Part 20
Barry took a deep breath and knocked on Caitlin's door. He heard a grumble before the door opened. He looked at Caitlin. She was dressed in only an old STAR labs t-shirt that was a bit big on her as it hung off her shoulder a little, and a pair of shorts.
"What do you want Barry?"
"Uh well I need to talk to you. Mind if I come in?"
"Yeah sure."
Caitlin walked away from the door leaving it open. Barry followed her into the room closing the door behind him. It wasn't until he was inside her noticed the room was colder then the rest of the building. He shivered slightly. Caitlin noticed his discomfort and waved her hand causing the cool fog in the room to disappear.
"It will take a few minutes to warm up. But it will still be cooler than the rest of the building. I can get uncomfortable above sixty degrees when I am as weak as I am right now. I took in too much heat while I was in that place." Said Caitlin
"Getting rid of the fog has helped some. Cait are you feeling ok?"
"Better than when I was at your crazy ex's mercy."
"I'm sorry that you were treated so badly by Iris. I don't understand what happened to her. Joe didn't raise her to be like that."
"You have nothing to apologize for. Barry, you aren't responsible for her actions."
"I know. But it doesn't change the fact that you should never have been treated like that."
"I know. But it happened. Barry, I will recover. No matter what they did to me there I was not going to give in to what they wanted. The mind control alien worm thing. It did control me to a degree. It couldn't make me kill because I am not a killer. Psi, uh a meta that Kara went against couldn't use her physic powers on me because I had already conquered my greatest fear. Losing control and becoming Killer Frost. Though Frost never killed anyone that wasn't in self defense."
"Like the Nazis."
"Right. Now Barry what did you want to talk about?"
"You told me about your feelings for me. I think it's time I told you my feelings. Something that I didn't fully realize until something Barbara said to me. It was similar to what I told you when we were looking for a new partner for Professor Stein."
"You mean about great possibilities being right in front of us. But not seeing them because we choose not to?"
"Yeah. It was in that moment I realized that while I always noticed that you are this beautiful smart and kind woman. I never told you. Even when you have white hair and blue lips. But looking back I realized I have been in love with you since I first laid eyes on you. When you told me that you wanted me to pee in that cup. Caitlin Snow, I am hopelessly madly in love with you."
Caitlin smiled knowing that he was being honest with her. She then bit her lip knowing that she had to tell him what Lex and Eiling did to her. To both of them in away.
"Barry, there is something you need to know. According to Harry, Lex and Eiling decided to use me for an experiment. First you should know that there is a meta that can control time in a limited area."
"Ok."
"I don't know all the details but an embryo was created using both yours and mine genetic material. I am now round a month pregnant with that baby."
"Tell me what you want from me. I mean I want to be apart of our child's life."
"I knew you would be like this. I don't know what I want right now. But rest assured I am going to have this baby. Even if it has come into our lives in a less then conventional way."
"Cait, I know you wouldn't kill an innocent life. By the way I think Kara suspects that you are pregnant. She asked me all kinds of questions about what I would do if you were. She also asked me if I had my memory of you, but lived in a world where you never existed. I told her that I couldn't live in a world without you. Knowing that you existed in a different reality. But I would be ok in one without knowing Iris."
"Well, that is nice to know. I seem to remember telling right before crisis that you saved my life."
"Yeah uh we never talked about that. I know when we met that you were still grieving."
"It was more than that Barry. When I told you I had given up on just about everything. I was telling you the truth. If I hadn't gotten the call to treat you while in the coma. I may have taken my own life. You truly did save my life by coming into it. While you were in the coma, you gave me a reason to live. To save your life was to save my own."
"Cait, why have you never talked about this before?"
"I don't know. I couldn't tell Cisco. He would have freaked out."
"True. Cait, I don't know what is going to happen between us. But I do want to try. I want to see if we could be happy together."
"I would like that. But we need to go slow. No rushing things Flash."
"Just don't go freezing me out Frosty."
"Watch it. You do know at some point my hormones will go crazy."
"Just let me know if you have any cravings. I promise that I will get you anything you want."
"Well for starters nothing Iris cooks. I am convinced she was making my food."
"Speaking of food. You really need to eat."
"I know. But promise me one thing. When we find Iris and Lex, you let me have a piece of them."
"Cait, I would never deny you that. Because I know that you will never cross the line and kill either of them. That isn't who you are."
"I am glad that you know that about me. Iris was always calling me Killer Frost and saying that deep down I am nothing but a killer."
Barry pulled Caitlin into a hug as she started to cry. He held her as she finally broke after everything thing she had been through recently.