Penelope looked at her reflection in the mirror. This was the longest she had ever gone in a relationship without having sex, and while they were sleeping together naked every night since their first fight, it hadn't felt right to turn things physical. But now, it was going to be the first weekend home for Alex in two weeks, and she knew that it would probably be spent in bed, mapping out each other's bodies and finding out what brought them the most pleasure. A part of her couldn't wait for that, but the tiny, insecure, voice that she tended to keep buried deep in her heart, whispered that once things were truly physical between them, Alex would find something that displeased her, and would then toss Penelope out on her ear, leaving her alone in the world.
And so, when the door opened downstairs, she felt a sharp stab of anxiety in the pit of her stomach. Penelope took one last look at her reflection before getting up from the vanity and making her way down to the living room. Alex was sorting through the mail, her shirt untucked, a few extra buttons undone, looking thoroughly and effortlessly sexy. Her hair was still in a messy ponytail, with soft wisps hanging down around her neck. Allowing herself to relax slightly, she sauntered over to Alex and wrapped her arms around her partner's waist, pressing her lips against her neck.
"Hello, Penny," she drawled out, dropping the mail onto the table as she leaned back against her chest before taking hold of her hands and bringing them up to her breasts, allowing Penelope to touch and feel her as she moaned lowly. "I think that I want to fill a very different sort of hunger this afternoon before we order in tonight."
"I like the way that you think," she replied, hoping she sounded more confident than she felt in that moment. Still, Alex must have heard something in her voice, as she turned in her embrace and cupped Penelope's face as she searched her expression. "What?"
"You're nervous. Why?"
She blushed as she looked away from Alex, trying to put into words what she was feeling. She knew that Alex would want her to be completely honest with her, and that meant that she would have to be emotionally vulnerable with her. Taking a deep breath, Penelope slipped her hands beneath the fabric of her shirt and spread them out on Alex's back as she looked into her eyes. "I have this irrational fear that once we start making love, you're going to be repulsed by something I do, and that our dynamic will shift and fracture?"
"I would have hoped that the small fact we've slept nude together for the last few weeks might drown out that insecure voice in you, but I understand. There's also a small part of me that thinks you might not want me, too. Because I am older than you, and softer in ways I wasn't last year."
"I love your softness!" she protested before kissing Alex ferociously, slowly backing her to the table and then pushing her down onto it as she continued to kiss her, her hands clumsily slipping around to the front of her blouse and fumbling with the buttons there. In her haste, she caught the thread of one on her nail and it tore loose to clatter against the floor, and she felt Alex grin against her lips. "I want to devour every inch of you."
"And I would gladly let you, but I am not as young as I used to be, and I don't think my back could take the kitchen table. Especially not after the plane ride home."
"Was it quite bad?" she asked as she helped Alex to her feet, not bothering to look for the lost button as they made their way over to the stairs and started to climb upwards.
"There was a bit of unexpected turbulence, and you know full well that we don't keep our belts fastened like we should. Thankfully, I didn't get tossed around too badly, but I'm still a little stiff. Maybe you could give me a massage before we decide to take things to their natural conclusion?" The saucy tone of Alex's voice caused her to giggle a little as she nodded, tightening her grip on Alex's hand as they went into their bedroom.
"I will be right back, I'm going to go grab some massage oil from the bathroom." Alex nodded before kissing Penelope gently, shrugging out of her blouse and letting it flutter to the floor as Penelope stared. Chuckling lowly, Alex waved towards the bathroom, and she nodded dumbly, finding it difficult to turn around and leave Alex's side. Finally, she stumbled like a dazed deer into the bathroom and quickly rummaged around in the bottom drawer for the rose scented massage oil that she knew Alex liked.
When she returned to the bedroom, Alex was naked, and lying facedown on the mattress, her head pillowed on her arms. A lazy smile spread across her face when she saw that Penelope was back, and once more, she found her breath stolen away by the sheer beauty that was her Alexandra. "I cannot wait to feel your fingers on my back," she murmured, and Penelope nodded as she set the bottle down on the nightstand so that she could strip off her dress.
"And I cannot wait to dig my fingers into the softness of your back. But you have to tell me if I dig a little too deeply. I don't want to hurt you, after all."
"I don't think you would ever intentionally hurt me, Penny." She nodded before kneeling on the floor and kissing the small of Alex's back as she trailed her fingers up the woman's spine. Alex shivered beneath her touch, and Penelope let out a deep sigh as she pushed herself to her feet and picked up the bottle before straddling Alex's hips. Pouring out a liberal amount of the liquid into her hand, she set the bottle aside before rubbing her hands together, warming the liquid between her palms before spreading it out over Alex's back, working her fingers and the heels of her hands into the tight, stiff, muscles there. Feeling a bit cheeky, she slipped her fingers down Alex's side to brush against the swell of her breasts, and she was rewarded with Alex arching upwards, allowing her to fully cup her breasts, her thumbs swiping against Alex's nipples, feeling them tighten beneath her touches.
"Do you like that, darling?" she murmured in her ear before blowing softly along the shell. Alex nodded as she bucked up a little, trying to come in contact with Penelope as a low whine slipped from her lips. "I can't hear you, Alexandra," she said as she tweaked one nipple, eliciting a louder moan from the woman as Penelope flipped her onto her back, leaning in to capture her lips in a bruising kiss. Alex nipped at her lower lip before moaning as Penelope started to kiss her way down her neck and chest, never pausing until she had reached one breast.
"Please," she whimpered, her hands fisting the sheets as she shifted and strained in effort to get closer to Penelope. Glancing upwards, she made certain that Alex's eyes were on hers as she lowered her mouth to her breast, letting her tongue flutter around the nipple as she sucked and laved at the soft flesh. "Fuck, Penelope, just…"
For a woman who relied on words for her job, Alex seemed to have very few of them at her disposal, and Penelope laughed as she bit delicately at the nipple before continuing further down her body, tickling her navel with her tongue before parting her legs and cupping her ass with her hands, positioning Alex so that she could easily eat her out. Again, she locked eyes with Alex, wanting to watch her as she made love to with her, wishing that this moment in time could last forever, since she knew that firsts were fleeting, even when they were so joyous as this.