A/N – Hey guys! Hope you're enjoying the story so far, literally still just having a few ideas and a clear understanding on where I want this to go while mostly winging it. This chapter kinda has some um, I don't remember what the hell the term is called but smut? Either way there's some sexual stuff in the chapter so I kind of have an edited version and an uncut version (This one being the uncut one) just in case it's weird or uncomfortable. First time kind of writing the stuff so yeah! Anyways, please enjoy:)

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"-Call now and you'll get not one, but two turbo froster freezie packs!"

I look up from my phone to see some lame commercial for a product I feel no one is going to buy. I was lounging in my recliner chair and scrolling through the inter-webs to help decompress.

Today was a mentally straining day from start to finish. Sayori, Yuri and Monika….so much stuff that just taxed my mind. I immediately crashed onto my recliner upon entering my home and haven't moved in a few hours.

I wasn't hungry. I wasn't thirsty. I just felt drained. Part of me wanted to shower or take a bath and go lay down but I knew I wouldn't fall asleep even if I wanted. Or hell, I was scared to sleep. Nightmares kind of give you a phobia to sleep.

I got tired of hearing the television in the background so I dug out some headphones from my pocket (I seem to have a healthy supply) and plugged them into my phone. I found a playlist that said "In the Feels" and felt like it was appropriate. Didn't recognize any of the songs or artists but the nice rock tunes eased my mind. I put my phone down and zoned out staring at the ceiling.

"I don't want to know it's over, so save your goodbye kiss. I don't wanna kno- BZZT BZZT!"

I glance down and see that someone messaged me. I pick up my phone and unlock it to read it. I open up the social media messenger that I used the other night (apparently I don't have anyone's number but Sayori's and some pizza place) and find out it was from Monika. My heart skipped a beat until I scolded it for acting so rashly and read the message.

M: "Hey, you."

C: "Hey Monika, what's up?"

I glance at the TV and notice an info-mercial for some nice-looking boots until I'm distracted by my phone.

M: "Well, I was going to call you and realized I didn't have your number!"

C: "Yeah I don't know why but I have like no people in my contacts….is that my cue to give you my digits?" I respond to her.

M: "Yes pleaseeee! "

I exchange my number and my phone falls silent again. A few minutes and nothing happens so I just go back to enjoying my music.

Right as I pick a song, my phone starts to buzz. I see a caller ID I don't recognize and assume it's Monika. 'Sure hope I'm right'

I answer and try to sound as dangerous as I can. "Um…Hello?"

I hear a soft giggle from the other side of the phone.

"Wow, are you trying to sound manlier or something?"

I laugh to myself and respond. "Well, yeah. I didn't know who it was!"

"You literally just gave me your number! Who else would call you? I know you don't know that many people!" She teases.

"Hey now, I'll have you know that I've had info-mercials on for the past hour or so and there was a pair of heavy-duty boots that looked rad. They could've sensed my curiosity or something!"

She laughs her cute ass laugh. "Well I'm glad you mentioned that because for the low-low price of 45.99$ you can purchase these heavy-duty boots for FREE!" She lowers her voice and tries to sound like a commercial spokesman and fails horribly.

I bust out laughing. "Oh, shut up doofus." I catch my breath and sigh.

"What are you doing my dear?" She asks me. Her voice is chirpy and slightly higher on the phone then usual but that doesn't deter her from still sounding cute. 'Wait, no. Not cute! Not cute!'

"Nothing much, just listening to music and decompressing." I respond while looking at the ceiling.

"Mhm I see. Very interesting and productive." She responds.

I chuckle and scold her. "Oh shush, like you're doing anything better."

"I'll have you know I've been cleaning my house, doing homework and working on stuff for club. So yes I have been! And don't you roll your eyes at me!"

I try not to laugh as I literally just rolled my eyes and was trying to figure out what kind of magic powers she possessed.

"Anywaysss.." She says coyly. "Do you want to meet up?"

I sit up in my chair. "Meet up?"

I can hear her pause for a second before responding. "Yeah, you know like hang out.." She pauses again. "I can come over…"

I sigh and close my eyes to think. 'Monika wants to come over…and the sun is almost down….shit just to hang out, right? Like nothing else will happen…right?'

I guess I zoned out talking to myself because Monika clears her throat on her end of the phone. "Christian? Are you there?" she nervously says.

"Oh shi-yeah, yeah I'm here. Sorry I was just thinking. I um….I don't see a problem with you coming over.." I tell her.

"Really? Okay, okay I'll be over in like…..10 minutes!" Her voices practically screams in excitement and she hangs up.

'Oh lord what did I just get myself into..' I sigh to myself as I glance around my house. It's still in order but there are some things lying out of place, like a book or two and some trash.

