Halfcrazy, a scandal fanfic

I'm on a plane right night and decided to write. Well, as you all know (or don't) I love basing my one-shots off of songs that I love so much. This one is no different. I hope you guys enjoy it! It's been a long time! If you are wondering what song this is I am using its called Halfcrazy by Musiq Soulchild

Olivia couldn't help play the conversation over in her head. It was like a loop

"If you truly can't choose who you want to be with then we don't need to together!"

"Olivia, I love you but I still feel for her too."

She swore that if he ever popped back up she wouldn't take him back. She swore that she had moved passed him. She swore she didn't need him in her life.

"I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET YOU BACK INTO MY LIFE! I WAS DOING JUST FINE BEFORE YOU POPPED BACK UP! I FUCKING HATE YOU!"

"GO BE WITH HER SINCE YOU STILL FEEL FOR HER!"

See Olivia and Fitz started off as close friends. They met at Princeton University their freshman year and they kicked it off pretty well. They had been the best of buddies throughout college. All of their friends always thought something else was going on but they both denied it. Until one night Fitz had confessed his feelings for her. It had shaken her because she had felt the same as he did. They decided to take their friendship to the next step. Their relationship was even better than their friendship. They were together for a year and a half when things started to go downhill for them. It was constant arguing, fussing and stress. Fitz proposed that they should take a break for a while, but their break turned into a break up after he admitted that he had got drunk one night and hooked up with a chick they had gone to school with. Oliva couldn't take him back after that. She vowed that she'd never get back with him again. A year later she found someone else but she couldn't fully commit to him because she was still in love with Fitz. Edison was a very nice man but he wasn't him, he wasn't Fitz. Olivia realized she couldn't continue with Edison and broke up with him. She heard Fitz had also moved on with someone new and she knew that it was over. She would never get the love of her life back. Olivia went full force with her work and tried to shove Fitz in the back of mind. Months later she had heard through a grapevine that Fitz was single and by the grapevine, it was Abby's big mouth that told her because she wanted them to get back together. Olivia wasn't seeing that happen even though she was still in love with him. That was until she was invited to Quinn's wedding and Quinn had invited Fitz as well. Olivia almost wanted to decline but she had to show up to her best friend's wedding. Olivia saw Fitz there and they had a small conversation and exchanged numbers so they could catch up and they did. They caught up and rekindled their friendship and that friendship turned into them backsliding. Little did she know he was still kind of dealing with his ex, even though she thought he wasn't. She was hurt AGAIN!

Now Olivia couldn't help but think why. Why her? Why hurt me? She kept replaying all of the good times they shared, the bad times, the ups and the downs. He had promised her that he would never hurt her but he did. He hurt her. She was trying to realize where she went wrong. What did she do? Olivia sat there crying, in the middle of her bedroom floor with a bottle of grey goose. Her usual glass of red wine wasn't strong enough to make her forget about him. So she sat there drinking and listening to record player. One of her favorite artists was singing in the background. She took a swig out of the bottle and started to cry even more as the song started to play.

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

La la.

Never thought that we would ever be more than friends

Now I'm all confused cuz for you, I have deeper feelings

We both thought it was cool to cross the line

And I was convinced it would be alright

Now things are strange, nothings the same

And really I just want my friend back

And my mind's gone half crazy cuz I can't leave you alone

(Oh can't get you out of my system)

And I wonder if, if it's worth me holding on (holding on)

Said my mind's gone half crazy cuz I can't leave you alone

(can't get you out of my system)

And I wonder if, if it's worth me holding on

Olivia cried harder as she realized these same lyrics she was listening to was exactly how she felt. When she and Fitz first met she didn't think that their friendship would become more than just strictly a friendship. She wants to be with him oh so desperately. He just doesn't know who he wants. Olivia wasn't about to be an eenie meenie mo choice. If he couldn't truly find that she was the better one she didn't want parts of him.

