Chapter 40

Kaname leaves the office going home, as Zero just wonders what all the talk was really about? He did his best not to show Kaname how hurt and torn he is inside. How living without her is killing him. To hear she feels the same makes him feel better, to know she still cares. He just doesn't know if he can get over this or not. It feels like a big betrayal to him. Just another to add to the list. Not to mention he feels it hard to open himself up again scared to only get hurt more than before.

He sits there and takes out the letter now wondering what was in it that was so important?

He opens it and a house key falls onto his desk. He takes it in his hand and he knows, its to the house they once shared.

My dearest Zero,

I know your hurt right now and I want to say, I am truly sorry for what I have done. I just didn't see another way of getting close to you. If you knew it was me, I was scared you would have pushed me away and never taken my help. Which you needed. I know your pride is everything and I am sorry. I did it to be with you, to give you what you needed back. I missed you more then you could imagine and I still do.

I don't know if you will ever forgive me, but I want you to have the house. I will no longer be able to stay there. First, the memories are haunting me and second I will need to go into hiding. So I can Protect myself, you, Kaname and our child.

Yes, you read that right, we created a child. One I will love and protect to the fullest. Just no one can know. I just thought you should know about it. If you don't respond to me I know where you stand and I am sorry. I don't want you to come back to me because of the child, I want you to be with me because you care and love me.

If worse comes to Worse I know Kaname will stand by me and do everything he can to protect us. I will be fine either way Zero. Just please know what I did was out of love for you. I didn't plan on getting pregnant, it just happened, that last night I just wanted to be with you and I wasn't thinking of anything else but that could have been our last time together as I see it was.

Please be safe and live life and be happy with whatever choice you make. If you can't love me, at least open yourself up to someone you can.

Yours always Yuki.

Zero just reads it over and over again not able to get through his own head that she is pregnant with his child. This is why Kaname needs his choice so soon. Its why even Kaname was pushing them back together and trying.

He was having a baby with the women he loved dearly, he took all these months to read this letter, he thinks she must feel he abandon her and his child. His stubborness leading him to miss out on everything he wanted so badly. Leaving the only woman he could ever love alone, and probably scared for their child's safety. Maybe she was better off with Kaname. At least he would protect and stay with her.

He knew them being together and having a child was a bad thing, there were so many that would disapprove. It would be dangerous. Yet even Kaname was willing to help. It just burned him inside.

As he sits there and thinks Yagari walks in.

"Hey boy, It's time to go home, are you ready? You look like shit what's the matter?" Yagari asks.

"I read the letter Yuki gave me months ago. I also got a visit from Kaname today." Zero says in a low tone.

"OK, he comes to rub it in that he with her?" Yagari asks.

"No, the opposite. It seems she is pregnant and its mine. She just thinks I abanded her and the child and Kaname wants to make it right. He left the choice up to me, Either I go stand with her or he will." Zero replies.

"She is pregnant? Oh, damn Zero that will be a mess. With or without you. Unless Kaname states it's his but it won't be a full pureblood and if it looks like you it will be hard to lie. Unless they use whatever they did to cover up what Yuki looks like with you." Yagari answers.

"I don't want him to be the father to my child! I don't want him anywhere near her or my child." Zero snaps.

"That's the Zero I know! Then what are you going to do? If you do want to walk away her safest choice is to be with him. He is doing you a favor, he doesn't have to." Yagari asks.

"I don't know yet, I feel so bad letting her deal with this all these months. I have been so full of my self. Not that it has gotten me anywhere. It just hurts to take everything in. Just I left her when she needed me most when it was important. I feel terrible." Zero replies.

"Then tell her that, you both have a lot of making up to do. You also need to see what your going to do about this child. About your relationship. You being a hunter isn't going to help any of it. She is safer right now to stay with Kaname in his home." Yagari responds.

"I know. I just need to find where she is, so I can talk to her. See what is going on. If I can fix any of this. I want to see my child when it's born. I want to be there for both of them." Zero answers.

"That's the Zero I know. I am proud of you. I am sure Kaname Knows where she is and will tell you. Anytime he came here to talk to you I am sure he means business. That also took alot for him to do." Yagari says.

"As much as I hate to say this, it did take a lot for him. He is being more of a man than I thought he would be. If it wasn't for him, I would have never read that letter or even knew what was going on. I had no intention of going back. To be honest, I wanted her to hurt like I did when she left me the first time for him. " Zero admits.

"You need to get over that, she may have left with him, but as you saw and see, she isn't in love with him. If you are foolish you are only going to through her and now even your child into his arms. She has no one else or any other choice. It will be hard with you, but at least you will be a family and there for both of them. Just are you ready for it?" Yagari asks.

"It's something I always wanted, then when it was right there in front of me, I left it. I don't want to make that same mistake. I just hope after all this time, she will forgive me and take me back. Or at least we can still be friends and raise our child." Zero answers.

"I guess you will be callin Kaname then. I wish you luck. You will both need it." Yagari comments.