I get up and start cleaning up my house to prepare for my gorgeous guest that's coming over on a Thursday evening.

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I was washing my hands at the sink when I heard my door knock. I sigh and dry off my hands and walk to my door to open it. When I swing the entrance open, I'm acquainted with the green-eyed goddess herself.

"Hey, Christian." She says to me, smiling.

I bashfully smile and step aside. "Hey, come on in."

She skips on in and makes herself at home. She kicked her shoes against the mat on the ground to remove the snow that built up from her walk over. Her black trench coat she had on was taken off and hung on the coat rack, revealing a red and black long sleeve flannel shirt and some tight fighting jeans. I felt myself just staring in awe. She looked fucking incredible. I don't know how she knew my favorite colors and my love for button shirts on a lady but apparently she can read minds. Like she seriously must have some sort of magical prowess.

She twirls and takes a seat on one of the stools in the kitchen. "Like what you see, cutie?"

I cough and try to act like I was putting away her coat and failing miserably. She laughed heartily. "It's okay, I love it when you stare at me." She says seductively and winks. 'Good lord tonight's going to be a doozy' I tell myself.

I walk into my kitchen and pull out some juice and a cup. "Look, okay fine I was staring. I just think you look incredible is all." I say this while I have my back to her because I don't think I could bring myself to do it the other way.

I finish pouring the cup and turn to face her. She had her head cupped in her hands with her elbows on the counter and was staring at me, blushing. "Really? I'm glad you actually like it.." She says wistfully.

She stares dreamily at me while I avoid eye contact. "Would you um…want something to drink?"

She nods. "Are you available to drink?"

I groan and tell her no while opening my fridge for her to see if she had a request. She fake pouts and calls for the same juice that I got for myself. I pour her a glass and I sit across from her.

"What made you want to hang out?" I quizzically ask her.

She takes a drink and sets her cup down. "I just wanted to see you. I wanted to get to know you and you have stuff going on right now, so I wanted to keep you company."

I smile slightly and lay my head on my head. "Yeah? You sure it has nothing to do with you coming over to my house at night? Just the two of us?"

She bashfully smiles and avoids eye contact. "Well I mean, duh you're handsome and I would literally die to get alone time with you in any and every way buttttt….I really do just want to spend time and relax with your company."

I sigh and finish my drink. "Well, I guess I'd be lying if I said I didn't appreciate you being here." She blushes as I stand up. "All right then, lets take this party to the couch. To talk! Just to talk!" I quickly throw in before she gets any ideas.

She giggles happily and we make our way to the living area. I sit down on one of the couches and she plops right next to me. She throws her legs over mine and lays her head on my shoulder.

"Monika.." I complain.

"Christian….you know how long I've waited for anything like this? Or for you? I just wanted to feel warmth and comfort is all.." She shyly says as her voice trails off.

'Is she that starved for attention?' I think to myself.

I sigh and wrap my arm around her to pull her closer to me. Or more accurately, on me. She nuzzles her head onto my shoulder/chest and sighs happily.

My eyes sweep across her body as thoughts pop into my head. I never really paid too much attention, but the school uniform doesn't do her any justice. She is seriously curvy. Her legs are toned, and I remember hearing her say something about being athletic. I turn my attention to her shirt, which seriously brings out the green in her eyes because of the colors complimenting each other. All her physical beauty is topped off by her cute face and her mesmerizing green eyes, which I just realized I had been staring longing into.

I avert my gaze and look anywhere else, heat rising to my face. She tilts her head and smirks. "Enjoying the view, hm? You had such a hungry look in your eyes, it's making me excited." She says seductively. She wiggles her ass in my lap and at this point I'm dying of embarrassment and slight arousal.

"Sorry Monika, I literally just got distracted is all.." I stammer out. She does one last, drawn out wiggle in my lap and turns her face to mine. I feel her breath on my neck and I get goosebumps.

"You can do more than look, you know…" She whispers onto my neck, and slowly grazes my chest with her hand, lightly grasping at my shirt. Her breathing became shallow and I felt her lips gently land on my neck.

I nervously swallow and try to concentrate on anything else.

She moved her mouth slowly up to my ear. Her breathing was slow but had the intensity of a typhoon. Feeling her breath and hearing it in my ear was doing things to me that I really wish wasn't happening. She lightly nibbled on my earlobe and I felt her tongue graze my skin.

My body shuddered and I tried to keep my composure. The room was becoming increasingly hot. I heard her inhale and I closed my eyes.

"Christian…" She whispered delicately into my ear. Her voice was bleeding with lust and desire.

