One month later*
-Katsuki's P.O.V.-
It's been a whole month since Deku died. Auntie Inko held a funeral for him a week after he um passed, but I didn't want to go, not when I know I'm the reason for his death. Auntie Inko would probably not even allow me to have go because it's my fault. It's all my fault that she lost her only son. She'll never see him again and it's because of me and my stupid quirk.
You could say I haven't really been the same as before. De- Izuku's death really impacted me, a lot more than anyone would have thought, more than I would of thought. His death impacted me to the point where I made the decision to stop using my quirk.
To others it seems darn stupid reason to not use there own quirk, but this quirk I posses is the whole reason why Izuku is dead. This quirk it's very existence caused him so much pain and sadness to the point he left this world.
Other than that I refuse to eat, I can't stand the thought of eating without feeling nauseous. I've gotten skinny a really unhealthy amount of skinny; it got to the point where you could see my ribs though my shirt. At first my mom tried to get me to eat she tried everything, but I just couldn't think of eating. I refused it all the time so eventually she gave up.
Another things is I can't sleep because I'm plagued with nightmares from his death. I wake up in a cold sweat every night while tears run down my face. It's the same dream over and over again, I stand at the bottom of our middle school building as I watch Izuku fall to his death. Then he comes back to life only to blame me that his death was my fault. When I do fall asleep though it's at random times throughout the day. It can be 11 in the morning and I can just randomly fall asleep because of exhaustion only to wake back up an hour later because of the nightmares.
I haven't left my room since that day either. I don't get up from my bed much either. The only time I get up is to go to the restroom, I don't even bother to take a shower, disgusting I know, I'm disgusted with myself anyway. The rest of the time I'm just laying on my bed curled up on myself doing nothing but silently crying.
So right now here I am laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling and contemplating how I could of stopped all this from happening and where it started, and of course it all started with my quirk. My stupid life destroying quirk.
-Izuku's P.O.V.-
No one can see me. No one can hear me. I feel so lonely. I watch my mom as she cries and cries grieving for her son, for me, knowing I can never be in her life again.
"M-mom, I'm right here," I whisper as I lift my hand in an attempt to touch her, but my hand just goes right through.
Right...I'm dead.
I realized I couldn't touch anything a while after I came back to wonder the living world.
Flash Back to after Izuku died*
I suddenly sit up with a gasp (Do ghost gasp?). I look around me and see I'm sitting on the ground. Huh that's weird, why is there no pain? I was literally in pain a few second ago. I look down and I don't see any blood on me nor anything broken.
That's odd?
I get up to check if I'm not just imagining everything. I slowly lift myself up from the ground I cautiously take a step toward then another.
Why aren't I in any pain?
I walk around and finally I realize where I am. I'm outside my school. I continue to walk around until I cross the pond that's outside of the school. I look inside and sadness envelops me when I see my notebook with koi fishes trying to noble at it
It's not food.
I reach in to try and grab bit my hand just goes right through it.
Huh?
I try again in the hopes my eyes were merely playing tricked on me, but yet again my hand passes right through it. I try again and again but to no success my hand just keeps going through it no matter what. That's is when I realized though that something wasn't right.
Flash Back ends*
sigh* I miss my mom so much, I wish she could see me but alas she can't because I'm dead and she can't see dead people. I wish I could comfort her tell her I'm alright, that everything is going to be fine. But I know it's not, I'm dead that's enough of a reason for her to cry. Because I'm gone and she'll never see me again. Oh how I wish she could though. (What am I writing?)
I sigh again as I look around me, then I start walking out of the house. Maybe I should go visit Kacchan. I haven't seen him yet after I died, he's probably happy I'm finally gone. After all he always told me it would be better off if I was dead and gone from his life.
Tiny Time skip to Kacchan's house*
I don't think I've ever been more wrong in my life. When I arrived at his house he looked broken? I've never seen him like this before he seemed so out of it, just lying in him bed. As I took a closer look at him I see he had red, puffy eyes with tears still streaming down them and into his pillow.
Not only that but he also has very dark bags that hang under his eyes, and that only shows how little sleep he has gotten. Lastly upon further observation his face looks gaunt. You can clearly see his cheekbones poking out. If that's what his face looks like then I don't want to know how the rest of his body looks like.
Dang it when was the last time you slept or eaten Kacchan?
I sigh as I carefully walk over to his bed-side(?)and see him slowly blink before sitting up. He turns toward the direction I am at and a look of complete horror passes over his face. He tries to back away on the bed, but he only gets tangled up with the covers.
He looks up, still with horror written on his face and says, "D-De- Izuku how-how are you h-here?."
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Well that took a while to update.
Not very long -3-
Sorry about that owo.
Anyhow hope you enjoyed the chapter uwu