Chapter 32
Zero drives off and is totally pissed off and upset. He just can't believe she would do this to him. She lied, she played him. She is just like Kaname if not worse, he says to himself. He drives to the association heading to work, just half of him is far in the distance thinking about everything that just took place.
He walks into his office and just sits at his desk, totally beside himself as Yagari walks in.
"Hey boy, What's up? You look like shit? Anyone giving you any grief?" Yagari asks.
"No, everyone here is fine, it's home life that sucks." Zero answers.
"What's up at home? The new girl giving you trouble?" Yagari jokes.
"New girl heh, funny. It seems she isn't new at all. I have been with Yuki the last few months and I didn't even know it was her." Zero admits.
"Ahh that's why Kaname asked for your job back, I was wondering who and what the hell would make him do that," Yagari says.
"Yea, freaking Kaname, of all people asking for my job back. I bet that had to kill him inside. She didn't only screw him over she screwed me as well. In more than one way. "Zero snaps.
"What do you mean? And how didn't you know it was her? I am lost." Yagari answers.
"She disguised herself and never told me who she was. She turned into Kaname. Why isn't she with him anyway?" Zero asks.
"The last I heard, she was having problems living there with him. She wanted time to herself, to figure out what she wanted. Kaname let her leave after seeing she was miserable there with him. Of course, he always has someone watching her but he gave her the space she needed. I guess she has no plans on going back." Yagari says.
"I don't know, she said she missed me. I am not sure about anything at the moment." Zero confides.
"How did she treat you these few months? How did you like it?" Yagari asks.
"She treated me well, she was nothing like the Yuki I new. She was so put together, so calm and emotionless. Still kind and giving though, she always made sure I had everything I needed. She tried her best so I didn't have to sell myself to eat or pay the rent." Zero says.
"Then what's the matter?" Yagari asks.
"She lied. She took advantage of my situation to get around me. She could have just told me who she was. She even screwed him, and then me. The thought triggers me." Zero admits.
"Oh good grief boy, people sleep with others. IT was before you, she learned she didn't want him, you should be glad, isn't this what you wanted? Her to yourself? IF she would have told you who she was, you would have pushed her away. Just like your doing now. Even after everything she did for you. She took you into her home, gave you money slept with you, feed you. Can you not see she cares? Maybe she should have told you a little sooner who she was, but you never really asked did you?" Yagari states.
"I asked now, I didn't want to ruin a good thing. She was quiet and kept her life to herself. I wasn't going to piss her off. I didn't think she was Yuki. I still can't believe how she grew up. What the hell did Kaname do to her?" Zero says.
"Nothing, he taught her how to be the pureblood she is supposed to be. Probably another reason she didn't tell you who she was. Not to mention, everything that happened to you. I know you're pissed, and you need time to let this sink in, but I think you should talk to her." Yagari replies.
"I don't know, we will see. Right now, I really do need to process all this. I thought I was getting my life together and here its a bigger mess than before." Zero responds.
"She gave you your life back, it will only be a mess now if you let it be." Yagari states.
Zero just looks at him, he knows what he says is true, he just doesn't know if he can trust her or believe anything she told him. His heart hurts at all these thoughts as he missed her so much and wanted to have all this with her all these years.
He still can't believe he got to make love to her, hold her close. It was nothing like he imaged. She was experienced in it all, she wasn't the naive little girl he knew back at Cross. Not in any way, he wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing at the moment.