I sat there with my hands limp at my side, unaware of what to do with them. Her hand that was on my shirt lost its grip and began to drift down my body. When I realized where she was going, my hand snapped up and grabbed her wrist.

I felt her mouth twist into a smirk and she nibbled on my ear again. "What's the matter? Getting excited my love?"

My mind was exploding. I couldn't concentrate on anything. My mind was cluttered with hundreds of thoughts but there was only one thing that was certain that I couldn't deny; my desire for Monika.

I opened my eyes and looked down into her emerald orbs. They were filled with lust and love, like I was the single most thing that mattered to her the most at that moment. It was in this moment that I told myself that I wasn't going to fight anymore. Was it love? I had no fucking clue, but whatever the emotion is, Monika is the sole reason.

I brought a hand up under her chin and lightly pushed her face up to mine. Her eyes became half glazed and her lips were parting gently. I closed my eyes and dipped my head down, pushing my lips to hers and closing the gap between us.

The feeling was insane. My whole body got a wash of warmth from head to toe, seeping into my bones and soul. My mind blanked and all I could feel is Monika. Her lips were soft and warm, and I could feel her body falling into the kiss gently. She moaned softly as I wrapped my arms around her and reciprocated.

I broke the kiss and open my eyes. Remnants of cherry still lingered on my lips. Her breathing was haggard and low. Her eyes were half-lidded, and she had a blush on her face. I took a big breath and tried to process what just happened. I cleared my throat and attempted to speak.

"Monika…I think I have a confession."

She smirks and sits up, repositioning herself on to my lap, straddling me. She wraps her arms around my neck and pulls herself fully onto me, squeezing her breast onto mine.

"You do? And what that might be, Christian?" See says to me seductively while keeping eye contact, her smirk never fading. She slowly grinded her hips on mine and was making it very hard to concentrate.

I grab her sides and she hums happily to my touch while I take a breath so I can speak with a rational thought. "Um, so…..remember when like you were all 'Christian I love you, you're the best thing ever' and I'm all 'Oh geez that's nice but I'm fucked up' and blah blah?"

She laughs at my stupid re-enactment of our conversation. "Yes Christian, I do. What about it?" She pulls one of my hands up and kisses is tenderly before placing it to its former position.

"Well, I'm sitting here, and you're on my lap and stuff and like, I don't know what's happening but you're all like beautiful and stuff and just like existing near me and you make it hard to think properly and straight and also you just help calm my mind in the hell that is my imagination and I get this weird comfortable feeling that i've known you for awhile or something…" I just ramble on before she places a finger to my lips and giggles.

She grinds her hips on my lap again to elicit a response and I groan softly to myself. "Yes Christian, I'm in love with you too."

I blush and look away. She places her warm hand on my face and pulls it to look at her again. She has a warm smile on her face.

"Don't be embarrassed my love. It's all I've wanted. And to know I help you, it makes me really happy."

She runs her hand down to my chest and lets it idle there. I bring my hand up to hers and squeeze it.

"Yeah well, I don't know, it definitely is a nice feeling. So um, I'll try not to be too prideful and just accept that you're irresistible."

Her face flushes and has a look of desire replace her gentle look. "Irresistible, hm?" She brings her hands down and dangerously lingers at my sweat's waistband. I feel my arousal spike again and my heart starts pounding. I can tell that she knows what she's doing to me and she's enjoying every minute of it.

"Christian.." She says lowly.

"Yes..?" I respond, uncertainty hinting in my voice.

She leaned in closer to me, pressing her body to mine, and whispered "I'm all yours."

She captured my lips in a feverish kiss. I wrap my arms around her back and squeeze her body against mine. Her hands fumble around as she tries to find purchase against my chest.

I feel her tongue prod at my lips as she silently pleads for entrance. I oblige by slowly parting my lips just enough for her to deepen the kiss more. Her tongue wrestles with mine with reckless abandon, and I feel her body slowly move against mine like she can't sit still.

She rips her lips from mine and immediately latches her mouth to my jawline and neck, biting and licking everywhere she can.

She wraps her arms around my neck/shoulders and shift her body weight where we fall lengthwise on the couch. I catch myself with my arms by her head as she settles herself beneath me.

For a second, the love pouring out of the girl has slowed down enough for me to get a good look at her. She was stunning, laying there under me. She her green eyes were shining with love and passion, her brunette hair flowed all over the couch and off the sides of the furniture. Her chest was rising and falling to her breathing and I fought every urge to free her body from the fabric.

As if she could read my thoughts, she reached her hands up and gripped the bottom of my shirt, pulling it up. I grasp the base of my shirt and lift up, trying to be as elegant as possible. I hear her gasp as her fingertips softly graze the skin of my abdomen, sending shocks throughout my body.

