Title: Uncomfortable

Author: Forsaken2003

Pairing: S/X

Rating: PG13

Disclaimer: I own none, all belong to Joss Whedon

Comments: Always welcomed!

Summary: Spike learns something new about Xander

Warnings/Spoilers: Season 5

Beta'd by: Unbeta'd

Note: Sorry, not a very good title!

Spike and Xander had been casually dating for the last month. They haven't had sex yet but they have had multiple make out sessions. During those make out sessions Spike noticed something about Xander. Anytime he would place his hand on Xander's neck or back he would flinch away and this look would appear on his face. Spike tried not to touch him there but when you are in a heavy snog fest your brain kind of shuts down. Like now.

They were on Xander's couch not watching the movie they put on. Spike's hands started off on Xander's legs but one of them had a mind of its own and slid up Xander's body and planted itself on Xander's neck.

Xander instantly flinched and stood up his shoulders tense. "I need a beer, want one?"

What the hell? "I've never turned down a beer before, not gonna start now."

With a nod Xander disappeared into the kitchen. When he got to the fridge instead of opening it he bang his head against it a couple times. "What is wrong with you? Spike, already knows you're a loser he doesn't need to think your a weirdo too!"

"I don't think you're a loser or a weirdo," Spike said from the kitchen entrance. He got up off the couch when he heard the banging to investigate. "I won't lie and say I'm not confused why you react like that."

"I don't know. I just don't like how it feels. It makes me feel physically sick and anxious." Xander's shoulder's and neck rolled as he thought about it.

Spike walked closer to Xander. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because you are a touchy feely vampire. I'm guessing you have been since Drusilla turned you. I like you... like a lot and didn't want you to bail on this." Xander motioned between the two of them.

"You are... an idiot," Spike said with a smile on his face. "I like you a lot too, you git. So you don't like having your neck and back touched. That just means it's something I have to work on not doing. I'm not saying it's gonna be easy but I want you to be comfortable with me." He walked up to Xander and placed his hands on his cheeks. "I want to do whatever I can to make you happy."

Xander smiled back. "Do you know what would make me happy?" He didn't wait for Spike to answer. "If we went from casual dating to official boyfriend/boyfriend status."

Spike's eyes widened. "That's really what you want?" He received a shy smile. He kissed Xander on the lips. "I would love to be your boyfriend."

"Really? This is awesome! I'm dating the hottest person in our group!" Xander wrapped his arms around Spike.

A snort escaped Spike's lips. He brought his hands up to wrap around Xander but stopped himself and focused on where to put his hands.

Xander seemed to sense his hesitation and took Spike's hands and placed them around the his waist. "This spot's isn't too bad."

"I'll remember that," Spike promised.

"Want to go back to the living room and finish not watching the movie?" Xander asked.

Spike pulled away and took Xander's hand. "Don't have to ask me twice."

The movie was over and the credits were playing but Xander had more important things to do than to turn off the DVD player.

The End