Meredith was standing in front of Amelia and Kath with sleeping Ellis in her arms. Amelia was staying to her right and put a defending hand on her shoulder. Kath was standing on her other side. Nancy, Liz and Carolyn were looking at them. Nancy looked really angry and ready to threw something, Liz was suprised and so was Carolyn.

"What's going on?" Asked Kath and took a step closer to her mother.

"We were just arguing, that's all." Liz said and looked at Nancy. "You know Nancy."

"Nancy in Nancy. I don't know how you still can withstand her." Amelia came inside the room and put Ellis' bag next to other bags on the couch. Meredith was the only one who stayed in the place.

"Amelia Francis! Don't speak like that about your sister." Amelia ignored her mother and sat down.

"Can you all stop shouting? Meredith just got her to calm down." Amelia said and looked at Meredith. She was still standing there, but this time she was rocking Ellis. "Meredith?"

She looked up and they eyes were on her. " She started to whimper. Maybe I should go home."

"Please don't." Carolyn said and came closer. She stood in front of her daughter-in-law and her granddaughter. Carolyn looked down and smiled. "She is beautiful."

Meredith smiled and rocked Ellis a little bit. "It's not her day." And then she opened her eyes. Meredith took a deep breath as she saw her daughter's blue eyes and hoped that she won't cry. Ellis just stared at her mother and then at her grandmother. She was looking at her with interest. Carolyn smiled and touched her small hand.

Meredith smiled. She wasn't angry at Carolyn for what her daughters had done. She understand her. If one of her boys would die, she wouldn't be herself. She would be crying and shouting, saying bad things to others. It was her way of grieving. When her mother died, she was numb and said a lot of bad thing to others. She almost broke up with Derek, but he was the one who saved her from loneliness and made her to believe miracles again. When Lexie died, she cried for weeks. She was angry and hurt because another one close family member of her had died. One month later died Mark. He was her best friend. She shouted at her interns, made them work hard. That's why her new nickname was medusa.

And when Derek died… She laid in her bed and cried. She cried and said nothing. For the first time she stayed mute. Meredith cried for days, didn't eat anything or speak to anyone. Boys tried to speek with her but it didn't work out. She put her fake smile on and spent time with them saying nothing. But her pregnancy changed it all. Meredith found out about another beating heart inside of her and she started to be herself for her kids. Matt, Chris and Bailey needed her and another little heart inside of her too.

"She has his eyes." Carolyn whispered and Meredith saw tears in her eyes.

"She has. Do… do you want to hold her?"

"Can I?" Meredith saw hope in her eyes. She carefully put Ellis in her arms.

"Hi, little one. I'm your grandma." Carolyn looked at Meredith. "What's her name?"

"Ellis." Meredith said and smiled. Her daughter had a grandmother... and soon she will have her dad.

"It's a beautiful name." She said and stepped inside the room. Liz and Nancy almost immediately took a step closer to Carolyn. They wanted to look at their niece. They had heard what their mother had said.

"I named her after my mother."

"You and Derek have named everyone of your kids after someone." Amelia added. Meredith rolled her eyes at her sister-in-law. Amelia always knew how to break a moment.

"You have more children?" Liz asked and looked at Meredith, who now stood next to Derek.

"Three boys." Meredith smiled. "Matthew after Derek's dad."She looked at her sleeping husband and took his arm. It was soft and fit perfectly with hers. "Christopher after Derek and Derek Bailey after Derek and dr. Miranda Bailey."

"Why after her?" Nancy asked in her cold tone. Meredith looked into her cold brown eyes.

"Because she saved my life. I almost died giving birth to Bailey." She said and looked at Amelia, who was texing someone.

"Can I hold her?" She heard Liz asking. Meredith nodded and saw her taking Ellis. Ellis was still up and was looking at her other aunt. Liz smiled and then looked at Meredith. "I'm sorry Meredith, I know I said awful things to you at Derek's funeral and I'm not proud of it. I was hurt and I missed my brother. You know… we lost our dad. We lost Mark and then we lost Derek. We lost them... I lost them and it broke me."

Meredith stepped closer to her.

"I didn't speak with my brother for nine years. Every day I had phone in my hand… and I was ready to call him, but then we got your call and he was dead. I was too late. I was blaming myself for not calling him, for being a coward. And all my pain and blame I put on you. It was easier for me to blame someone else other than me." Liz looked in her eyes and saw Meredith crying. Meredith was letting her pain go away. She was ready to forgive Liz because she knew that feeling. Meredith also had lost a lot of people in her life and there was time when she blamed eveyone for that. She blamed Derek for letting her mother to die. She blamed Owen for putting them in that stupid plane. She blamed Richard for killing Mark and she blamed the President for killing Derek. She blamed them all once, but that was in the past. Meredith understood that it's not their fault and acquiesce their death. That wasn't their fault and she knew it.

Meredith took a step closer to Liz and wiped her tears before took her into a hug. She was careful not to squeeze her daughter. "Thank you, Liz! This means a lot to me."

Meredith saw Liz's cheek getting wet. She was also crying. They both were crying in the middle of this room, which was full of ALL Shepherd woman.