She salivates at the sight until my shirt gets cause on my head, receiving a snort and a giggle from the brunette beauty until she sat up and helped me get it over my head. I toss the fabric to the side and look down at my prize once more.

I lean down on my elbows to lower my body onto hers, putting my lips to her neck and nibbling at her pulse. She moans softly and open hers legs wider, allowing me fall in between them.

I slowly run my tongue along her neck and move my hand up to grasp her breast. She moans at my touch and pushes her chest upward.

I level myself with my hands and look at her once again. She stares at me with seething lust, her eyes demanding that I take this further. I move my hands to her shirt buttons, slowly unbuttoning her top. My hands were shaking slightly because damnit I was nervous as hell. She takes my hand and places a soft kiss on it to reassure me that everything will be fine.

I finish unbuttoning her shirt and it opens, revealing her lime-green undergarments. I finish taking her shirt off by pulling her arms out of the sleeves and tossing her shirt aside.

I pull her up to sit on my lap as I capture her lips once more. Her arms wrap around my neck and I feel her hands on my back. I slip my tongue into her mouth and slip my hands up her back, feeling her bra-strap on my fingertips. I fumble around with the clip until it comes undone, falling limp to her waist, revealing her bare chest.

I pull back to get a look at her. She blushes but doesn't resist. She gives out a yelp of surprise as I toss her down on her back again. I bring my lips down on her neck, slowly kissing down to her chest. Her voice gives out soft moans as my hands explore her body.

My kisses reach down to her chest and pause, my hot breath tickling her skin. She arcs her back and pushes her chest up, allowing me to capture one of her nipples in my mouth.

She moaned out loud and I felt her nails lightly dig into my skin. My tongue experimentally flicked against her soft nipple, and she bucked her hips slowly on mine in response. I lured my left hand up to the remaining untouched breast and teased it as well, not wanting to favor one over the other.

Her chest moved in rhythm to her breathing, her heart rate increasing from every touch I give to her. My hand moved down past her stomach into her jeans and her breathing hitched. My fingers grazed her soft skin until they made their way into her underwear, ever closer to her core.

She moaned and squirmed under my touch. It felt good to be the one in control. Maybe it was a mental thing, where I had put in this world I knew nothing about, but in this one instance, I was in control. I decided what happened. It was exhilarating.

I used my newfound courage and dominance and took us a step further. I moved my fingers over her womanhood, whispered in her ear. "Damn right you're mine."

I felt her body shudder and I took the opportunity to enter her. Without avail, I slide my middle finger inside her, eliciting a loud moan and her griping my back. As new as this was to me, I couldn't help but feel like I had an idea on what I was doing.

I dug my finger farther as I rubbed my palm against her sensitive bundle of nerves. Her body shudder and she bucked her hips as she started to moan out loud, giving in to me.

"Fuck, Christian." She moaned. I picked up the pace of my hand, hearing her start to pant and move her hips in time with my hand. I put my lips my her ear and gently nibble on her earlobe. She grips my back fiercely, her nails starting to cut into my skin.

"Christian, I think I'm gonna…." Her thought is interrupted by her own moan as she feels herself growing closer and closer to climax. "Please baby, don't stop" She begs to me.

I grip her breast and drive my finger faster into her until she cries out, wrapping her legs around my waist and shaking like a leaf. I lay myself on top of her body and let her ride out her climax.

A few moments pass and her body movements calm down. She stares at me with passion and her eyes well up. "Christian, I love you so damn much."

I lean down and kiss her passionately, savoring the moment. She wraps her arms around my neck and holds me tight.

"I'm going to be honest with you.." I tell her, breaking the comfortable silence. "I don't really know what I'm doing."

Monika giggles and sneaks a kiss. "You definitely could've fooled me. I can't believe you've been keeping all this love to yourself. Especially from me!" She teases me and while giving me her loving stare.

I just chuckle and rub the back of my head. "Yeah well, you already know why…" I falter while I feel slightly guilty. She must've sensed the sudden dour emotion that took over me because she immediately leaned up and gave me a soft, loving kiss.

I allowed the warmth to spread throughout my body and reciprocated. I felt her hand caress my abdomen and venture further down. I break the kiss and look down at her. Her emerald eyes bore up at me and she bit her lip. I felt my whole body ache with arousal.

I stood up and as smooth as I could, took off my pants and boxers. I get back in position and felt a wash of nervousness and embarrassment over my body. I look at her face and she had a look of awe.

She reached down and pawed at my member, causing it to flinch in her hand and me to moan slightly. She excitedly began to unbutton her own pants and I helped her to take off the remaining clothes she had on and toss them across the couch.

