Chapter 38
When Kaname gets to the Dark Mansion, he steps out of the car and walks up to the door, trying not to let anyone even realize he was there. He just knew it would be hard to keep his scent from her. She knew him well, they shared a lot in the years, even being intimate which Kaname wished for more. He missed her being that close to him and fears she will never be that way again. His want was still there for her, just hers wasn't there for him.
He walks in, trying to be swift and trying to catch her off guard, which he finds her in the living room, sipping her tea in front of the fireplace. The site he sees in front of him stops his heart. He just stares at her, as he falls to his knees. With a huge pain that hits deep inside of him. His hopes are crushed.
"Kaname, My love please." She says walking over to him, bending down in front of him, placing her hands on his face.
"Its why I didn't tell you. I knew you wouldn't be able to handle it, that it would hurt you so. I am so sorry. It's not what I wanted at all." Yuki says.
"Why? I know you better than this Yuki. You did it on purpose, didn't you? Do you know what can happen? You know how dangerous this?" Kaname says a tear falling from his not so composed self.
Yuki just looks back at him, never seeing him like this. Kaname showing emotion, being unraveled in front of her. She knows this would hurt him, but never like this to this point. It just kills her inside. To know and see she can do this to him as no one else can.
"I know everything that is coming. I will deal with it. I will stay here for as long as I can. I should be safe here, I will travel around to our different Mansions. Never staying in one place too long. Never making friends. I should be ok. It will be our secret, we are good at keeping those aren't we?" Yuki answers.
"You didn't answer my question Yuki." Kaname snaps standing up, putting himself back to his cold nature.
"No, I didn't really do it on purpose if happened, and I don't regret it one bit. Its the only thing that has gotten me through this. A piece that will make me happy. A piece untouched, unhurt." Yuki replies.
"You damn fool, you will need to give it away. So it can stay safe, be free of this. It will never be safe with us." Kaname snaps.
"Never! " Yuki yells.
"You're not thinking, you're going to do what you did to him again just with this? Haven't you learned?" Kaname says. "Does he even know?" Kaname adds
"I told him in the letter, so I am guessing he doesn't care. He let go of me and everything else. I will do this on my own Kaname. He wants nothing to do with me." Yuki says with tears streaming down her face.
"You been dealing with all this on your own. WHy didn't you tell me? Confide in me? I am here for you, I just don't think its the best choice for either of you." Kaname says.
"I knew how it would hurt you and I wanted to keep you safe. I am sorry. I am not changing my mind." Yuki states.
"Then I will stand by you, you will not hide. " Kaname replies.
"It will make you a laughing stock. Their is no way they will not know. It may make things worse. If they go agaisnt you, we can all get killed." Yuki replies.
"I will see what I can do. I can't have this. They know better than to go against me. I just need time to think of something. I also can't believe he would just let this go. He is an asshole but not to this degree. Damn it Yuki." Kaname says wrapping his arms around Yuki.
He knows now he will have to step up and do his best to fix this one way or another. Does he go to Zero? Or just take it on himself and never tell? If he doesn't tell and keeps it secret, Yuki will live with the pain forever, even though it may give him what he truly wanted. Either way, she needed him now more than ever and he would be there for her. He just wished none of this was taking place.