I'd to hate walk away from you as if this never existed

Cause when we kissed, the moment after I looked at you different (yea)

Lately, I gotta watch what I say

Cause you take things personal nowadays

You used to laugh now you get mad

Damn, I just want my friend back

She continued to sip and listen to the music that was blaring through her apartment. She needs to get him out of her system, but she simply can't. Olivia reaches for her phone to call him. She needs to see him, she has to prove to him that she's the one.

And my mind's gone half crazy cuz I can't leave you alone

(Oh can't get you out of my system)

And I wonder if, if it's worth me holding on (holding on)

Said my mind's gone half crazy cuz I can't leave you alone

(can't get you out of my system)

And I wonder if, if it's worth me holding on

Oh oh oh oh oh yeah

What happened to the one I used to know (oh yeah yeah)

The one I used to laugh and joke with

The one I used to tell all my secrets

We used to chill and be down for

Whatever

Whenever

Together yeah

She dialed his number but she couldn't tap that little green button to call him. Her pride wouldn't let her. She didn't want to seem like the weak one when shes the one who knows what she wants. Olivia decided that she would just leave him and the situation alone. She had noticed that the song had stopped playing so that meant it was time to flip her vinyl over to the other side. As she got up to put a new vinyl in she heard knocks at her door. Olivia got up and stumbled over to the door. She figured it was one of the neighbors asking her to turn her music down. When she goes to the door she didn't bother to look through the peephole.

"I'll turn it down." She sniffled, looking up at the person who was standing at the door.

She was surprised to see Fitz standing there. Olivia stood, glancing at him.

"Liv. I'm sorry " He spoke with such distress in his voice.

Olivia couldn't help but break down again. Fitz rushed to her and embraced her in his arms. All Olivia could do was cry. The liquor that she consumed didn't make her situation any less easy. He could tell that she had been drinking and he felt bad that he was the reason for the state she was in now. Fitz hated seeing her cry over him. It didn't feel good.

"Livvie can I please come in so we can talk?"

Oliva shook her head yes. With that being said he walked them inside her apartment and closed the door behind him. Olivia walked over to the couch and sat down. Fitz followed her and sat right next to her.

"Do you hate me?" He asked, looking her dead in the eyes.

Olivia shook her head no.

"Then why did you tell me you fucking hated me?"

Olivia shrugged her shoulders.

"Liv, talk to me."

She opened her mouth to talk. "Why her Fitz? Why did you choose Mellie over me?" Tears started to flow.

He sighed. "I never said I wanted to be with her Olivia. I simply said that I love you, but I still have some sort of feeling for her. You do have to realize that she and I were in a relationship after we broke up, but I now know who and what I want. I don't want her. She was just there for me after we had broken up, but I had to let her go because she isn't who I need nor want to be with. "

Olivia wiped her face off with the sleeve of the shirt she had on. "Why even come back to me if you still had some sort of feelings for her?"

"Because I know now that it is you that I belong with, yes granted I have slight feelings for her but that doesn't mean I was going to choose her instead of you. We've been through so much together! You're the one for me. I know now. I'm in love with you, not her but you! You wouldn't even let me explain my side. You just up and said that it was too late and left."

Olivia sat and soaked up every he was saying

"How am I supposed to trust you? How am I supposed to believe right now? You should have told me that you are still dealing with your ex when we started back with each other. You made me believe that you wanted me and that you were done with her." Olivia expressed to him.

"Do you love me?" He asked her

"Yes."

"Do you want to be with me?"

"I did."

He repeated his question.

" . . .Me?"

Olivia thought to herself.

'Do I want to be with him? I know I do love him, but does the good outweigh the bad? Can I trust him with my heart? Is he being sincere about this? Does he truly love me? Am I overreacting? I know I don't wanna lose him again even though I did say I never wanted to be with him again. I was lying to myself. I do want to be with him.'

All these different thoughts kept flowing through her head forgetting about the question Fitz had just asked her.

Fitz gently grabbed Olivia's chin making her look at him "Liv, do you want to be with me?"

Olivia looked up at him. "Yes, Fitz I do. I do want to be with you."