We both laid there in silence. I scan my eyes all over her body. She was a goddess. She blushed lightly and smiled. "You look stunning as hell." I tell her. She giggled embarrassingly and pulled my face down for a kiss.

I pressed my body against hers and felt her warm skin. My mind was hazy, the sensation was overwhelming. I felt like every square inch on my body was hyperactive, completely aware of when she was touching and where, amplifying all sensations tenfold.

I moved my hands up her torso to grab her breast. She moans in my mouth and grinds her hips against mine, rubs my member against her aroused opening. I pinch her nipple and prod her opening with the tip of my member. She gives a cute moan before breaking the kiss.

"Christian please, I can't wait any longer." She pleads at me, wiggling her hips, causing my member to graze her womanhood. I moan quietly and place I kiss on her forehead. I put my hands in hers and interlock our fingers.

"Ready, dove?" I ask her. Her eyes glisten and she kisses me passionately in response.

I slowly push my hips forward until I feel my tip touch her opening. She gasps but doesn't complain, so I keep going. As I pushed myself in, her body shuddered and she moaned. I felt stars explode behind my eyes as she completed sheathed my member.

When I was fully in, I laid still. Monika was panting against my neck and I could feel her nails gently biting into my skin. I gently kissed her temple and moved my hips. Her cute moans echoed throughout the room and she bucked her hips in response. Her breast dragged against my chest as she moved her body in rhythm to mine.

As awkward as I was with my movements, it didn't take us long to find a rhythm together. I began to pick up the pace and she dug her nails into my back. She bore open-mouthed kisses on my neck and shoulders, trails of saliva being left in its wake every time she tore her mouth away.

I move my mouth down to capture a nipple in my mouth. She arched her back in response and ran her fingers through my hair. My instincts turned primal, every movement I made, every sound, I did without thinking. Grabbing her body, squeezing and thrusting, it felt so natural.

She wrapped her legs around my waist and started being more vocal. I gently bit down on her nipple and pushed myself in with more force and she screamed to the heavens. She griped me hard like she was holding on for dear life.

"Jesus Christ, Christian! I'm gonna-Ah!" She started crying out and whimpering to the heavens as her orgasm took over. I grunted as I felt her insides start to tighten as a result, shooting waves of pleasure through out my body. My mind blanked and I felt my thrusts started to stutter as I reached my own climax, pushing into her completed. I gripped her sides and rode out my orgasm, thrusting softly into her until I was spent.

…..

The euphoria from the experience began to fade as I controlled my breathing. I propped myself up to look at my lover, who had her eyes closed and her hands grasping at her heart.

I leaned up and kissed her forehead. "Hey there sweetheart, you doing okay?"

Her eyes fluttered open and she landed them on mine. A smile spread across her face and she reached a hand up to stroke my cheek.

"Christian that was incredible! It felt so good and It was everything I could have ever wished for." She ran her fingers along my cheek and stared longingly into my eyes.

I sighed and grinned without realizing it. Her smile turned into a smirk.

"What's got you so smiley? Hm? Does loving me feel amazing?" She teased me while running kisses up and down my arm. I smirked and stole her lips in a kiss.

"Maybe…just a bit!" I tell her. She fake pouted and crossed her arms.

"Only a little bit? I guess I'm not good enough after all…" She replies.

I rolled my eyes playfully and kissed her cheek. "Just kidding, just kidding.."

I sat up and got off the couch. I grabbed my pair of sweats and threw them on so I wasn't completely nude off my ass. She picked up my shirt to throw on but complained about not wanting to wear her jeans. I ran up to my room to grab myself a clean shirt and her an extra pair of sweats I had so she could be comfortable.

I gave her the pants and she threw them on, looking extra cute garbed up in my clothes. We plopped our asses on my couch and she snuggled up to me, sighing happily. I turned on the television and laid my head back on the couch.

"Soo.." Monika says, breaking the silence between us. "Are we a couple?" She started kissing my cheek repeatedly, cause me to chuckle and keep my face as far as I can while she sat in my lap.

"I mean, I dunno, I guess so. It's still all so weird and I don't want to do anything too crazy or fast.." I responded.

I look at her and she had her eyebrows furrowed but held a smirk.

"Christian, you do realize we literally just had sex, right?" She tells me.

"Well I mean yeah, but-" I tried saying but she interrupts me.

"No buts! I'm not talking about getting married right now you doofus!" She poked my cheek while name-calling. "I just need to know that after this you aren't just going to go back to pushing me aside and avoiding me."

