? No matter how hard they tried, what they had would never be enough. Yes, she cared about him and a tiny part of her loved him. He was a great guy, that's why she married him. But she had to put an end to this marriage for both their sakes. His maybe more than hers.

Didn't he understand that in her heart, he could never be the man she would be truly happy with? Yes, they could muddle along, continue to try to force happiness into their lives, but it was just too hard, when her heart wasn't in it because it belongs to another, always had and always would. But the part of her that loved and cared about him, knew that he loved her to distraction and that she could never be the woman he loved and eventually he would get over being so love sick that he couldn't see that and when that happened, he would truly hate her.

She never thought she would be the kind of woman who would, who could ever do this to a good man. She hated herself for what she was doing to him because she knew him well enough to know, she was breaking his heart. This man loved her beyond reason. He would do anything for her, give her anything. He was the kindest, gentlest man she had ever known, but as much as she had always dreamed of marrying a man like that one day, she couldn't be truly happy with him. She couldn't give herself to him completely enough to be the kind of wife he deserved, because she had yet to get over her first love.

End (Maybe)

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