Chapter 1
Kensi POV
The last thing I remember was a bang as if something had blown up and the feeling of pain ripping through my body as if a million little bullets had just hit me. The next thing I know I'm in hospital and there is a small child clinging to me as if I am their life support. I still can't hear anything, other than a constant ringing. At least I know I'm alive. But I still have no idea how I got here, what happened to me and why is there a god damned child sleeping next to me.
3 weeks earlier.
It was the last day before I went undercover and all I wanted to do was sleep in and enjoy the last day that I had with my family before I left. I remember being woken up with the smell of fresh coffee and pancakes. As if on cue a tiny ball of energy came running through the doorway in the form of a 2-year old wanting to have some morning cuddles with her momma before she goes undercover. The small soft hands of the young girl reached up to the bed, silently asking for help to climb the gigantic mattress. Over the next month or so I would not be able to have these sweet moments with my daughter that I would miss the most, well this and waking up in the arms of the man I love most in this world and arguably the next.
Present time at the hospital
All these memories evaporated the moment I opened my eyes and finding myself in a hospital bed. So, I'm lying there with no clue how to wake this small child and tell her that I have no idea who she and who I am to her. The ringing in my head turned into a continuous pounding that got louder and louder as I feared that I may wake the child up and finding out why she is still clinging to me as if I mean something to her and that could happen if I make any sudden movements. Shortly after contemplating who this child is a nurse comes in to check vitals and whatever else she needs to check. Hopefully she will be able to tell me why I'm in the hospital as well as tell me who the parents of this child are so she can be returned unharmed. After the nurse slowly goes through all her checks she finally tells me the answers I've been waiting for.
So apparently, I was working an undercover operation involving a low-level drug ring when one of the members got suspicious and took out half of the ring and left the rest to die. The nurse told me that I had been in a coma for a week and I had surgery to remove a bullet that broke a couple of ribs, while explaining the whole reason I was in the hospital she never once mentioned any children being involved in this op, before I could ask her about the child she continued telling me about my coma when she said that my husband and daughter have been basically living in the hospital since they were notified that I was in the hospital and only leaving when other loved ones took over watching over me while in my coma. And in that moment, it seemed like the earth was in retrograde in walks a tall blonde with ocean blue eyes and a smirk full of hope and something else that I couldn't quite place.
Deeks POV ~ 1 Week into Kensi OP
Over the last week it seemed like Kensi was never coming home from her undercover op. As much as I loved spending time at home with Monty and his daughter just running around and having fun it did take its toll when you have to answer questions from a confused toddler regarding the whereabouts of her mother. Most days there would only be the occasional "Dada where Momma" or "Why Momma no here" and on other days there would be full on melt downs because a sweet innocent child just wanted to see her Momma but couldn't understand that her mother was currently busy infiltrating a low-level drug ring to help gather intel on other rings in the streets of LA.
Deeks POV ~ Present time
After a long call updating everyone on Kensi I slowly make my way back to Kensi in her room so I can watch over her until someone else decides to show up and take over. When I'm a couple metres away from the door that opens to Kensi's room I find that the door is already open and all I feel is dread that someone has come to finish what they have started, luckily only the nurse in there who seems to be staring at his wife. Getting closer to the entrance of the room I noticed that the nurse was actually talking to Kensi, the fact that the nurse was talking to Kensi gave me a small beacon of hope that she had finally woken up and was asking why the hell she was in the hospital and why she isn't at home or staying at the safe house she was assigned for the undercover.
As soon as I entered I was overjoyed to see Kensi sitting up and listening to the end of what the nurse was saying, without thinking I walked over to Kensi and sat on the bed waiting to see if she would say some smart yet sassy quip, but instead I saw the panic and wariness in her eyes, those are two things that you don't see on Kensi Marie Blye-Deeks eyes very often. However, this seemed different as if she was afraid of saying the wrong thing or if making any sudden movement would trigger something, that was the moment that I knew that Kensi was not Kensi.
The Kensi that I love was gone and yet still here at the same time.