I looked at her face and understood what she meant. She was the only one in a world she was stuck in and was luckily enough to have me come into her life and reciprocate her love. She was scared I would use her or just leave when I was done. Which I was not about.

I leaned over and stole her lips in a kiss. "Monika, you literally forced my love to overtake my pride. I'm not going anywhere."

She giggled and blushed and grabbed my face again for a kiss. I felt her smile form on my lips and she pulled away. "You know..."

I looked for her to finish but she innocently looked everywhere but me, baiting me to ask.

"I know…what?" I ask. She leaned her head on my shoulder and held my hand in her own, looking it over like she was inspecting it.

"Since we're together now….we don't hide things, right?" She asks me, kissing my palm.

"I mean, I would assume not." I reply, uncertain on where she was going with the conversation.

"So…..you mentioned in the club that you had some stuff plaguing you….can you share them with me?"

I hesitate. It's not exactly the best thing that has been on my mind. I could barely bring it up to Sayori, who legitimately has depression. I don't know if I could tell everything to my new lover.

She squeezed my hand and draws my gaze. Her eyes have love, yes, but also an overwhelming sense of concern.

"Christian…please." She tells me, her voice slightly shaking.

I lean over and place a kiss on her forehead. She relaxes her head on my shoulder and runs her finger over in my palm.

"I don't even know where to start.." I begin.

She kisses my palm. "It's okay my love. Take your time."

I sigh and kiss her head. 'Jesus I think I actually do love this girl.' I tell myself. She does make everything much easier with her compassion.

"Well, I've been having nightmares about the club girls." I start. She doesn't say anything so feel its safe to continue.

"I don't know why, or what's triggering them, but I've just had such lucid dreams about the girls. Well, more specifically Sayori and Yuri."

She sits there silent. Her head is on my shoulder so I can't exactly see her expression.

"Do you remember the details of the dreams?" She says, her voice guarded.

I clear my throat before continuing. "Er-yeah, it was pretty real. The first one I had was from Sayori. I actually had it right before your first visit, the night of the first day that I don't remember anything."

I pause to see if she had any input before continuing. "It was weird. I was in darkness, like no specific place or setting, just what I assume was the dream world. There was a gravely, sinister voice and it seemed like it was taunting me. Telling me I can't save anyone or I will fail, stuff like that. After a few of his lines, it's like I could see a scene but I was there. I saw someone hanging and then the body started speaking to me. I could recognize the voice but couldn't place it. Then, the body looked at me and I realized it was Sayori. She was saying I killed her. That's when I woke up."

She turned her head up to me and kissed my chin. The air seemed much more serious than it had before and it concerned me. She didn't really make any particular comment though, just insisted me to continue in a flat tone.

"Well, the Yuri dream was the most recent one. It happened last night. We were in the clubroom and it was dusk, so I assume that the setting was after school. The same sinister voice was taunting me, and it was just me and Yuri. She looked the same but was much more…..assertive. She kept saying things about her love for me, which normally if a pretty girl was saying she loved you would be cool but her body language and demeanor clearly shown that she had something wrong. But when she asked if I felt the same, I was finally able to say no. She then stabbed herself to death in front of me, saying that I killed her or that we can be together forever or someshit. That was that dream too."

I finish with a sigh, mostly because I hated having to recall them. It for some reason drained me mentally.

Monika seemed to shake in my lap. I placed a kiss on head. "Monika? What are your thoughts, baby?"

She takes a shakey breath and turns her face to mine.

"Christian…..those dreams are like the game."

I must've had a quizzical look on my face because I didn't even need to respond for her to continue.

"In the original game, each of the girls had a problem. Sayori had depression, Yuri was prone to self-harm, and Natsuki had an abusive father and was malnourished. During the course of the game, their traits would be amplified. For example, Sayori's depression would be increased and she….committed suicide. Yuri's obsessive quality was increased ten-fold and she pretty much prevented everyone else in the club from making contact to you so she could have you to herself." She finished her sentence and took a shaky breath.

"What amplified their traits?" I ask Monika. She flinched like someone yelled or raise a fist at her. She looked up at me but remained quiet.

"Monika…" I asked, pouring more concern and assertiveness into my tone. "I've been being haunted with these dreams, tell me what happened."

Tears started to fall from her face. Clearly concerned, I wiped the first few away.

"Christian…do you remember when I told you that you were the protagonist in a romance game and all the girls had like…chances with you but me?"

I simply nodded my head.

"Well, because I was self-aware of the game, I had certain privileges and could access the games code. Because it was just a game, I was obviously upset that I was the only one that could understand love and didn't get it.." She faltered and looked at me nervously before continuing. "..so I kind of altered the girls in the game to make them less appealing to you so you could be with me. But that backfired and everything went haywire anyways."