Fitz was happy that she said she did want to be with him. "I promise you it's just me and you now. No negative energy, no bullshit, no lies, no more hurting you. I promise with every breath that I take I will love you and appreciate you. Let's forget about the past. I love you so much and I was stupid for even letting you go the first time. I'm so sorry for hurting you and I know I should have let you know what was going on and I also apologize for that."

Olivia could tell that he was serious. She truly felt in her heart that she could forgive him and move on.

"I forgive you and I love you too."

"So you do forgive me?" He asked.

Olivia shook her head, yes and that being said Fitz got up and pulled her to him, placing her on his lap so now they were facing each other. Olivia now in a somewhat sober mind wrapped her arms around his neck.

"So we're good?" Fitz asked, wrapping his arms around her waist.

"Yes, we're good." Olivia chuckled.

"Good," He said leaning down, kissing her lips.

Olivia kissed him back and he held her tighter as their kisses grew more. Fitz gently rubbed her back as he laid kisses on the side of her neck. Olivia was turned on and she now wanted him. She lifted her head and kissed his jaw, then his chin all while grinding her bottom half on his.

"I love you." She spoke, making eye contact with him.

"I love you too." It was true and he couldn't express it enough.

She got up taking his hand and leading him towards her bedroom. "Let's go to bed."

Once they made it into the room Olivia wasted no time taking off the shirt she had on and the shorts that were underneath the long shirt she just had on. She walked over to the bed and laid down on it only in her bra and panties. Fitz just stood there in the middle of her bedroom floor looking at her, speechless. Olivia motioned with her index finger for him to come to her. He didn't wait any longer. He hurried and removed his pants and the shirt that surrounded his body. Once he got to the bed he settled between her legs, kissing her again. Olivia showed equal favor. He was kissing her from her neck to her shoulder and back up to her neck.

"Fitz." Olivia moaned

"Yes?"

"Make love to me." Olivia desperately pleaded

He didn't need to be told twice. He made it his effort to remove the remaining articles that were on their bodies. Now their clothes were gone he could get it on and popping. Fitz started peppering kisses all over her chest, taking a nipple into his mouth.

"Fitz…" she moaned

He trailed his lips back up to her neck, whispering into her ear. "What do you want me to do to you?" His voice was so deep and raspy. It only aroused her even more. Olivia couldn't believe how aroused she was just off of those little words he spoke into her ear. She felt her nipples grow tight and hard and she could feel the wetness leak out between her legs.

"I need you to fuck me into oblivion," she stated

Fitz didn't need any further instructions.

"Spread your legs wide for me baby."

Olivia did what she was told and spread her legs for him and without warning he slid into her, both of them moaning out. Olivia brought her legs around her waist so he could go deeper.

"Oh fuck!" Olivia gasped as he started pushing in and out of her.

"Fuck livvie, you feel so good" He groaned at the feeling of her pulsing around him. He wasn't even sure that he'd last long enough. He had to make sure she got hers.

"Deeper" Olivia called out and Fitz obliged moving deeper into her slickness.

"Oh god, don't stop. Please don't stop!"

He wasn't going to. He continued his deep strokes that caused her to moan and groan out his name. It was like a soundtrack that he never wanted to forget. Olivia was about to lose all her marbles the way he moved his hips, hitting her spot over and over again. She was gripping him, digging her nails into his back. He knew she was close to her release and he was right there behind her.

"FIIIITTTZ, OH GAWD."

"Are you close Livvie?" Fitz had already known the answer.

Olivia was lost for words. She couldn't even speak so she just shook her yes. Fitz reached down and started circling the little bud of nerves.

"FIIIITTTZZ I'M CUUUUMMMIMG" she screamed as her body shook from a wonderful orgasm. Fitz followed along with her. He rolled off her and plopped down on the side of the bed that he normally sleeps on when he spends the night over Olivia's

"That was mind-blowing." Olivia huffed, out of breath

Fitz shook his head in agreeance

Olivia laid close to him, resting her head on his arm. He gladly scooted her to him and embraced her.

"I love you and I'm never leaving you ever again. You

can bet that." Fitz said, kissing her forehead.

"I love you too," Olivia said, closing her eyes.

They both drifted off to sleep, happy as can be that everything had worked out for the better.