She finished and looked at me, awaiting a response. I just stared pensively at the wall straight ahead and processed what she said.

"So…" I say, my tone stern. "You, in the game, made all the girls faults increase which made them become extremely fucked up and commit suicide, and that probably has something to do with my nightmares?"

She softly nods her head. I scooch her off my lap, onto the couch and I stand up.

"Monika, you were jealous for something that a player had no control over, so you amplified the girls negative qualities which led to catastrophic casualties just so you can get love?" I said in disbelief.

She avoided eye contact. I could see the tears pouring from her face.

"They weren't real, were just scripts-" She starts but I cut her off.

"Monika! Do you hear yourself? You're justifying killing these girls because they 'weren't real', but then you drag me out of my own life into this world, where it becomes completely real, and I am stuck with these nightmares of the girls becoming completely insane, which may or may not be influencing how they actually act now because this may still be a game?"

My voice came out hoarse and assertive, almost a half yell. She flinched at my words.

"Christian, there's no way this can be like the game, it's just so real now.." She stutters out, her eyes darting all around the room.

"Do you remember day one of my experience in the club? With Yuri and Natsuki fighting? You seemed very aware that it was a bad situation. And what about Yuri's weird behavior today?" At this point, I was pacing around the room, but keeping my stern tone. "Now knowing she has obsessive qualities, I can one hundred percent believe that the same instances are occurring! And Sayori!"

I practically yelled Sayori's name at Monika. She just looked at me with the face of a lost puppy, unable to stop the onslaught of tears raining from her eyes.

"All she did today was be distant! She was quiet, kept to herself, and when we walked home she literally told me that she wishes she could disappear! The same events are happening Monika!"

I stand there, ten feet away from her, shaking where I stood. Monika's gaze was dead set on the ground.

She abruptly stood up and made her way to my front door, grabbing her trench coat in the process.

"Monika.." I start but she already was throwing her second arm into her sleeve and opening the door. She walked out without a word.

I quickly slide my feet into a pair of sneakers that were sitting by the door and take off after her.

The sun had gone completely down and the only illumination was from streetlights littered throughout the roads and the moon that had a soft glow with it. Monika must've started running because she was nowhere in sight.

My adrenaline kicked in and I took off running, following the footsteps that Monika left.

The air was cold. It bit into my skin and I had no protection because I left my jacket at my house. All I could hear was the sounds of my tired breaths from running and the crunching of snow beneath my feet. My adrenaline was wearing off and I was becoming for anxious. I didn't want to leave Monika alone out here in the cold.

After following the tracks for ten minutes, I realized they led to the park that I went to the other night when I went for a stroll. I walked the path towards the playground equipment and saw a figure, sitting on the steps of a jungle gym. As I approached, I confirmed it was Monika.

I walked up next to her quietly (well, as quiet as I can with the fucking loud crunching of the snow) and sat next to her. There was snow on the steps so when I sat down, my ass was immediately greeted with the cold embrace of the cold precipitation.

There was silence between us. There was no breeze tonight so the air was still. The ground was a beautiful shade of white, twinkling in the soft glow from the moonlight.

"I had no choice, you know." Monika states out of the quiet. I turn to look at her. She had a hardened stare, fixated in front of her. "As much as I knew what was going on, I still was bound to the code and how the game played out."

Her voice cracked as she talked, like any moment she could break down.

"You don't understand the hell that this was. I was alone, Christian. Alone in a world I knew that I didn't truly belong in. I had control of the game, well to a certain degree I guess, and I did what I thought would help me be happy. After a certain point, I realized the events would just keep happening over and over again."

She stared in silence once again. Tears once again took claim of her cheeks but she didn't bother wiping them. I softly grabbed her chin and turned her face to mine. Her emerald eyes glowed in the moonlight, sparkling from her tears. She sniffled and stared into my eyes. I saw her expression soften after looking at me.

"Monika.." I say softly. I cup her head in my hands and use my thumbs to wipe away her flowing tears. I feel her head lean into my hands for comfort. I pulled her face in and pressed my lips to hers. The kiss spread warmth throughout my body, which was a nice contrast to the cold air that surrounded us.

I pulled away and stared into her eyes. "Can I tell you something?"

She lightly nodded, not taking her eyes off me.

"I love you." 'Um? Where the fuck did that come from?' I tell myself. Maybe it's because of how she looked, how dire everything was, or the emotional high I had from earlier but I wanted to make her feel better. Why did I tell her I love her? Well, I'd like to say that I just made it up on the spot to calm her but something in me was telling me that maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic who falls easily. Either way, I think it worked.

Her body fell into mine and I wrapped my arms around her. She began sobbing into my chest uncontrollable. I rubbed her back and kissed the top of her head, trying to calm her.

"Christian, I promise I did what I did because *hic* It was wh-what I thought was b-best at the time." She stammered out. I squeezed her tight, partially to comfort her and partially because it was really cold without a jacket.

"Monika, take a deep breath, love," I whisper to her. I do a show of inhaling deep and exhaling, making sure she does the same. She take some breaths and I feel her slowly regaining her composure.

"Listen, I want you to understand something." I start telling her. "Sure, the circumstances are dire, and this isn't exactly a happy go-lucky scenario. But I don't hate you for anything. Especially now. It's clear you just want to live your life, especially given how it's way more real than before. I'm not going to fault you for that."

She looks up at me with sadness. "I don't want you to push me away. I brought you into this world, was finally able to feel you and feel true love, but it seems to have the same problems with the girls, if not worse. Now you're stuck to re-live them. I'm so stupid, I brought you more pain than I originally thought I could." She faltered, her voice threatening a breakdown.

I squeeze her. "Monika, shut your cute ass mouth. I won't push you away. I can't push you away. You did what you thought at the time was best. Hindsight is always twenty-twenty, so don't beat yourself up. The only thing I ask is that you help me."

She looks into my eyes and sighs. "Help you with what?"

"Well, the girls clearly are fucked up. I don't remember how the game went but… I want to help them. I want to fix them. As much as I can anyways."

She stared at me but I could tell her gears were turning in her head.

"How….?" She asked me.

"Honestly I have no damn clue. Sayori is already showing signs of super duper depression and I can tell Yuri already finger blasts herself to me-" Monika pinches my arm. "-Ouch! Hey, I was just kidding! At any rate, I just want to befriend them all the best I can. Unfortunately, it was a romance game so they probably expect me to want each of them.."

We fall silent for a second like we were both thinking.

"Do you still have access to the game? Or like code or something?" I ask her.

She audibly sighs and closes her eyes for a few moments.

"I'm not sure. It always used to be at my fingertips but now its…different. Like we've stated before, this is like reality."

She had frustration in her voice. I gently stroked her back in reassurance.

"What else could we do? I mean I could just try to be friends with everyone and share my time equally so no one feels left out." I offer. I'm not exactly sure how easy or hard that would be but I can try.

She sighs and grips my chest. "I guess that can be a start. But if you think I'm going to sit back and let you get close to the other girls.." She turns her head up to meet mine. "You got another thing coming, mister."

I chuckle and kiss her forehead. "I feel like I'm going to have my hands full for awhile…" I tell her.

I gaze over the snow-fallen earth around us. As beautiful as it was, it literally felt like my soul was freezing.

"Er-Monika, do you want to….like get somewhere warm?" I ask her.

She locks her eyes with mine. "Sure, but you know we live in separate directions.." She says.

I sigh and avert my gaze. She grabs my chin to look at her. "Can I stay with you tonight?"

I felt my mouth creep into a smile. Apparently that was enough of an answer for her because she swarmed my face with kisses and abruptly yanked me to my feet and we took off for my house.

…

I finish throwing on a t-shirt as I take a peek at my phone. "10:22". At least it wasn't too terribly late. I placed my phone on my nightstand and heard Monika impatiently clear her throat.

"Are you just going to stand there or are you going to come love me?" She says, a smirk on her lips and a teasing look in her eye.

She's wearing one of my shirts, an over-sized one at that which looked adorable on her, and no bottoms but her underwear. 'I could get used to this' I joke to myself as I roll my eyes on her and crawl into my bed.

She latches onto my chest and sends a barrage of cherry-scented kisses all over my face. I squeeze her sides to retaliate, causing her to screech and squirm, apparently very ticklish to the touch. I keep my death grip on her and now she's laughing uncontrollably. I end up sitting on top of her before she starts tapping on my chest.

"Okay, okay Christian you win, please let go." She pants at me, catching her breath. I just smirk down at her and laugh.

"Looks like I found a weakness, that I will one hundred percent exploit to maintain ultimate dominance." I tease down at her.

She fake pouts and crosses her arms. "That's no fair. You big 'ol ass face." I laugh at her poor choice of words and look down at her. She bites her lip and eyes me up and down.

"You know, Christian.." She starts, lightly palming my waist. "If you want to maintain ultimate dominance, there's definitely one way you can do that…" She slips her fingertips into my waistband.

I felt the familiar arousal from before fire up within me as I look down at my goddess.

"Oh yeah? And what would that be my dear?" I tease her.

She grips my waistband and looks me in the eyes.

"Take off your pants. Now."